posted March 20, 2006 11:44 AM              

I have been really worried about my grades..ive not been doing well in studies at all and im now worried that my future could be bad.. but im too afraid to share it with my friends and so ive been really quiet in the past few days.. and because of all this depression my previous dissapointments have come on me with renewed force..

The most horrible part of it all is that my closest friend is really upset and has stopped talking to me because she feels i have been really mean to her..but i dont know how to explain to her exactly what im feeling...cause im not sure about it myself...ive tried calling her but she hasnt replied...Im really afraid of loosing my friend cause she is one of the few people who actually understands me..

posted March 20, 2006 01:25 PM              

it seems it's just a bad time astrologically for all (yesterday was a really bad day for me, my gf wasn't feeling well, my best friend has been quite depressed also..)

If your best friend truly knows you well enough to understand you then she won't mind listening to you share what you have been going through. Sharing the pain with someone will make you feel a little lighter if it doesn't make it go away.

Sometimes we get so bogged down with negative things that happen around us that we can't concentrate on school or daily life in general. The good grades will return in time once this period is over. Meanwhile, don't allow the bad moods to cloud your vision of the future because as bad as this might be, it'll pass.

posted March 20, 2006 03:26 PM              

I feel for you !!!

Ive a strong Piscean influence in my chart, together with Scorpio....lots of water.

All my life I have allowed people to hurt me and have been afraid to speak out in case I didnt get liked or that I may burden others.

Its only now in my 40s I DARE to be myself.

Dont lose heart....if you cant find people there to speak to please keep posting here......there will always be someone here to listen and share....

posted March 21, 2006 08:43 AM              

I still believe the effects of the Lunar eclipse from 7 days ago are affecting people whose points/planets were touched!

posted March 21, 2006 08:54 AM              

I hope you start feeling better really soon. It sounds like you've been hit with a lot of things all at once. Don't you hate how it always seems to happen that way? I know that you'll be OK though. You are a pisces, and us fish have endurance! I hate to say it, because I know how it feels at the time, but the darkness that you're feeling right now will pass and light will come to you.
Wishing you all the best,

posted March 24, 2006 10:33 AM              

I want to add to the feelings, thoughts and warm wishes expressed already on this board by everyone else...I hope that when you read this board again, you will start to feel better knowing that a lot of people care about you and what you are going through...

I also want to say that I think you showed a lot of courage and heart in coming forward to us on this board about this matter. I know from personal experience that it's not always an easy thing to do, but I'm proud of you for taking this step and letting your feelings out.

When I saw this post for the first time, I was touched emotionally, because I went through similar experiences recently: I was in school getting my Master's when I was starting to feel the same way and the coursework was too much. Because this was a Social work school too, assignments with a personal touch were emphasized and I started feeling all the painful emotions of the past. I was also having a lot of personal issues at the time that were emotionally hard to deal with.

I was fortunate to find, however, starting in school that since this was a profession that dealth with feelings it was important to let your feelings be known about anything, including if you could not handle projects or assignments or if you needed extensions with them. I can't tell you how much this helped me because I was so afraid in the beginning to speak up and let others know that I couldn't handle work.

But more than that, when things really became too much to handle, I took a leave, with the encouragement of the school's staff and loved ones. I was so afraid to let them know how awful I was feeling inside, but I just knew that keeping it inside would only make me feel worse and that I was actually encouraged to let my feelings out in this environment. I'm glad I did this; not only did it help me heal through the terrible time I was in, but it helped me know that I was not alone in this and that there truly were people who cared about me, whom I could trust to talk to and who could really help me through this, and they did.

Let your feelings out with those who love you and will truly understand you...even with your close friend, whom I sense from what you wrote, is someone who really loves you deep down.

Take it a step at a time: Just let someone know, like you did on this board, how you are feeling right now. I understand it can be hard to talk about everything, but just let someone know how you feel. Once you talk to others who understand and care and whom you trust, you may feel like talking more. Write in a journal, or a diary...draw pictures--anything to let your feelings out. Writing has helped me a lot get out sad feelings--thanks so much to the encouragement of a friend who also went through a similar situation.

Above all, take care of yourself, because you do matter and do things that honor who you are.

I hope you feel better, and although all this is easier said than done, I know and have faith that you'll get through this time.

LeapofFaith

posted March 24, 2006 12:30 PM              

Sun/Mercury/Venus/Jupiter/ in the 12th
Moon in Scorpio conjunct Pluto in Scorpio
Sun Trine Neptune...

i have lots of water too.

posted March 25, 2006 12:08 PM              

Firstly, id like to thank everyone for the support given to me..

I have been thinking about my problems and ive decided that i will not let this problem ruin my final year in school..i will work hard and make sure that i do my best..

I am definitely feeling better as i took a small vacation and went back to my country for a few days..i celebrated my grandparents 50th wedding aniv. there.. i met my entire family and i was soo happy to know that there were so many people who care for me and are there to support me..

I returned today and i was sooo glad to read everyone's reply here...everyone here cares soo much about others that i just feel very happy..

Thank you once again..