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Originally posted by madelineleo23:
Well my Neptune/Uranus are in Capricorn so yes they would oppose my Mercury in Cancer since Capricorn is the opposite sign of Cancer. By the way I really appreciate all of your help.
Yes they are in opposite signs. But some people pay more attention to the orbs between them etc.
Now I see that Uranus/Neptune both oppose Mercury in Cancer and that suggests that you could feel misunderstood or feel that it is strenuous for you to articulate yourself well.
Cap energy tends to rule interruptions, delays,distance and formality. So there is a tendency to feel that you don't get the forthcoming sympathy when you communicate about your feelings(Uranus). Or that people are just not listening sometimes(Neptune) etc.
Cap energy also validates what you said about being better writing things down. the opposition to earth signs suggests that one likes to formulate communication in tangible ways; writing,video recording, texting etc. so as to review or revisit later on for "editing".
All in all,your disappearance from the Gemini is not unique and has much to do with you and not the Gemini
You take time opening up to people as you are emotionally very expressive. But you need to feel "heard" or close enough to do so.
The distrust you feel/wanting to distance yourself could be the Moon in Aquarius defense strategy.
You fear loss,so distance seems to be the best solution; so as to gain a more objective perspective and prevents too much "attachment"
But if you hope to have more meaningful relationships with others(as this is truly what you crave),resist disappearing on them.
If you feel yourself waning or feeling "disconnected", it is usually because the subject at hand feels superficial and has no "heart" in it. So change it.
At the heart of you is someone who wants to connect with as many people as possible. But is afraid of being emotionally "spent" or "wasted".
You crave intense emotional connection(8th house cusp in Cancer). But are equally fearful of these wonderful connections breaking down, being interrupted or being lost.
What if I invest myself and it is all for nothing? What if I am present emotionally and the other person doesn't show up? What if I have to start from scratch all over again? What would be the point of giving myself anyways?
The keenness to establish objective communication distance(3rd house cusp in Aquarius) is your attempt to control these anxieties.
Its not easy being vulnerable. But if you want to live a life being less defensive, the walls will have to come down.
And perhaps this Gemini that you want to disappear from so much, could ironically be an excellent catalyst in helping to show you how?
Think about it