Hi Charlie...
I'm realizing that it's been Birthday Season for you.
Happy Birthday! Like I said.. gotta watch burn-out when your engine idle runs high.
Another point about a different exhaustion--
Some sky energies are touching some charts where they can feel like that. Continues into August. Just pay attention to your body's need to rest. Perhaps some exercise too can help with restlessness.
Go outside and hug a tree! *Heart*
If we had been neighbors, we would have had a LOT of fun together! We would have explored sooo many things..
And ALSO, 'because' you'd be friend, I'd take a moment, and I would ask you 'how' you were feeling in the deepest part of you?
.. Were you actually kind of feeling an empty depth inside, underneath all the glittery entertaining sparkle and changeable fun?
.. Are you genuinely okay, and this joie de vivre is basically the way you are?
.. I mean, we all have times of feeling private like we need our personal space.
AND, you may be experiencing pent up energies of 'cabin fever' from COVID? {haha, Mars in Aries now.}
When we feel like we need to keep away from some energies, there's a need to quietly examine why that would be.
Understand it.
There could be some revealing information about yourself that would explain things, or even bring you a different experience.
It's okay to 'visit' energies and entertain them for a while (inside of you). Brings more "clarity" .. to what you want. To what you don't want as 'part' of yourself. You pick and choose.
Back to astrology! ..
Transits---
Are you having a strong Uranus transit?
I have no idea which birthday this is.
Uranus opp Uranus?
Some of your expressions remind me of identity search, identity crises that occur during our adolescent years and transits.
Certainly too... You must be having significant House transits right now too?
You said you kind of avoid Cancer/Capricorn..
in Western, is that your 1st and 7th houses?
I don't know your actual chart.
I keep electronic copies of folks who have shared theirs, so that if I see them post something, I can refer back to their chart before answering.
Progressed---
The other thing I thought of too is your Progress chart. Progressed points. Any new shifts to different signs? Has Ascendant changed sign.. etc. Planets.
Outside Entertainment---
Charlie. Have you ever thought about taking "Acting Lessons"??
You might REALLY enjoy participating in drama classes. Might be a good outlet for you. You can get to build characters, and portray them on stage, or in a group. They teach you how to hon some of those characters in those classes.
Improv can be fun. ..
Get involved in Community Theater?
. . .
Of course the COVID 19 has stopped MUCH of those for being social outlets right now. *bummer*
Are you feeling a bit too cooped up from quarantine? awwww. Sucks doesn't it?... mmm. yeah.
Study Vedic Nakshatras---
The other cool thing I can steer you towards are Vedic Nakshatras.
.. You might want to look up the Nakshatra your Sun belongs to,
.. and your MOON is just-about the MOST important planet to Vedics. It represents the mind.
Ascendant is very important.
Look up their nakshatras. Take notes.
(Vedic uses the Sidereal)
Vedic Mars and Moon in Sagittarius.
Sagittarius is made-up of several nakshatras.
The transiting south node {called 'ketu'} is entering moola {also spelled mula}. Is the south node crossing your Moon and Mars (in either tropical OR sidereal)?
Again, Get a printout of your Vedic placements, and start looking up the Nakshatras.. and padas {haha, you'd learn about those later}.
Take Care
This guy does videos almost daily.
He practices Sidereal Astrologer {not Hindu/Vedic}. I learned a lot about aspects from him.
youtube channel
"Mastering The Zodiac"
Athen Chimenti
- http://www.youtube.com/user/masteringthezodiac
When you click it,
it will take you to his website.
An introductory video begins.
Athen "explains" what Sidereal Astrology is. The history of it.