posted October 02, 2008 11:23 AM         

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PA's advice to meta:
This is genuine. I'm 20 years older than you - I'm not smarter or wiser - just have lived a bit more. Go out - be a young girl and enjoy yourself. Meet lots of different people and become the best person you can be - just for yourself. The right person - you don't need to look so hard for them - they just come and you just know - especially when you are not looking or expecting them.

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It's... it's just difficult. I become attached easily. I become invested emtionally too much. I can't help it...

It's not that i'm looking necessarily. But once i find something that has potential i become obsessed. It rules me.

posted October 02, 2008 11:27 AM         

You're right. We have a lot of connections. I think that your Venus and possibly Sun enter into my Grand-ness. Also conjunct my ASC, Juno, and Valentine. I'm pretty Scorpio.

What are your degrees?

EDIT: I saw them. Nevermind. I thought maybe your Mars played into me a bit but i don't have anything near 3 degrees.

posted October 02, 2008 11:31 AM         

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There are those who see shipwrecked men and say,
"The sea is off-limits to sensible men,".
Perhaps it is so... and I would rather be senseless.

~ hsc

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posted October 02, 2008 11:34 AM         

Well, I threw a lot of asteroids in there.
Here, this is simpler:

>>You're right. We have a lot of connections. I think that your Venus and possibly Sun enter into my Grand-ness.

Hell yes, they do.

>>Also conjunct my ASC, Juno, and Valentine.

Yup. Keep looking.

>>I'm pretty Scorpio.

posted October 02, 2008 11:37 AM         

You can call me Valerian. That's my nom de plume.

I write aphorisms, mostly.

posted October 02, 2008 11:40 AM         

yeah, my mars and merc are a little neglected...

just an opposition to your Psyche,
and a sextile to Adonis.

(EDIT: Ooo, and an exact trine from my Mars to your Amor)

But, hey, they're in your 1st house.

Thats gotta count for somethin', right?

posted October 02, 2008 11:41 AM         

When Saturn in one chart forms an aspect with another person's personal planet or point, the energy interplays between the two people are distinct. Saturn is the planet of restriction, commitment, and reality. We usually find Saturn interaspects with personal planets in long-lasting relationships. These aspects play out over time and often manifest in clear stages.

At the outset, there can be some resistance or reluctance to forming a relationship and/or a commitment with each other on one of the individuals' parts, as if he or she senses that committing to the other person will involve something heavy. Once that initial reluctance (which can range from vague to explicit, depending on the power of the Saturn interaspects and the individual temperaments involved) passes, there is generally a wonderful feeling of familiarity and safety with one another. These people feel closely connected. Saturn interaspects tend to be very binding.

http://cafeastrology.com/articles/saturninsynastry.html

posted October 02, 2008 11:48 AM         

anyway, gotta run.

posted October 02, 2008 06:52 PM         

I read your blog. Very intelligent. Very intellectual. A ponderer i see. You talk of judging and forgiveness often...

posted October 02, 2008 06:57 PM         

I just had lunch with her a few hours ago. She likes me. I'm pretttttty sure. She was very obvious in her body language. Leaning into me, a lot of eye contact, imitating my posture. She touched me a few times, and hugged me when we parted. Now, i don't know if that was flirting, or if she's just natrually affectionate, but yeah... i'm growing gray hairs here.

I don't want to lead her on by allowing all of this, but i don't want to have a meltdown if it's not accurate.

THEN, i had class with Tim. I wrote this very sexual poem about Patrick Dempsey that i had to present to the class and... well, let's just say that the comments he left on my paper were suggestive. AND i'm going on trip with him and that class tomorrow night.

posted October 02, 2008 07:12 PM         

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I don't want to lead her on by allowing all of this, but i ...

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Like the attention?

If it all goes badly wrong, blame them, they're the ones supposed to be in charge. Dirty bleeders, perving over teenagers.

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I wrote this very sexual poem about Patrick Dempsey that i had to present to the class and...

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posted October 02, 2008 07:28 PM         

I laughed so loud that i scared my roommate!

"Dirty Bleeders"? They're not bad people. They're great... but i'm just caught in a situation i was in no way prepared to deal with. It's sort of unnerving. One hand you have a lovely lesbian who may or may not want me, on the other you have a delicious devil who is married and flirting with me. Isn't college nice?

