posted October 24, 2003 04:09 PM              

Pixelpixie, I'm not one to deny the love a person has for another. Heck, we need more love in this world. I am surprised how kind and self-contained you are after reading Zoka's notes on your chart, some quite graphic. You know yourself the best, so keep on being your lovable self and know that the Gods and Universe are always with us, in upturns and downturns. Now if I could convince Wall Street this, I will be a uber-uber rich lady

posted October 24, 2003 04:20 PM            

Seriously though, I have been asked several times if I am a Scorpio. One time was by an astrologer / tarot card reader, which at the time, I did not know that I had the pluto / asc thing going on. LOL...

Then there are the time when my Aries moon is so lit up (reinforced by the other fire in the chart)and I am just like what Linda describes and Aries woman to be like.

I am not even going to get into that whole Libra -Uranus Singleton thing either. My first house is pretty confusing....but I am never really bored...or boring. LOL

posted October 24, 2003 05:09 PM              

Shawnee, see . . . there are mediums out there who are already guessing for you. LOL. *Twilight Zone Music* Though I think the Aries-Scorpio energy is more evened out in your chart because both the Moon and Virgo are feminine.

Speaking of mediums, there is a Shaman who is hosting a seance on Samhain, October 31st. He is going to contact spirits from Summerland. I've never been to anything like this before. Has anyone else?

posted October 24, 2003 05:19 PM            

Amy, are you asking if we`ve ever been to a seance or one where specific era entities are called on?

If the latter is your question, I have never participated in one where a specific spirit or group of spirits were called on.

A Summerland seance sounds enlightening & I`d so love to attend!! If you can, do go!

posted October 24, 2003 06:17 PM            

Aphrodite, if your medium friend is so inclined, I would love to read of his experiences, maybe he would be interested in posting them here?

posted October 24, 2003 07:19 PM            

Amy, be sure to share the Shamans seance with us!

posted October 25, 2003 04:06 AM              

Pixelpixie, it is totally irrelevant how you look! I like you for the person you are, the artist that lives inside you, not how you make your hair or if you have acne! That is so unimportant!

I have never insulted or humiliated a Scorpio or Aries woman and confronted them openly and they did appreciate it. The Scorpios are (my personal taste!) to obsessed with sex most of the time and the Aries to quick and inpatient. My best friend is a true Aries and every time she has an idea I fear for my life. Bungee jumping, hunting wild animals, or, at least, annoying the authorities. She has 6 planets in Aries with her rising sign and it is a stress. I am a Cancer and you Aries people scare me to death with your "go out of the house a little bit more and I thought of something great we might do ..." I know that I am too slow for the rams, but please wait for me too! And I am sorry, I have met a lot of true Aries men/woman and they lack manners. I mean, they usually tell things at the most wrong time. And to the wrong people. But they are not mean. I think that the greatest punishment for an Aries is to sit at home and watch TV - I know my fire friends make a great sacrifice to do "once a month what you want and bore us to death"

But I have seen the Scorpios and the Aries when they are REALLY mad and it was not a pleasant sight! I just react in a different way and need time to figure out what you wanted or meant.

None of the signs is great or mean by itself and you can find in every sign a good and a bad person. The Scorpio and Aries ladies give me the chills. Sorry, I am just slower and softer than you!

posted October 25, 2003 04:43 AM              

I have got e-mails from 20 members from this board to do their charts and after explaining to them what their flaws were, along with strengths - as we all have them - they all tried to convince me that was not the case. That they only have good sides and that those negative aspects must be connected to some other people in their chart. Do you really think that way!? Does anyone here think he/she is good without a bad thing or flaw within the character? Does someone think he/she is perfect? I know I am not, and so far it has come to this: me doing a chart and pointing out the good and the bad sides of a individual and you all pointing out ONLY the good things in a person and attacking me for bringing out, God forbid!, the things that need work and seeing me as negative for saying something you don't want to hear.

TINK asked about her chart compared to Pixelpixies. TINK, you have the exact opposition of your Scorpio stellium with Saturn in Taurus and Uranus is not near. Pixelpixie has a square and her Saturn is in Leo and Uranus conjuncts Mars. Totally different story.

