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Topic: i wish this Pisces
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kaira
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posted July 02, 2008 07:14 PM
 
the most horrific death anyone has ever experienced. including his family. his genes need to be wiped from this earth.IP: Logged |
heart cakes
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From: canada
Registered: Sep 2007
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posted July 02, 2008 07:35 PM
that is just effed up.IP: Logged |
kaira
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posted July 02, 2008 07:36 PM
he deserves it.IP: Logged |
Kick It
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From: Leeds
Registered: May 2008
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posted July 02, 2008 07:45 PM
Come again? You what? Huh?IP: Logged |
CoralFrequency
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posted July 02, 2008 07:48 PM
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kaira
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posted July 02, 2008 08:03 PM
k, i'll break it down for you guys.he end its 3 months ago, says we need to go our seperate ways. last month, says he wants to reconcile, give it another try. last week he becomes drifty, moody. i then find out he's flirting ALOT with another girl. then today he says that i'm not good enough for him. THAT I'M NOT GOOD ENOUGH FOR HIM. AFTER LOVING HIM FOR 4 YEARS. THAT I AM NOT GOOD ENOUGH FOR HIM.
and he leaves me... again.
you don't EVEN DARE play with my heart like that. i wish to murder him, disturbing or not, i wish to kill him.
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Azalaksh
Moderator Posts: 7410
From: New Brighton, MN, USA
Registered: Nov 2004
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posted July 02, 2008 08:05 PM
How old are you anyway, kaira??
So, you take no responsibility for entering into a relationship with a person like this and laying all your expectations on him to fulfill??
Maybe *you* didn't make such a good choice in men to pal around with??IP: Logged |
kaira
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posted July 02, 2008 08:08 PM
i didn't know he'd turn out to be such a d!ckhead.and age doesn't have anything to do with it. he's hurt me over and over, this is how i react. IP: Logged |
kaira
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posted July 02, 2008 08:09 PM
i didn't "pal" aroynd with him. i fell in love with him. 4 years, and you'e bound to, right?this isn't for 3 month relationship. i don't do those. IP: Logged |
CoralFrequency
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posted July 02, 2008 08:15 PM
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alanabelle86
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From: Connecticut
Registered: May 2005
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posted July 02, 2008 08:26 PM
Extreme much?------------------
Sagittarius AC, Sun in Scorpio, Moon in Leo IP: Logged |
PeaceAngel
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From: Australia
Registered: May 2008
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posted July 02, 2008 08:39 PM
actually - if you really want to be honest here - i'd say that it's yourself that you're really hating - for investing so much of yourself and time in him. you're angry with you and just want to direct it out rather than let it hang inside. the sooner you get to the truth the sooner you can heal. nothing to do with him. everyone who's walked to the other side of where you are right now will tell you that.IP: Logged |
heart cakes
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From: canada
Registered: Sep 2007
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posted July 02, 2008 09:00 PM
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BlueTopaz124
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From: Portland, OR
Registered: Jan 2004
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posted July 02, 2008 10:34 PM
kaira...I'm sorry you're feeling hurt.  This is a huge lesson...please read and re-read what you wrote about what this guy did, and, what.you.let.him.do. We are all authors and co-authors in our lives. Yes, you were involved with him and he broke it off. You were hurting and took him back. Right there would have been a good time to be very cautious about taking him back, to think long and carefully first... You wanted him to heal the hurt, so you took him back...temporarily, he did and you went into dream mode thinking all was right again with this relationship. But then reality hit you very hard and he left, again. Of course you're ****** ...but at whom? Don't blame him. Just pick youself up and, Distance yourself from him and focus on YOU. Start your healing and focusing on remembering your good points and all the GOOD about you. It's there, believe me. Living and breathing the anger you are now is not good for you or for anyone who is around you. Never, ever let anyone be the one who decides how you feel. (repeat to yourself over and over) I am sending you tons of love to get you started on your path to love IP: Logged |
augentier
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From: KS
Registered: Nov 2007
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posted July 02, 2008 10:55 PM
you must have a scorpio venus..bless your heeaaarrrrt------------------
Capricorn sun / Scorpio rising / Sagittarius moon Mercury:: Sagittarius
Venus::Scorpio
Mars::Pisces IP: Logged |
LadyNeptune
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posted July 03, 2008 12:01 AM
I'm sure you don't mean this. You're just hurt. Please see my "Intense Emotions" thread. PS- What are your pluto aspects? PSS- Coral- I remember that. That was the Couey/Jessica Lunsford case, right? So sad. HIM, I wanted to kill! IP: Logged |
Jugular
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From: New York, NY, USA
Registered: Jan 2008
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posted July 03, 2008 06:39 AM
Kaira, if a man said that to you (ie, you're not good enough), sounds like he just tried to muster up the most hurtful thing to say so that he could really "p--s" you off and you will leave him alone forever. I doubt he really means it. I suspect he thinks you are tenacious and clingy and that was the only way he could think to make you go away. No offense meant here, really. This is just based on my own string of heartbreaks. Watch what you wish upon him, really, that could definitely mess up your own karma, I think. Just recognize that you put your eggs in the wrong basket, as most of us have done at one point or another, and focus on making yourself the best possible Kaira so you can attract somebody more compatible with your energy. Maybe get a Steve Gunn reading to give you a little jolt of clarity, I'm serious, I found mine very helpful. IP: Logged |
kaira
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posted July 05, 2008 10:23 AM
thank you, guys. you made me see clearly, and i regret ever saying what i did. no, i wouldn't want that at all, but i was infuriated by him....you guys are always willing to help, and i appreciate that alot. i have taken your advice on board, and i'm sorry for creeping anyone out. 
