posted June 13, 2008 12:20 PM
Hey Mysticr,I remember my Saturn-return only too well.
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Did you finally know what you wanted to do with your life?
Yes - The Saturn-return helped me in immense ways! BUT: It took a whole lot of patience. My advise would be: Take the tasks, tests and obligations as they come - be prepared to struggle hard - and be also prepared to reap the rewards quite a looong time afterwards. But they will SURELY come!
A sketch of my own Saturn-return: I was almost 30 and just about to really "start through" in the career I had chosen until then. I was employed and quite succesful - BUT, but, but: I sensed that this was NOT the right thing for me to do. Despite of all my success I felt very(!) bored, unsatisfied, empty inside.
When Saturn returned exactly I dared to make a decision - and quit that job. ANYBODY, really anybody thought I was crazy.
Nevertheless I changed my job and started a new one under The Saturn-return-influence. I hoped that maybe this new employment would bring back the enthusiasm to my profession/job. In fact, my salary increased immensely with that new (employment) job.
BUT - I tell you something: Crisis increased as much as my salary! I was even LESS content with that new job, it got worse and worse. Again, my outer "success" was undoubtedly there - but inside I got really sad and insecure and aimless.
ALL THAT HAPPENED RIGHT UNDER THE SATURN-RETURN, which took a while due to Saturns retro-movement and all. (I had little of astrology at that time ... I looked it up now, in retrospect.)
So ... I was just 30 and desperate and helpless, as far as my life goals were concerned. I wasn't able to identify with my job and/or the rewards it gave to me - NOT AT ALL! I felt a stranger to my own life!!!! Horrible!!!
And then, almost a year AFTER the Saturn-return was over ... i went after my guts ... and quit that second job as well.
Again: All the people around me called me "nuts".
BUT I had the strong feeling, I was really convicted (!) that I had to to it on my own - that is: work as a self-emplyoed person, on a freelancer basis.
I started that in 2001, one year after the Saturn-crisis had punished me.
And then - another year after!!! - in 2002 I was HUGELY SUCCESFUL with my new, self-employed endeavours. I even was able to home-in some "fame", huge rewards, much, much money, much much attention - and was SO happy with it!!! And this started to be the base for all I have been doing since then. I was very susccesful for about 4 years then. I still am. (The next small crisis-phase came, when Saturn went conjunct my Sun a handful of years after ... small rectifications had been necessary).
Sorry, when this stroy is too long - I only wanted to say: For me, the Saturn-return was heavy work, not an amusing time, very irritating and made me feel insecure - BUT, in its aftermath, the consequences of that crisis led me to whole new frontiers - otherwise I might have refrained from daring to take these steps.
Be brave - let yourself be "tested" for a while. See it like a (sportive) "Duelling Fight" with fate ... if you face that challenge, you'll come out as the champ! It's that ancient image: From coal, under heavy pressure, comes a diamond ;-)