For Pixelpixie. I have considered that you have a child with another man and that he was your VIIth house and that your current partner is the IXth - you said that he has a totally unrealistic view of you and that he loves you. That is the Venus/Neptune conjunction in your Vth (he really does love you). The ruler is Mars in Scorpio, so he is a demanding man. As Mars left Uranus he must be divorced once. This marriage WILL last and I would not advise you to get divorced now, because the ruler of the IXth is on the 29th degree of Libra ... and could mean that you will be alone for the rest of your life. This has another meaning. That soon after the marriage the husband could (not MUST) die. This marriage is good (as good as it gets) and you should stick to it. Nevertheless, you will find a new man in your life during 2007 and you can decide what to do. As there is a strong opposition with Jupiter he will not marry you.

Good luck with your art! I see that you have already used the best side of your planets and houses. Bravo!

posted October 25, 2003 08:45 AM            

" And I doubt that you are happy. I am sorry to say this, but you will have to resolve some deep issues that started in your family home, with your father probably, before being able to have a new and better relationship and therefore a happier life. Your IVth house is the worse house ever "

Telling someone she has 'the worst house ever?' That is something that will only inspire panic...Another quote from your reading of pixelpixie:

"This chart is though and painful and there is NO WAY you have had a happy and cheerful life. "

Good Goddess, how can you tell someone she hasn't a happy life? There might be a more tactful way of saying such a thing--a way tht would encourage an instruct her with ways to be more happy, content. And how many people do you know who would call their lives 'happy and cheerful?' Would you? Is happiness a constant state for anyone? We are gifted here in the western world, but we all still have our own troubles.

Now, as far as looks...you say now that she shouldn't worry about her looks, that looks don't matter. But earlier, when you were speaking of your weight, you contradict that philosophy.

In any event, I think you are a talented astrologer, zoka, and had hoped you would peek at my chart too. I don't think anyone here would deny that they are fascinated with your abilities...and yes, all of us are human, we have negative traits that perhaps we don't care to acknowledge. I can't speak for anyone else. In fact, we have pointed out what might be called 'negative' traits in you, dear zoka, and you too have balked at that! So you see, we are all on a level playing field!!

posted October 25, 2003 12:32 PM              

It is my understanding that where two or more are gathered and pray together miracles can happen. I resolve that on Oct 25 and 26 I will hold these issues in mind and prayer that help will come to those in need. will you all please join me?

Also, Zoka, have you notice how this media has brought this issue to many individual attention? What other media can possibly assist you?

posted October 25, 2003 01:10 PM            

Yeah, you have that right. I have one of those "killer dirty looks" that my father calls the Apache Death Stare. I don't even mean to do it, but for some reason I can just totally convey what I am thinking in a glance. My ex said it reminded him of the movie "Resident Evil" where the lazer beams go through the person and cut him into shreds so quickly that you never see it until he breaks apart. That's me....lazer beam eyes. LOL....you have it too don't you

Amy,

That is so weird that you mentioned a Shaman. I didn't read your post until today. Last night I had the oddest dream (I will post it in Astral Realms in a few). But it was all about me being a Shaman / Healer in a past life and the destruction of my tribe.

I have never been to a Seance, but I did meet a woman once that channeled my grandmother. I was in a bookstore in Florida and she came up to me and started talking about my granny and that she missed me. She even took on her mannerisms, which freaked me out. This lady had no way of knowing that my grandmother had died or what she was like, so it really hit home. She was a sweet lady and really helped me through a difficult period.

posted October 25, 2003 09:28 PM              

You were a Shaman in your past life? That is deep and wonderful. Have you ever thought of writing down your dreams in a collection? I am sure you have many powerful experiences in your trips to the subconscious Universe.

I too, knew of a lady who had spirits speak through her. Very trippy. There is a website online that is stocked with volunteer mediums helping others connect with those who have passed on. I personally have never experienced a session that was focused specifically on me. Good for you the Universe got you and your grandma together one last time

Hi Trillian and Juniperb, Because you two are so encouraging and optimistic, I've decided to purchase a ticket and go myself. Thank you. I will report back and tell you what happens. The Shaman is blind, so I don't think he will be able to come onto here and type.

Loves all y'all,

posted October 26, 2003 05:24 PM            

pixelpixie...aw shucks thanks. I just tell it how I see it!

