posted December 09, 2007 12:22 AM              

We are through!

After what I thought was a nice time spent last Saturday, he became distant again during the week. Things got blown out of proportion communication-wise. Before I knew it, I was demanding we exchange personal belongings.

Sooo, I requested we make that exchange last night - he said he wasn't home. Tonight he also declined. BUT I just KNEW he was bullsh*tting! I KNEW he planned on making a game out of this! So, I stormed to his house after he told me he WASN'T home - well guess what!? HE WAS HOME! He practically threw the article at me, made NO eye contact and was a complete COLD AS*HOLE! This all from the once romantic, interested man. I just don't get it!!!

Here's the best part - when I get home, he deletes me from Myspace!!!! HOW OLD ARE WE!?

I was NOTHING BUT NICE TO THIS GUY and did nice, thoughtful things for him. He totally USED ME! And I let him know it!

I am just so hurt I was really starting to develop feelings for him.

posted December 09, 2007 01:14 AM            

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Sun in Libra
Moon in Cancer
Jupiter in Cancer
Venus in Virgo
Mars in Cancer
Ascendant in Cancer

posted December 09, 2007 02:22 PM              

I see we have a lot of similarities in our charts. Here's some information about me :

Aries rising (11 degrees)
Sun Libra (22)
Moon Virgo (3)
Mercury Scorpio (13)
Venus Scorpio (6)
Mars Leo (12)
Jupiter Virgo (3)
Saturn Virgo (21)
Uranus Scorpio (19)
Neptune Sagittarius (18)
Pluto Libra (19)

... and that said, your story strikes me as oddly familiar since I went throug a short period of dating a variant of your Aqua
interest a year or so ago. It didn't last long, less than two months and now I wonder, how on Eart could it last so long. He had a
Scorpio Sun and an Aqua Moon. He was weird, but I like weird so that was ok with me, and he was easily the brightes and the sharpest guy I've ever dated. The thing that bothered me was that talking to him felt like taking part in some sort of round table event, like an academic discussion or something, which made me feel like I have to prove myself as a worthy "debate mate" and so there I was, trying to impress him with my rhetorical skills and it was enjoyable, because I do like debates, plus I got to see him get all excited, eyes wide open and sparkling, heavy breathing, while all the time trying not to show just how excited he was and all that..., but I couldn't feel any real intimacy between us...
And then he disappeared. No phone calls, no e-mails, no nothing. It was precisely at that time that I got really interested in him.
Couldn't stop thinking about him and even started to worry that maybe something's happened to him. Lol. So I called and he
didn't answer, of course .. the standard procedure, bla bla... and I didn't even have to go to his place to ascertain that he was
there or anything, because I just knew that he was there, doing his usual stuff, trying not to think too hard about me or to figure out whether he wants me or not or doing who knows what... And I decided not to put any pressure on poor guy and left it at that.

When he did call, after a week or so, he said he really liked me, but he didn't think we were compatible enough (and he stated a very specific reason for that and he backed it up with outstanding argumentation!) and that, in his opinion, we should stop seeing each other. And I agreed, wholehartedly, but it was still difficult for me to forget him, especially because when he came round to pick up his stuff things got complicated again... but, to make a long story short, eventually we broke up. And as much as I wanted I couldn't forget about him. There was this allure to the whole thing that I couldn't define or understand (how dense can one be!?), because it wasn't like I was dying to be with him, it was perfectly clear to me, that we would not be able to make each other happy, so where did this monomania come from?! Eventually I came to the conclusion, that it was the roles. The roles had been
switched. It's a little game, you see, very entertaining if you happen to be the one who knows what's going on. Not so much, though, when you happen to be the other one. But it's usually played subconsciously so nobody feels like a winner in the end anyway. And it's always, always easier for the one that does the hiding. Although, if speaking long-run, that's debatable...
Anyway, I usually do the hiding part (not proud of that), but at some point, when I wasn't paying attention, lol, he managed to steal my role and shove me straight into the other, less glamorous one. The role in which you get to see the other person withdraw
themselves after a promising start and, to your astonishement, you are left hanging there without any good explanation as to
why. And, strangely enough, that IS very alluring. Probably because you didn't have the opportunity to actually get to know the
person in the first place and you only have a few little pieces and a lot of blanks.... (I love this analogy, can't remember exactly
where I stole it) .... and so, when you try to put them together, you fill in those blanks (for your convenience, just so you can
see the whole...), but in this process you tend to be too generous and by the time you're finished, you have already successfully fallen in love with a person that exists only in your head and nowhere else. And so, you know, don't try this at home, kids! (btw, is this phrase used in real life, too, or just in the movies?)

Anyway, the point is (and I think I got this from Dr Phil at one time ) that relationships are difficult enough and sometimes don't work out even when you have in them two people who are running towards each other. So sticking to (or obsessing
about, for that matter) a "relationship" where jou have one person running away and hiding in the bushes just seems stupid,
doesn't it?

It'll go, you'll se. Just remember to give it a little and gentle shove from time to time until it disappears.