posted March 01, 2005 01:03 PM              

Thanks, I have come to the conclusion we all need a wife, a partner, its' true, BUT I do not want to clean up someone's mess left by an ex girlfriend, wife, mother.
That's why I say Go Away, go home to your mother, your woman, your wife.
Go back to where you belong, and start over, I am someone new, your equal, not therapy.

It was John Lennon, a man with another Sun conjunct Descendant like me, who said
"Go back to where you once belonged, your mama's waiting for you"
When it's all about relationships, your life is everybody else's relationships, previous, present and future, including Mama.

i have to stand up and scream just to be counted! I can't allow anyone to stop me, out of competition or jealousy.

posted March 05, 2005 10:23 AM              

You're going through a bit of a solitary struggle, it seems. More like an internal struggle which manifests?

Have you sat down and looked for astrological patterns over the years? Who or what is the astrological influence you either need "to beat", or need to learn from, or need to get away from?

I've been looking at this myself for myself.

posted March 14, 2005 04:01 PM              

I feel threatened creatively at the same time I have many more conveniences. But as the convenience and partnership factor grows, I feel my imagination and passion fade.

posted March 16, 2005 12:51 PM              

Natasha -

Just tell remind yourself that you have the freedom to do what you want with your life. Maybe there is little voice in your head keeping you back. Give yourself permission.

posted March 16, 2005 06:53 PM              

in love with? compassion, and understanding.

posted March 17, 2005 05:29 PM              

Ex b/f gives me guilty, wish he could do more, look, such as I wish I could get you to hug me, or flirt with me, or wishing it was different. Too guilty to say anything but stare.

Feels like a hot poker being branded into my forehead, I hurt all over, have terrible anger dreams, about ex g/f killing himself. I know it's a defense, but how to stop it?

posted March 22, 2005 11:03 AM              

The part you said about the guy taking a peek, acting like WE are the one who thinks THEY are desirable, just in time for their girl to turn around and give us the look of satan. This was a HUGE issue with me, AND STILL IS if I do not consciously take an active role in ignoring it.

Sort of like, you can take the girl out of New York, but you can't take New York out of the girl ...

posted March 22, 2005 11:19 AM              

These days many things are out of my control, I give off an air of wanting to be taken care of-at least according to a Leo friend. I feel strong, even energetic, contrary to how I appear. Part of the issue is that I have all these things up in the air, I must sell my house to leave the area where the Gemini is, I don't want to talk about it, and then there is sex, money, surgery, all these things that I have to deal with. I can't complain because if I do things will devolve.

It seems things work better for me when they are a secret until they come to frutition, but the Gemini always told me I don't talk about what' s in my head and heart enough, honesty is better. I agree with that, but then when I do that, with one person, my entire life revolves around that person. If that person is insecure already, then it's overwhelming, so most of my emotional life has to be kept secret. Sometimes people have an ability to see what's going on and it makes me feel vulnerable-especially Geminis.

I try to be honest and open, and it's my new resolution everyday, but I still it's kind to be private, open criticism is appreciated but it can hurt too. I can be as hurtful as any Gemini, only it's remembered. I have to watch what I do and say these days, and that's just not like me usually.

I want a relationship, at the same time I am fighting being sucked into someone's world. I need to make a world of my own-I sense underneath, I am changing and I don't want anyone to touch that. I am not in love for the first time in a long time, and it feels free-for now. It's sad to fall in love, and sad to fall out of love, and I can't understand why I have so much trouble with the middle ground. Just when things go well with me and a man, I get my feelings hurt, and blow it.

posted March 22, 2005 07:01 PM              

At the moment, ride it out, learn what you can and when the fire dies down a little inside reflect on what changed. I think it will prove to be both more subtle and more powerful than you think, and 99% of what bothers you now will be seen in a light that is different fromm before, and you should be able to both relax and navigate through life more comfortably than right now.

You almost seem like a warrior in battle, very intense, which I actually like because I know that kind of energy very intimately.

I know this is all very vague, but trust this Pisces, I think you will look back on this period of transformation very fondly in the near future.

