posted December 26, 2007 10:34 PM              

Feeling somewhat violated but also set free and clear headed enough to recognize the nourishment needed and the value of faith for quick healing.

posted December 27, 2007 08:53 AM              

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Betrayal and self loathing for letting yourself care so much that you allowed yourself to be heartbroken.
Typical Virgo answer.

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I'm with Battle of Evermore on that one... except I have no Virgo placements.

I'm wayyy too defensive to let anyone into my heart for them to break it in the first place... and if I have an inkling that someone could possibly do it to me in the future and I go for it anyway (for the thrill and excitement of 'love', hah), then I'd probably be a bit p'd off and self-pitying. I'd say heartache = anger/frustration/ego blow/half-empty bed/loneliness/too much quiet.

posted December 28, 2007 01:41 PM              

Like a spear though my heart, extreme heaviness in my chest. A heavy head, migraines. Like I'm literally drowning or falling into an abyss.
Sick to my stomach.

It sounds like my rising and moon to me. :/

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I love my Virgo <3

posted December 28, 2007 02:37 PM              

Oh, and I'm a Virgo sun - Sag moon

posted December 28, 2007 03:58 PM              

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The purest love lies where it is
least expected - in unattachment.

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When a wizard speaks of love, what he refers to is almost the opposite of what we call love. To us, love is a highly personal feeling; to a wizard it is a universal force. Falling in love for us is a condition that eventually fades; a wizard doesn't fall in love because he is permanently in the flow of love itself. But the greatest difference has to do with attachment. Attachment arises whenever you say, 'I love you because you are mine.' This form of love is really an extension of the ego, which always thinks in terms of 'I,' 'me,' 'mine.'

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Why does love change?
Because the emotion of love always contains its opposite. The strongest love you feel masks a hatred equally strong. The only difference is that the love is in blossom while the hatred is still a seed.

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Or try this related exercise: think back to a time when someone you deeply loved hurt you. It might have been a moment of indifference or betrayal, or it might have been an act that revealed your beloved wasn't perfect but only human. If you are honest with yourself, you will remember how violently and suddenly love can turn into other feelings. The hatred, jealousy, hurt, or indifference that sprang up was always there in seed form, hidden from sight by the love you preferred to feel. Why did you prefer it? Besides sheer pleasure there is another reason: ego. The kind of love that is attached to another person is really about yourself, because what keeps it going isn't what is real in the beloved but something far more binding - your own need to possess.

When you think you possess someone else, what you're actually doing is finding a way to escape yourself, avoiding your denied fears and weaknesses. Instead of confronting yourself, you look in the mirror of love and see perfect fulfillment in the emotions you feel for your beloved. This is not a criticism. As wizard see it, love really is a way to experience perfect fulfillment, but it can't happen through fantasy. The mirror of love is a divine way to go beyond ego, but only after you have gotten to the pure flow of Being that lies like a secret jewel inside every feeling of love.

Remember, love is not a mere feeling but a universal force, and as such it must contain truth. If you are able to go this deep, you will find that every emotion turns out to be love in disguise. Jealousy and hatred seem to be opposites of love, but they can also be seen as distorted ways to return to love. The jealous person is seeking love but has a distorted way of going about it; the hating person may desperately want love but hates out of despair at ever getting it. Once you stop seeing love as a mere emotion, it makes sense that a universal force is drawing everyone toward it - this is the wizard's love. Thus we should honor every expression of love, however distorted. Though few people may be able to experience universal love at its fullest, all are walking the path toward it.

