posted April 25, 2007 01:05 AM            

My Mars and Mercury are both in my 12th...they're not conjunct, just both live there...My Mars is in Sag, almost in my 1st, but my Mercury is where it's all at with me. Mine is in Scorpio, and all my life it's been really really hard to express myself, and in a way that I am really representing who I am and what I really want to say. I am a fully loaded Sag (lol), it's in 4 major places in my chart (Sun, Asc, Jupiter & Mars) and yes, I am bouncy with A LOT of energy, but with an Aqua moon and Merc in Scorpio, I have a serious, contemplating side that goes wayyyyy deep. Sometimes it's just hard to get it all out, but I am really really good at watching from the sidelines, taking it all in, then I make my move. Typically Scorp-like. I get people's motives right away, for me it's second nature.

posted April 26, 2007 09:05 PM              

I get really irritable a LOT, and it's like I have no control over it. I don't mean to be obnoxious...usually it means I just need time alone, but that's not always possible. >_< Then I feel really badly. I can totally relate to the mood swings that drive loving friends/family crazy, too! "I'm horrible, I'll never do anything with my life, blah blah blah." "Ohhhh mmy God, you're NOT!" Eek. It's gotten a LOT better though.

I opted to go to a Buddhist-founded college which is non-traditional and kind of therapeutic in ways (well, it was at the beginning...). Everything I've learned here, the healers I've met here, have inspired me and helped me grow beyond measure. I used to be depersonalized (floating above myself) ALL the time, I was depressed almost all the time and didn't know what to do with myself. Though I still have a lot of confusion, I have a lot of tools to help me through.

Please send me a message if you 12th housers want to talk! I dunno if I can help in any way but I might be able to recommend something. I think spiritual healers are the best people for 12th housers to see...I have seen one shaman about 3-4 times now and she has honestly changed my life. Acupuncture, nutrition, body-centered psychologists, cranial sacral therapy, massage...it all helps.

posted April 27, 2007 02:57 AM              

I have mercury in cancer and venus and sun in leo in this house. Venus and sun are conjunct and sun is conjunct leo ascendant.

I have trouble communicating my thoughts, that mercury stuff doesn't come easily for me. I think I lack intelligence and I'm not good at being objective, rational and detached, I have very little air in my chart. Also, it's almost as if I don't care about having opinions all the time, they get in the way of the truth, you know. I communicate with "feeling" and I find it very hard to say something that isn't troubling my mind at the moment. I like to pour out everything that's on my mind and I hate being interrupted. That's the good thing about writing, you can take your time. I am a little poetic but I don't write. I can be quite understanding and I know what people mean when they say something.

I can be an observer but ultimately I can't stand staying in the background, I am a leo and have a lot of leo influence so I want to be out there! I have a strong personality, big ego, a lot of drive and passion and all that and I need to find suitable outlets to express my aggressiveness, I feel terrible if I suppress myself. I want to feel powerful somehow.

I'm grateful for the solitude I've experienced through the 12th house, it's helped me to get to know myself and accept things as they are, though I'm still working on those things. I've felt really sad because of not getting what I desire but I'm glad that I'm optimistic and if I don't get what I want, I can work on it. It may take a lot time but life's about creating yourself and your life. Pluto squares my 12th house sun and venus, I have a lot of transformative power.