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Originally posted by LuckyStar:
We have been married 15 years and have 2 children. I filed for divorce in July and he was beside himself. He does not want a divorce and we are seeing a counselor that is really good who is working closely with us. Over the last year I had become very close to a male friend. It was an emotional connection but he wanted it at a deeper level. I felt in love again but I would not let it turn physical. It could of just been the blush of finally feeling heard, finally being validated.
It made me wonder what am I doing?
I prefer my friend as a friend only, we share a lovely grand trine in synastry it feels fun, lively and cozy too. But, I have no respect for him as a man because he cheated on his ex-wife for 10 years and after being friends with me for 7 - wanted an affair. Totally goes against my morals, I also find him to be a coward to come after a married woman. So no to romance.
I wonder if I could feel for my husband what I felt for my friend. Almost like my friend came along and helped me remember why people get married in the first place because I forgot.
I do love my husband, I want to extract was is good about Venus square Saturn if any. He is a good man and fits my ideal of a husband but we have this huge elephant sitting in between us at times and I want to shoo the elephant away. I hope someone has ways of dealing with this energy so I can learn to conquer the challenge and reap the benefits.
I always say a square is like climbing a mountain. Difficult terrain, sometimes you want to just give up but when you get to the top you are exhilarated and overjoyed at what you accomplished.
Good on you! I deeply respect and admire women like you who don't give cheaters a chance - cause I'm like that too. "If the guy cheats on his wife, sure enough he will cheat on you" kind of thinking!