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Ok, then there are those moments, or days, that I am feeling oh so human and I forget all my spiritual training and purpose of being here now... This following poem is by Henry Rollins:

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You climb and climb
Hand over hand
You reach the top
You stand on the shaky ledge of your heart
You look at her eyes
You look into her eyes
You hold your breath and jump
You leap into her arms
Her arms fall to her sides
You fall past her window
You hit the ground
You are shattered
All broken up
Like someone taking a bottle
And dropping it onto the ground
All busted up
Sharp jagged broken pieces of yourself
Lying on the ground
You put the pieces back together again
They never go back quite the same
The outside is seamless, smooth
But inside
Broken glass mind
And a soul with little cracks in the sides
Loose splinters at the bottom stay to remind you
At times the soul glass splinters
Will give you s jab to remind you of your leap
After a time, when you start climbing again
You will forget about the soul glass splinters
She can break your fall
Or let you fall and break
And every time you jump
You just know she's going to catch you

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posted December 28, 2007 05:18 PM            

I have a very strong desire to see everyone happy in the end - with the right person.. and if that person isn't me, that's fine.
I trust God a lot. I really believe everything happens for a reason.

Maybe it's optimism, but at the end of a relationship, I'd feel more like 'it was just meant to be'.. so I can't feel 'heartbroken'.. I don't believe that if two people were genuinely in love and meant to be together, they could accidentally break each others' hearts.

posted December 28, 2007 06:20 PM              

Realizing that now you have to face the daunting task of picking up all the pieces of your heart from the floor and glue them together.

Stunned. Disbelief. Shattered. Breathless.

posted December 28, 2007 06:57 PM              

Teardrops On My Guitar

Drew looks at me, I fake a smile so he won't see
What I want and I need and
Everything that we should be

I'll bet she's beautiful
That girl he talks about
And she's got everything
That I have to live without
Drew talks to me, I laugh cause its so funny
That I can't even see anyone when he's with me
He says he's so in love, he's finally got it right,
I wonder if he knows he's all I think about at night

CHORUS
He's the reason for the teardrops on my guitar
The only thing that keeps me wishin on a wishin star
He's the song in the car I keep singing,
Don't know why I do

Drew walks by me
Can he tell that I can't breathe?
And there he goes, so perfectly
The kind of flawless I wish I could be
She better hold him tight,
And give him all her love
Look in those beautiful eyes
and know she's lucky cause

CHORUS
He's the reason for the teardrops on my guitar
The only thing that keeps me wishin on a wishin' star
He's the song in the car I keep singing,
Don't know why I do

So I'll drive home alone,
As I turn out the light
I'll put his picture down
and maybe get some sleep tonight
He's the reason for the teardrops on my guitar
The only one who's got enough of me to break my heart
He's the song in the car I keep singing
Don't know why I do
He's the time, taken up
But there's never enough
And he's all that I need to fall into

Drew looks at me
I fake a smile so he won't see...

Taylor Swift

posted December 28, 2007 11:50 PM            

Don't fall away
And leave me to myself
Don't fall away
And leave love bleeding
In my hands
In my hands again
And leave love bleeding
In my hands
In my hands
Love lies bleeding

Oh hold me now
I feel contagious
Am I the only place
That you've left to go
She cries her life is like
Some movie black and white
Dead actors faking lines
Over and over and over again she cries

Don't fall away
And leave me to myself
Don't fall away
And leave love bleeding
In my hands
In my hands again
Leave love bleeding
In my hands
In my hands
Love lies bleeding

And I wanted
You turned away
You don't remember
But I do
You never even tried

Don't fall away
And leave me to myself
Don't fall away
And leave love bleeding
In my hands
In my hands again
Leave love bleeding
In my hands
In my hands again
Leave love bleeding
In my hands
In my hands again

ohhhhhhh

ohhhhhhh

~Fuel

Libra Cap Cap

Thanks for the Chopra, Hexxie. Haven't read anything from him in a long time.

posted December 30, 2007 05:25 PM            

If it was one of those Crush periods more of inner peace....phew...it didn't happen ...never mind... I will mend my heart it will need some plasters aka time and I will be all ready to fall in love again.

Scorpio Sun , Sagittarius Asc,Libra Venus

posted January 17, 2008 07:02 PM            

Yes, I felt it would have been less suffering.

Aries Sun, Cancer Moon, Virgo Rising