Doomlord,Thank you so much!
do you put much interest in career?
Yes, indeed. I place much effort in it. A lot of it also has to do with my childhood and the majority of people (especially one parent) who didn't think I would amount to much. So, I spent my life pretty much focused on achievement.
does your work deals with money or property(doesent have to be physical)?
Yes, I am a banker. I finance companies who provide goods and services to the public. I finance projects to build bridges, hospitals and schools. I finance power generation projects. I provide services to facilitate international trade.
do you have intense and maybe a bit unstable partners? maybe strong changes in partnerships?
I married a very strong willed partner with a dominant and aggressive personality.
We agreed to get married within one month of meeting each other and got married within three months.
did you marry someone who was your friend?
I didn't know my partner before meeting her. She quickly became my best friend in life. I have never had many friends who didn't outright disappoint me.
did your partner had disabilities?
My partner was a rape victim, as I am. You can surmise that since we are both dominant, Type A personalities, we are not exactly social creatures, even though she is a Leo Sun.
did your partner revealed to you parts of yourself that were usually hidden?
I'm not sure i know how to answer that.
I am quantitative person with deductive capabilities, and my partner is a qualitative person with artistic/creative abilities. I suppose I discovered my creative side after getting married, but I already actively wrote poetry [ask lilithpluto ]
My partner did reinforce and enhance parts of me that were already prevalent.
are you argumentive? (i already know the anwser for that XD)
I was captain and anchor for my college debate team, and we were Ivy League champions.
do you belive yourself to be convincing?
I try my best, but only when it is worth the effort. I don't always bother to pursue every single argument.
were you hurt as a child or abused in some way? maybe by potential partner?
I was heavily disciplined by my parents. I was disciplined by school. Discipline in that part of the world meant being whipped. I was whipped naked while tied to a tree after puberty.
I was sexually raped at knifepoint when I was 10 years old, with attempted anal and oral penetration.
do you feel like you understand other people hurts becuse you understand your pain very well?
I try my very best because I am intrinsically a giver and not a receiver. That is my number one criticism at work: willing to help everyone but unwilling to receive help.
do you restrain yourself a lot? or feel restrained?
I employ self-discipline. A lot of that has to do with a martial arts background and also a background of military service.
did you have few actual friends or none at all?
Almost none at all.
My first true girlfriend hurt me beyond belief by getting pregnant by my childhood best friend. I folded inwards with an apprehension towards both sexes and it psychologically took me a while to regain trust in others.
My best friends have ended up being only those I truly love romantically. I remain deeply in love with the women I did not marry and I am in love with a very selective few other women with whom I have not had a romantic relationship.
I have almost no male friends.
are you putting more attention to having fun and pursuing hobbies you find interesting?or maybe learning to express yourself in a better way?
I have always been fun loving throughout my life, but I have repressed a lot of that in order to advance my personal achievement.
Now that I am in a more advanced stage of my life, I am dedicating more time towards fun and enjoyment.
are you spiritual but dont follow any of the monotheistic religions?
Actually, I am monotheistic. I have been a life long Christian on my own accord. A large reason why I married my partner is that she shares the very same religious convictions, although that wasn't by any means the sole reason.
do you feel like its hard for you sometimes to express your desire towarrds another?or express yourself with words?
I am guarded when expressing my affections upfront, and generally remain silent. When it is time, I reveal it all.
I am an excellent communicator, as you know I have zero problems expressing myself verbally, and in fact, I have a reputation of raising eyebrows and dropping jaws when I speak.
I have a commanding presence at work, and even my boss and his boss become quiet when I speak in teh conference room. Part of it is professional respect, but part of it is that I communicate with no-nonsense precision-based impact, "telling it as it is."
that a start....so tell me what you think
That's a wonderful start Thank you so very much!!!