Aphrodite, I'm a bit jealous! I think you will have a wonderful, fascinating and extraoridinary time, and I can't wait to read about it. Lucky you!

posted October 27, 2003 03:20 AM              

In defense of Zoka, I would just like to point out that she is not an english-speaking native! I think some of how she says things needs to be taken with a grain of salt and a little humour. Think of the arabic, where they are very "flowery" in their speech, or germans, who are very "direct" in their language (a bra is called a busen-halter (breast holder) for example!) Maybe you/we need to look at the language/posts with a tongue-in-cheek view. All I can add is, kudos to you Zoka, on your language skills! (I happen to know she also speaks fluent German!)

posted October 27, 2003 02:14 PM              

Pixie ~ I appreciated your post. So true. So true. Everything you said. Were you reading my mind? Happy birthday! - and you keep that head held high.

Zoka ~ in reference to your last post: I can't speak for anyone but myself but, if you recall, I explicitly REQUESTED that you tell me about any negative tendencies in my chart. Not morbid. Just like being prepared. I have no desire to overlook, ignore or deny my weak spots. On the contrary, I'm on the lookout for them. (some would say THAT'S a problem) But I need to know my enemy in order to defeat him.

And just to prove my point. I have a godawful, classic scorpio-type, violent temper. Known to some as "the Demon". Doesn't rear it's ugly head too often but when it does....

Mind you, I've never hurt anyone. Not really. But I sure have broken a lot of dishes.

