i just sort of need to open myself here a lil bit because there’s no other place for me to do that. last year a very special, lovely bond happened between me and someone and due to reasons, it abruptly stopped. we haven’t spoken since october and it’s been really hard but as time went by i managed to sort of pull myself together. recently, in the past 10 days, it’s been unbearable. i started having dreams about him and the girl i think he’s with,
(maybe) waking up in the middle of the night, crying, having the urge to vomit etc. during the day i can barely
eat properly. yesterday i missed my bus stop because i zoned out so hard. a woman started talking to me and i could barely contain myself not to cry in public.
my soul feels tired, i feel used and neglected and it’s been months but it seems it’s only getting worse especially nowadays. i literally skip lunch because i can’t make myself to eat. my entire body feels like dying. an educated lady told me this is someone else’s energy being projected onto me if it completely obstructs my life. what do you think about that? and have you ever felt this way?
i know times heals it all and that’s not what i’m asking but. why is all this happening to me and it just keeps going on and on. is it unfinished business?