I'd like to share a composite and the story attached to it. Natal Chart
I : sun > cap, asc > cap, moon > gemini
He : sun > gem, asc > virgo, moon > taurus
Composite chart :
I had an affair with this guy. It was very complicated from the very beginning. To tell the whole story will take long. So, I'll go with the basics.
Venus Conjuct Uranus-12th house ( Libra )
Although we knew eachother the affair started with a sudden attraction. It was not a proper relationship ( I am 36 now and never had a relationship - I have relationship phobia )
Sun, Jupiter, Mercury in the 5th house
Sun conjuct Jupiter, Sun conjuct Mercury, Sun trine Saturn-8th, Sun sextile Moon-7th
Mercury conjuct Jupiter, Mercury opposition Pluto-11th, Mercury trine Neptun-1st
Jupiter opposition Pluto-11th
Too much emphasis on the 5th house; he was a musician. We were partying kinda rock-n-roll style, having fun. The sex was magical.As a matter of fact, sex was all we had. For more than 2 years, we had sex almost everyweek. ( He was seeing other women as well and we were open about it )
Venus-12th square Saturn-8th
Unfortunately, while we were having the affair, we did not a have a place of our own for a long time so it was kinda hard to build up. there are a lot more details to add but let's skip them...
Although we were so close while we were having sex, we were unable to really open up to eachother. Mostly, because of me. I have some serious issues on getting intimate with the guys I like.
Mars-3rd square Asc
I was speaking so little but when he ****** me off, I was so blunt. Again just a few words but sharp as a razor.
Other Saturn aspects we have :
Saturn-8th trine Asc>Scorpio
Moon-7th sextile Saturn-8th
At the end I fell for him really hard but I was also tired of his comings&goings and everything was a repeat all the time. I tried to stay away but could not resist. But there came a time when I decided to cut the cord for good. I told him that he was my weakness that I wanted to cure and asked him to help me and not call me again. Well, just a week later we ran eachother and he asked me if he could spend the night with me. I could not resist and said yes but left him there when we could walk together to my house. He called, I said I arrived and he said "I am coming" While I was waiting, I ligt a cigarette it made me sick. I passed out. When I wake up I checked the phone, no messages, no missed calls. We ran to eachother a week later. He was distant. After a shortwhile, I left the town for a long holiday where I learned he fell in love with my neighbour who lives right across my flat. He moved back to town, to her house! Our rooms are next to eachother and yes I can hear ! : D
For the first few months, he kept trying to catch me whenever I was coming&going, he brought me a meal he cooked and so on..
The woman keeps inviting me for a coffee...
I am kind but distant.
Anyway, now it has been nearly 8 months we are neighbours.
I thought I was over him and did not care... but nowadays deep down inside I still feel VERY much connected to him. I want to kill this connection but the more I try to more I sink. Nobody knows but I think I am obsessed with him. My friends will kill me so I can not confess.
Is Pluto the planet causing this obsession?
Mars(Aqu)-3rd trine Pluto-11th
Mercury-5th opposition Pluto-11th
Saturn-8th square Pluto-11th
Neptune-1st sextile Pluto-11th
Why do I feel he still has feelings for me?
Is Neptune the planet caused me to create an illusion of him?
North Node conjusts Neptune-1st
It is 05:00am and look what I am doing. Pathetic.