posted October 28, 2003 07:38 AM              

I am sorry that you got the wrong impression from my reading that I do not like you or that I have pointed out only the negative things about you - maybe my reading was clumsy? - no person is 100% good or 100% bad and there were charts with tons of bad aspects, which worked out fine and charts with super-good aspects and owners of it who were miserable.
That is the human nature: never satisfied and always complaining (God bless those few on the other side). Of course your chart has good things! Every chart has something good about itself; the thing that probably made it seem that I have focused on some 'negative' aspects in your life was triggered by a question you asked me, which I - my English is still not so good and I do not get every deeper meaning of some of the posts or quotes here - probably understood wrong. You asked me to look at your chart and that you have, not a problem or dilemma, but that you are questioning things about love, life, your destiny and karma, so I gathered that you are at some cross-point in your life and would like to hear the options for you. I interpreted is as a question of someone who has come to a stop in her life, realizing that everything she has done so far is OK, but "just not it". Did I get it wrong? Have I concluded things the wrong way? I never wanted to say that you are sitting at home, totally miserable and utterly unhappy with everything around you ... just that you probably want something more and do not know how to get it or what it is. Is this correct?
A natal chart should not be understood as a definite thing, but as a potential and a little window to the future that can answer the question: "What if I ..." This can show you your talents, especially the deep and sleeping ones, your open/hidden enemies in life. Things that could be a problem, things that will be smooth in your life etc. So a chart has potential and MOVES and can, of course, bring major changes or new things, depending how much the natus is willing to change and accept those new and unknown things.
Maybe I used some wrong words or phrases, but it seemed to me that you are not using even one quarter of the energy that lives inside of you. If you look at the IVth house, you will see so much strong planets, which explain your roots and the deepest core of your being. The IVth house shows the genes you have inherited in order to develop some talents that will be either useful or harmful in this life to live out your Karma. Now, if your Mercury would have been in another position and the Moon somewhere else, if Uranus were in the next house, I never would have looked at your chart twice, as it would only indicate a sexually liberal woman who sleeps around and nothing more. As Saturn is in the Ist, you take great care of the way you represent yourself and what you do. And most Scorpios love sex, but not with everybody and especially not with a strong Leo and Capricorn trait. If your Venus/Neptune conjunction was in the VIth, I would have said numerous abortions and genital infections and let your chart be. This way (if you read my posts about your chart more than once maybe you will find it) your chart has great potential, which can go the wrong way - and I mean really wrong! - and end up as a total waste of everything you have. Do not get me wrong, not every bad or good aspect needs to manifest itself in the text-book way, but it will manifest itself somehow. And as I have told you before, you lack soft signs and planets and the fixed axis is too strong to show something usual or common - or mild reactions. For our fixed friends, especially you, it is all or nothing and will always be this way. Plus, the Mars/Saturn square IS the worse aspect in astrology and it shows MAJOR changes in life. And I do not mean Prince Charming coming to your house and sweeping you of your feet and taking you to his castle - I mean those things that transform you into something else. This is the aspect that either kills you or strengthens you, the aspect of great battles and strong warriors. If it were in a mutable sign I would say a psychological illness and take you to a mental institution (if other aspects support this claim), in the cardinal something else. As it is the fixed square Scorpio/Leo, it is the axis of life and death and those two signs that stand at the beginning (Leo, Sun) of our solar system and the end (Scorpio, Pluto), opening the door to the Universe. Are you doing evil things or are things done to you? The Capricorn Moon shows the wounded soul, the soul who has decided to live alone in the woods, the hermit that has seen it all, as this soul realizes all the bad sides of everything and can not endure the pain of humans. This is the soul that suffers with the one that are hurt, humiliated and wounded. Although this soul is the most cruel souls of them all, you will NEVER find a person with this soul that hurts children or animals. This soul is hurting itself or punishing entire nations. But only the evolved ones will have such a deep insight. The less pleasant version will be ruthless, selfish, egocentric and cold be stopping itself from further moving and repeating every incarnation 100 times, until it learns. But have you evolved? Oh yes, my dear! Your whole chart screams KARMA!!!! and I do not know what you have done in your past life, but you have been kicked around, beaten, humiliated and everything you can just imagine. The XIIth house is the house of Karma and the ruler is in the sign of it's fall with sextiles that show strength and learning. And the angry soul. Do you like people? Yes, but in an universal way, so it may happen that you LOVE mankind, but dislike some individuals. The Mars/Uranus sextile Moon gives an intuitive soul, the one who can spot the weaker individuals in our society and help them. But it also shows the angry soul. You mentioned your mother and giving money to the poor and how you don't like it. That is how I knew that my interpretation was going the right direction. A chart as yours will not give money for the poor, but will provide work, education and hospital treatment to put the people on their feet. You do not need to clear your conscience with small gifts, if you want to help, you will do so. A fifty-fifty deal is, in your chart, not an option. And this is the part where I will make another comment about your IVth house:
Capricorn, Cancer and Scorpios are the signs of a strong karma and they are the only thing present in your chart. And the ruler of your Asc just left the North Node (the things we HAVE to learn) and has an aspect with Uranus. You were a man in your past life and making you a woman was meant as a lesson for this life, but you knew this and wanted this somehow, as the Sun shows awareness and wanting. So there will be major learning in this life and as you totally lack true Air and 'cute' signs you DO see, not the negative as bad, but the negative as other side of every story. If every soul comes from "baby heaven" to this earth, the Scorpio baby is the only child who has seen heaven, but took a quick peek at hell too. This is the sign of the utmost deepest, strongest, hardest energy and it is difficult to control. Unlike the other signs, even the fire energy, it demands more. There is a great difference between the Mars/Sun/Uranus/Node conjunction in Virgo, Cancer or Scorpio. With this conjunction you have Mars in his "night" position. (in your chart on the EXACT degree of astrology) Uranus in the sign of its exaltation and the North Node at the EXACT mid-point between Mercury and Uranus (the lower and the higher mind). So your purpose in this life should be learning and connecting the lower and the higher world. Unfortunately, your Mercury position is totally useless for the "lower world" making you rather stupid for everyday tasks and understanding rational and 'normal' stuff. The 29th degree shows the mind that has already learned everything it should have learned in the sign it is in, but still can not leave. It is the trapped planet, just like your Jupiter, the planet of 'formal' education. But it will help you "put things together" in order to make this information you have gathered useful. This shows energy in the hands and a investigator, as Mercury is the mid-point between Pluto and Mars. You must spot bad people in a second. But Uranus will evoke talents for the supernatural, the hidden and scary, the occult and mystical. Do not understand how the bank works or why to pay the bills? Probably not, but if someone explains to you how Vicca magic works or the basics of reincarnation, this will make sense to you. Talking to the dead or summoning lost souls? This is easier than going to shopping. Astrology? You should be joining a course or school NOW, as you have great talents and insights beyond normal comprehension. Telepathy? Almost. The thing that is wrong in your chart is the IVth house, because it has 3 signs, making Pluto and the Earth with no rulers. In our country we call it the "squeezed" house and it always brings trouble, not making you a bad person or doing wrong things, just mental, emotional and psychological trouble. This is the area of your home, your grave, your destiny and purpose of being. Some houses with such a problematic constellation will be easier to handle, furthermore if they have softer signs. This is the area of your life where you fail to SEE things, as this house is totally hidden from you and will emerge when least expected. And there we have the root of the problem: Saturn in the Ist is the mask, the shell we keep to protect ourself and the IVth, the VIIIth and the XIIth will show what we are protecting. And you can not see it and it is so powerful. And I think you are not going to see it for quite some time. And it is not going to leave, as Scorpios tend to stay until the bitter end. The raw, sparkling and life-giving energy people pray God to have you are using ... on sex. And I do not know why, my guess would be that the extra energy needs to get out and you have found a way to vent. Otherwise you would go insane. I will say it straight: sex is not going to help and you know it. There is so much of it and it is so powerful ... the man you are with should be VERY enduring and powerful in bed. And you have described your husband in a most charming and truthful way. He can, perhaps, satisfy your physical needs and keep you calm for some time, but will fail to satisfy the emotional part of you sexual needs: the total symbiosis of two souls and the entering of one into another. True, this is the Kundhalini energy, the sexual energy that brings life and that WANTS to be spent. Leaving it in the lower part of your body it will find a way to get out by itself and burst every chakkra you have, from the Muladhara (root chakkra) to the Sahasrara (crown chakkra), going up to your head and making a mess without giving you the thing you want utmost in this life - spiritual freedom and bliss. The Kundhalini energy needs to be stirred very carefully, as it can upset your entire well-being and take you to another realm you are not ready to see. You need to open every Chakkra very slowly, not by breaking down the door, as you will have a tornado inside yourself. And as Uranus is here it will give you an explosion of the energy. If your Saturn (ruler of the VIth and the Moon: "What will people say ...") has dampened and not redirected this energy it could hit an organ and make you sick. The Muladhara is the lowest chakkra and is connected to our lowest drives (food,sex etc) and making a clutch there will affect an organ in the neighborhood. Your genitals, as well as the entire reproductive system, are your weakest point and there could be some MAJOR trouble here. When Uranus, without guidance, evokes THIS energy, you will not have any control of it any more and you could do some things you will regret later in your life. You did not have any trouble at home? Good! The energy is still sitting and waiting, although I do not know for how long. Tantric sex should be something that could help you, although I do not think that your husband will appreciate my suggestion and you having sex with a guru. My second choice would be regression, the absolutely last choice some sort of therapy, which will have no effect at all and leave you empty. My suggestion would be a healer too, as your bioenergy is as powerful as ever and ready to be used for others in needs (Moon in Capricorn in the VIth). Saturn is in the Ist, as the ruler of the VIth, giving you the wish to help others.

