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Originally posted by KarkaQueen:
Sun/Moon midpoint in 9th house
Sun square Chiron
Moon in 10th
Moon square Neptune and MarsYour consciousness and life experiences is tied to travel and learning experiences -- more specifically do you have parents from two different cultures that influence the world in a significant way or the way you perceive the world?
Hmmm... Parents not particularly from different cultures. As a child we moved a good bit, and I lived in several different states, so it fits to a point.
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You have deep rooted pains with your father and from Chiron in the 5th and Sun in the 8th most of these issues have to do with intimacy , how you see your psychological self and your vitality and it effects you so badly that you have troubles in dating and you often feel restricted in your sexuality, correct?
I've got to think about this a bit. I did have times when I had intimacy issues with my father, times where I felt I couldn't express strong emotions in his presence. Also he was, mmmm, an alpha male type, so perhaps a bit of worry about measuring up.
But as for dating, I've been quite fortunate in the partners I've had with regards to both emotional intimacy and sexual expression.
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Venus rx conjunct NN in Cancer in the 9th house, most of your learning will come from the shyness and difficulties you have with love even though you have a lot of affection in you just waiting to get out. You are reserved and uncomfortable with your partners due to your feelings of insecurity and not getting proper emotional security and comfort as a child.
You have a desire to nurture but you realize as you try to you go out of your comfort zone and it scares you, you are trying to stay away from that and your past life is closely linked to that. Strong issues relating to motherhood in this life.
I think that there's a good bit to this part. But I may have worked through much of this in earlier years. I just had my 50th birthday. Still, it does take time for a partner to earn my full emotional trust... I view this as somewhat normal. I do get very deep with my affection, and I think one of the things that draw women to me is I'm good at projecting that feeling.
I had a pretty good relationship with my mother. Unfortunately, she passed last year.
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Venus trine Saturn.. the Cancer is kind of cooled down combined with the Moon in Leo and you can readily discipline yourself and you don't wear rose-colored glasses so that's a good thing.
Ironically, I am accused of wearing rose-colored glasses all the time because I choose to expect the good in people... Or at least project that expectation.
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sextile Uranus -- you prefer partners unfamiliar to you because ironically that makes you feel comfort being with people different.
Moon sq Jupiter and Jupiter opposite Neptune.. is your mother's religious or moral beliefs conflict with yours and she is often judgmental of you and the way you express your emotions because of it?
At times
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Jupiter-Neptune kind of reminds me of some zealousness in spirituality and an attachment to have some faith.
At times I am a Gemini. I have many sides to me...
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Uranus-Pluto square Mercury-Vertex
Your views often challenge society and you get excited on this matter. Uranus is in an angular planet and not retrograde so this is charming to many people and you could relate to it through your career.
You don't like to talk just for simplicity sake about any frivolous subject and when you like to talk it is usually deep-provoking topics and psychological issues you have. You will make a good therapist or you really need one lol.
Do you like to write? Especially about macabre subjects?
Dead on. Except for the macabre subjects. I don't like to fill my head with depressing thoughts or visions of worlds I hope will never come to pass. Oh, and I hope not to need the therapist. But I'd probably make a good one. One of my gifts is that women tell me their secrets. I'd like to think its because they know that I won't use them against them or judge them.
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Mars unaspected. hmm. this means you compensate from your low vitality by showing emotional aggression rather than physical aggression. Do you easily feel victimized in your relationships or you feel you have to fight them?
Yeah, Venus has Mars locked up in solitary confinement in her dungeon by both house and sign. He tries to put messages in bottles hoping for assistance in a jail break! Lol!
Low vitality is true. More emotional than physical. Sometimes find myself being stubborn over things that may not really matter just to demonstrate I'm not a pushover.
One theme I was hoping you might see... I seem to live the pluto death-rebirth thing in my life. It seems like every few years major changes force me to reinvent large chunks of my life... home, work, friendships, relationships. As I mentioned earlier, in childhood this was caused by frequent moves, but the theme carried over into adulthood. I've just come out of one such time, and a major one at that. I would probably attribute much of the "insecurity" theme you saw to these changes.
Thank you so much for your reading. You've given me new things to consider.