I was born when Moon was 12° Capricorn, VOC by all definitions. But VOC doesn't have the same significance in the natal chart as it does in horary.However, I have news for you. Moon was not VOC when you were born in spite of being in the last degree of Capricorn and not applying to any planets in longitude [born 10 July 1998, 10:16 AM, Montreal, right?]. In declination it was 17S31 applying to contra-parallel to Mercury 17N10. This aspect disqualifies it from a true VOC. That aspect of Moon contra-parallel Mercury is one that indicates you tend to 'feel out loud' and process how you think about what you feel by communicating. That is good, because we Moon-in-Cap people can otherwise be too emotionally stuffed. So write!
So, no what you are describing does not have to do with VOC Moon. It could have to do with Moon parallel Uranus 17S56 since that puts them both contra-parallel Mercury. This is a configuration of restlessness and possible discontent as Moon-Uranus creates tension with Mercury, representing your thinking process. So emotions strong, eccentric, but in tension with your cognition. Moon relates to struggles with mental balance/health, especially when in strong/hard aspect with Uranus and/or Mercury.
It is all that love that matters, and all that creativity. One of the things that can happen with Uranus in strong aspect with the Moon is the nervous system/emotions can get over-juiced, too strongly charged. Getting grounded can help. Get out of your head, discharge some energies kinesthetically if that helps, and focus your mind on what you can create today, one small step at a time.
I don't know what to say to how you feel that you were saddled with a mental illness as if it were given to you. I believe it is quite possible you chose it -- as a challenge. However, difficult that may be to imagine, it only looks terrible or insurmountable if you're comparing yourself to others, assuming they have it easier than you. Maybe, maybe not.
Maybe the most important thing is finding enough balance within yourself so that you can feel good about yourself, accept yourself enough to go on a day at a time and find expression for that love you feel and all that creativity. I would love to see you succeed with it.
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Soul Stars Astrology by The Declinations Guy
Declinations: because the planets move north and south of the celestial equator