LMAO!!!!! Cancel your son's college fund? HAHAHAHAHAHAHAAAA!!! Yes, i'm sure he'll be pleasantly surprised when you inform him that his occupation will be plumbing whether he likes it or not!

posted October 02, 2008 07:31 PM         

It's pretty scandalous...

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Patrick Dempsey

Body slouches over
plastic desk in dense
dorm room while mind
lingers in daydreams of
caressing carefully
placed creases in crotch
of his khaki pants
-Oh Penny, Brown Penny, Brown Penny
it is not the loops of his
hair I am tangled in-
Forgive me father, for I have sinned
I covet my neighbor’s
blue eyed incubus with
beguiling burgundy lips,
Thou shalt not
marinate in married man’s
moist mouth,
but Mother, may I
fondle his Forbidden Fruit?
- delicious and nutritious-
I do not want sweet
Shakespearian sonnets
or shoulder blade kisses
full of Pablo Neruda poetry
Give me Led Zeppelin lyrics,
lover, with dirty desires in
Your filthy fingers
-”Squeeze my lemon,
til the juice runs down my leg”-
Rugged Romeo,
won’t you be my valentine
for 14 minutes in back of
mamma’s mini-van?
One late night McFuck,
McDreamy, just
you and me and
reclining leather seats

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posted October 02, 2008 08:38 PM         

as far as astrology goes much more experienced have said: you're hot [to cut it short]; i'd like just to point to the fact that Merilyn Monroe had venus and chiron conjunct in 9th house [hers was in aries though] . in my limited research it gives alot of sex appeal . you must be having the time of your life

posted October 02, 2008 08:49 PM         

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as far as astrology goes much more experienced have said: you're hot [to cut it short]; i'd like just to point to the fact that Merilyn Monroe had venus and chiron conjunct in 9th house [hers was in aries though] . in my limited research it gives alot of sex appeal . you must be having the time of your life

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Thank you, but i think that's a bit of an overstatement. That's not my modesty talking either. I'm very dark and smokey in my appearance. And i'm very reserved as well (i don't dress flirtatiously). AND i don't flirt either. Males my age aren't of any real interest, so maybe that's why i am so withdrawn. So, i think Marilyn and i differ quite a bit. But thanks anyways. I'm not very worried about ME.

posted October 03, 2008 02:27 AM         

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Thou shalt not
marinate in married man’s
moist mouth,
but Mother, may I
fondle his Forbidden Fruit?

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No wonder Tim seized on that poem with midlife crisis glee.

posted October 03, 2008 02:59 AM         

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have a lovely lesbian who may or may not want me

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This situation with this woman doesn't have to be an 'all or nothing'. I must admit I am woman oriented in my life-style choice, BUT I have had 2 women in my life that were attracted to me, were honest with their feelings, repected me and were intelligent. I said "No" to both, and both of them turned out to be the BEST long-term friends I could ever wish for!!!

It's not all about sex. Women need women, as men need men to remind themselves of who they are, and what they are all about.

You don't need to feel like you're going into a Lion's Den with Sue. I think she is worth more than that as a person.

You can still get close and talk about your 'potential' dates with Fred, Bill and Shiro while forming a friendship, and see where that leads.

While at the moment, there seems to be a number of potential outcomes with Sue, you wont know the reality until you go exploring. You can place yourself in a situation without having any expectation. Just enjoy some time out over coffee and a chat (and then let us know the juicy details ).

posted October 03, 2008 02:07 PM         

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No wonder Tim seized on that poem with midlife crisis glee.

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BUT IT WASN'T DIRECTED AT HIM!!!!! Oh bother... i'm an arss. BAH!

posted October 03, 2008 02:11 PM         

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This situation with this woman doesn't have to be an 'all or nothing'. I must admit I am woman oriented in my life-style choice, BUT I have had 2 women in my life that were attracted to me, were honest with their feelings, repected me and were intelligent. I said "No" to both, and both of them turned out to be the BEST long-term friends I could ever wish for!!!

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Koi, i hope you know i'm not being homophobic. Or that i'm saying i can't be just friends with a lesbian. I'm probably just getting too caught up in the "What ifs" of the situation. She's a great person, and i like her a lot. You're right, she and i could be great friends, even if i'm not interested in her sexually.

I'm sorry.

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You can place yourself in a situation without having any expectation. Just enjoy some time out over coffee and a chat (and then let us know the juicy details ).

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