It seems to me that you have lived out your chart just fine, neglecting the IVth by restricting and hiding yourself and maybe projecting your own hidden strengths on men around you and desperately hanging on to the Venus/Neptune in the Vth that trines the Asc/Saturn and that will give you artistic talents and a romantic/beautiful aura that has, obviously made men attracted to you and women envious, but which will not fulfill your deepest needs. The one thing that people lack and is necessary to cross into another dimension or spiritual level is courage and you have, although using it on facial treatments and polishing nails. There are charts that show a good wife, a great co-worker or a genius engineer, a committed doctor or a simple farmer. Your chart shows something else and the chart is sitting and waiting and waiting and waiting ... Please show me the person who has convinced you to be the 'little house-wife' and 'cosmetician' and to turn away from YOURSELF. Art will give you the satisfaction you wanted, but in a lesser degree. I hope that the transit of Uranus through your VIIIth will open that hidden door of yours for you and that the transit of Jupiter through the IVth will lighten your new way. Good luck on your new journey and do not go the wrong way!

Oh, about the weight loss and the fights I had with the Scorpio and the Aries lady. The weight loss is a must for me, as I have a health condition which forbids it for me to have more weight than allowed. The fight with the Scorpio lady was about my brother, the fight with the Aries lady during the war in my country and the crossing of a border which almost killed us both - if it had not been for her. I will need to check out the dictionary I have more often ...

posted October 28, 2003 11:03 AM            

I admire your astrological abilities, and your command of the language is far superior than some of those born in English-speaking countries. Of course there are language nuances that a non-native wouldn't know, but that is not your fault. We are further inhibited by communicating in text, with no ability to soften our words with tone, facial expression and emotion.

I am a born 'devil's advocate,' which in this country merely means I like a good academic argument with no disrespect intended. I'm a bit distressed, thinking I might have offended you, and if that's the case, I apologize. Best to you...
Trillian