Love,

posted March 22, 2005 07:13 PM              

Hopefully by May, by birthday I will be settled in a new house and routine, then things will more or less stable, it's just waiting that's the hardest part. Now I have lost the number to my mover, and of course he's stopped advertising.

It's little things like that,

I am glad you understand, there are days when I really feel like giving up, but I just can't. On top of that this is the year my hair has gone completely white, so I have to keep dyeing it to look normal, problem is I don't want to go back to the way I was before, if that' makes sense.

Maybe i will just go white.

posted March 22, 2005 07:22 PM              

Release your grip on life a little, loosen your mental fingers and allow things to flow as they will. Too much focus on too much detail can strangle life. Have faith in the little things, let the details take care of themselves. There is magic in life that comes to fill little voids, but it is easily disturbed by an unreceptive nature, which, only temporarily, youu have adopted.

Try a little meditation, a long hot soaking bath, anything that will just let you open up and flow properly.

Things might just start to feel a little better in the way they work. Give it a shot and I'll send a little of my own brand of white light your way. I owe you that at least as far as I am concerned anyway.

posted March 22, 2005 09:35 PM              

Do send the white light though,
I will be looking forward to it,
Thanks to for all the great Gemini advice, if it wasn't for you, I wouldn't know what to do. I wish I could be childlike someday.

posted March 23, 2005 01:57 AM              

Yeah well, that's why I don't come around here much any more and when I do, I try not say very much.

posted March 23, 2005 04:10 AM              

And it seems like everything we say is wrong too, no?

Even if we shout at the top of our lungs, no one hears us, everyone ignores us, even if we say we are not bad, no one cares, everyone is convinced that we are stupid and bad and misfits anyways, everyone just basks in the gem bashing and appreciates the comments that further that purpose, and ignore the comments that don't join in the unison,

this is the wrong forum for us air types maybe,

posted March 23, 2005 06:04 AM              

I'm a Pisces, I'm still here.

The so-called "Gemini-bashing" is a fairly new phenomenon, to the degree with which you feel it at the moment at any rate, which cannot be denied.

I think in the past Gemini was described as "Can't live with them can't live without them". I have noticed a Gemini tendency to be sensitive for a short while and then carry on regardless. The air seems to be heavy with Watery influence at the moment, and this is why all of a sudden mud is sticking.

Ask a Scorpio what its like to have to hide your true self away. You only have a taste and it will pass I'm sure as most Gemini's ARE lovable. But life and people are always more multi-faceted than that and perhaps for once Geminis might actually absorb these lessons rather than treat them as a passing fad.

Besides, Gemini Nymph and Secret Garden, both of you are highly intelligent perceptive ladies, who by no coincidence have Water Moons. Most on this forum including the Geminis are what I personally consider to be of a wiser perspective than the masses anyway.

I think we are reflecting the average Gemini, and those that aren't as focused on their own character and spirituality as we here all are cannot break the cycle of behaviours that govern them and may well represent their signs more clearly than any of us here.

I personally am of the opinion that Gemini's aren't evil by ANY strecth of the imagination, more like indulged children who tease and poke but cry when they are told off for it. But, of course, this is a generalization. Thing is, generalizations are a part of human nature for a reason as they serve the most basic of needs - security. As long as we don't let them rule our judgement, they CAN lay the foundation of understanding needed to reach one and shouldn't be dismissed withour due consideration.

Which is why I am comfortable with the "Pisces-bashing" (or "Fish-frying" perhaps?). People that share my Sun-Sign can be absolute idiots, I know a few who are! I'm sure some people think I am! And then if they like astrology will say it's because I'm a Pisces. Well, thats just wrong, wrong, wrong!!!

It's probably my Venus in Aquarius....

posted March 23, 2005 08:57 PM              

My midheaven is ruled by mercury, my rising sign ruler is in Virgo, my Sun is in the 6th, so plenty of Mercury here, plenty of sex appeal here, no reason to be jealous of Geminis either.

I am not angry at that Gemini anymore anyway,