i have venus in Scorpio, conjunct pluto.
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PeaceAngel
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From: Australia
Registered: May 2008
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posted July 05, 2008 10:28 AM
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Lara
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From: London
Registered: Mar 2006
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posted July 05, 2008 10:29 AM
hmmmmTHAT I AM NOT GOOD ENOUGH FOR HIM.
Well, are you good enough for yourself?
I sure hope so cos the karma you have now got for this is going to need you to be REALLY good to yourself, to deal with  btw, just to let you know - no one can hurt you. You allow yourself to hurt... it's called free will. Take a chill pill babe  IP: Logged |
mblover
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posted July 05, 2008 10:33 AM
Can you post your chart? if possible his chart?IP: Logged |
vesta-sister
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From: colorado
Registered: Sep 2007
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posted July 05, 2008 11:57 AM
Kaira,
You just need to be honest with yourself, What lesson did you learn from this mistake?
What change will you make next time? Look at it this way he was not right for you and now he is not your problem.
also you were lucky to find out before marriage and children. IP: Logged |
Kick It
Knowflake Posts: 1032
From: Leeds
Registered: May 2008
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posted July 05, 2008 12:43 PM
Was he this bad for the 4 years you were together?Go watch Eternal Sunshine Of The Spotless Mind and it might allow you to relive all the good bits, but hopefully not too much as you dont want to be getting back with someone like that! I say....be a lesbian...for a bit. IP: Logged |
kaira
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posted July 05, 2008 03:12 PM
i don't know how to let go of him...
i don't know what to do IP: Logged |
Azalaksh
Moderator Posts: 7410
From: New Brighton, MN, USA
Registered: Nov 2004
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posted July 05, 2008 03:30 PM
Kaira ~Put away or throw away any remembrances of him.
Don’t go places where you might see him.
Imagine a door closing behind him and lock it from your side.
Do cord-cutting visualizations/exercises – they really do work (check the Soul Unions forum here). Ask God, your higher Self or whomever for a dream: a dream where you can act out your goodbyes (whatever you wish them to be). Years ago, I had a dream that really helped cleanse the remaining vestiges of my ex from my mind/heart. I loved him and he hurt me – I had to leave. I had a dream where he sat placidly on the couch and I yelled at him at the top of my voice, “do you have any idea how angry I am with you?” and so forth – just let it all out. In my dream he sat there and took it (which would never have happened IRL, I would have ended up in the hospital). When I woke up my throat was sore, but I was purged. The catharsis of that dream went a long way towards healing my hurts. Next, you need to forgive him. I know that sounds terribly difficult right now and might be the last thing on your mind. Your love went unrequited, and more than that he said something unjustified and untrue that hurt you deeply. Please don’t dwell on what he said to you. There are times when you love people and they can’t or won’t love you back – that’s not YOU, it’s THEM. You know now that this man is no good for you, and he doesn’t deserve your affection. This time with him was a hard lesson that you needed to learn for the advancement of your Self. You need some time to take care of YOU right now.
Spoil yourself and do things you like to do.
Spend time with your friends.
Go to some classes you always wanted to take, or start a new hobby.
Moping over what might have been is self-defeating, so begin looking ahead instead of agonizing over what is now in the past. Letting go is never easy, but the sooner you begin, the sooner you’ll be on an even keel again. It’s a trite cliché, but there ARE lots of fish in the sea, men that will return your love and treat you better. IP: Logged |
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