posted September 04, 2003 01:28 PM         

CancerianMoon, we are just 8 days apart!! I was born on 22nd of June! Hurray!

I just wanted to pop in and tell you that in my believe even the bad experiences can be soulmates. They feel so comfi, understanding and familiar but then BANG it might be your biggest mistake (or a walk in the field of course ), feeling the way you are afterwards can and most probably will heal you, because it touches that spot.
Pooh, I hope I make sense I certainly don't mean to offend anyone! Still my own language is easier...

Then, to your question, yes I have made (very few) friends and one of them I don't write to anymore that much. The contact faded for reasons but she is so lovely and we have helped each other enormously! Hey..I had my venus on her Ascendant! Says something huh?

Well, C.M. (what a misslead; You have a twinmoon ) I wish you all the best. Let us know, will you?

posted September 05, 2003 06:20 AM         

I have to agree with you. All the people we meet in this world came here to teach us something, and we are meant to teach this people something too! And I do not think we meet people by accident - it was just meant to be. Some individuals may touch us more, some will less, but they all will have an impact on our lives. Remember your pet who died when you were 6 years old? Didn't it make you think about the meaning or purpose of life? The last significant relationship that broke up because of ... reasons? Did it make you think about your love life in general? The hungry kid on TV? Thinking about world hunger? I don't mean to be dramatic in any way, but I guess that self-growth is not pleasant and cheerful and requires time, effort and strength.

posted September 05, 2003 06:58 AM         

Sylven..cool...thanks for ur response...i absoultely agree on the soulmate thing!!..as for me missleading u all..sorry!!..absolutely honest mistake..lol...and i will let u know..thanks!!

posted September 05, 2003 08:04 AM           

My mother is a good wife and my family, for all thats happened to them, is very stable. However she was always tied up with work and while i can't fault her efforts sometimes too much is just too much.

I'm aware my parents love me but recently i've noticed a number of running issues and i now feel a great need to get far, far away from their influence.

If i did have a first love at age 15... its' not one I can recall.. that time in my life was one of extreme isolation. My first deep relationship was at 16/17 which left me extremely damaged.

Re the mother thing: While i feel like i do want someone who is able to "take care of me" to a degree, i also want to be independant and able to do the same back for them, however such a symbiosis rarely materialises... which is disappointing.

Bang on with the graphics - i'm a 3D animator! hehe

Re: making a mess of my life

Yep, it certainly can...im still oscillating on whether to avoid love relationships. As for sharing my feelings.. its not that i dont want to its more that it takes an inordinate amount of energy for me to effectively articulate them so anyone has an objective idea of how i'm feeling.

As far as i'm aware saturn starts slapping my moon towards the end of next year.

I suppose there's something innate in me tied up with that infamous "will to live".. i have a "will to love"... and I dont stop loving people, although goodness knows why, heh.

posted November 05, 2003 05:47 AM         

At the time I was finally able (22 years) to put my foot down and take the last stand against my now ex Scorp, I also won a computer from a local radio station. I had no need for a computer, I wondered what in the heck would I do with it. My sister kept telling me about a philosophy chat room that she went to. I finally agreed to check it out.

Through the years, in many different ways had implanted in my brain the idea that no other man would ever want anything to do with me. When you hear it enough, you believe it.

Chat opened up a whole new world to me. It was so much fun, talking to people, meeting people from all over the world, and learning tons of different things from amazing people.
I loved that part most of all. I went from hardly being able to type to being able to fix my own computer, and help others fix theirs.

I was a chataholic for about 3 years. I was very please to discover that my ex was completely wrong about the men thing. In no time at all I had many different men that I was getting to know. After all, I am a Libra, I didn't want to be alone. My first internet love experience was with a Libra man who was the Editor and Publisher of a Canadian Graphics Magazine. It was extremely intense. Hours and hours spent typing feverishly about everything. This man knew be better than anyone in the world. I was convinced he was my Soul Mate and that I was in love with him. He came to see me a few times in California. I had always believe that true love conqured all. There was no doubt in my mind that if he was in love with me too, then we would be together...no matter what. Well..he said he was in love with me. I was so happy. I remember it like it happened yesterday. Ok, so..he loves me, now what? I quickly found out. Nothing. He didn't want to leave Canada, I, of course couldn't go with the custody sharing of my son. So..that was it. My heart was broken and it was going to take time to heal, but I had learned so many things. He was the most intelligent person I'd met in my life..and the time we spent together was priceless.

I've seen many, many really bad scenes with online romances. People fall quickly, madly and deeply for someone they've met. There are many people out there who get so tied up in the moment that they forget the reality of the situation...something they've not been quite upfront with to the person they are involved in...they have a family at home.
It quickly goes to what they thought would just be fun and fantasy to a situation they can no longer control. I've seen people just totally disappear from an online love relationship leaving the other person devistated. One story that actually happened to someone from my old room was one of this guy who staged his own real time death. He had a friend call his online partner and tell her that he had died in a car accident. Eventually she found out that his death, along with about 80% of what she thought she knew about him was completely inaccurate.

Ok, anyway, back to me...After my Canada Libra guy made his decision I was torn up and had decided that I would never get involved like that online. I was very sad one evening and I wanted to talk to someone..I wanted to make sure the person was closer to my time zone, the 3 hour distance can be hell. So..I saw a guy using the nick "Blind in Texas"...I thought, well, that's a little closer. Long story short.
He wasn't in Texas. He was in New York. That was 4 years ago. Now he lives right here, with me. It is so right that it could have only been planned by the universe.

posted November 08, 2003 05:41 PM         

I know myself that I have been made jealous often by non existent other women, but then I am a Taurus and naturally suspicious. Libras and Geminis are masters at innuendos, to keep you guessing. I think for earth signs it's harder because we have to really know who you are.

posted November 08, 2003 05:52 PM         

I have been chatting for a few years now, and have encountered both interesting and scary people. Currently, I am in a difficult position. I met someone in the spring of this year. We seem to hit it off in every way. He wanted me to move to be near him (about 1000 miles away). I love where I live, and even though I planned to move, I didn't. We "broke up". He recently lost his job, and has now enlisted in the armed forces. We still communicate online or by phone daily, a few times a day. I asked him last week if he still loved me, and he said "as much as ever". It's torturous for us both, and with the army thing, things look worse. He's positive we belong together. I'm thinking I should stop trying to think about it, that it will only end up being another heartbreak that I seem to take so hard.

They are real relationships, and I know of several people who have met on the net, and ended up married. I think you get to know someone better through this method, getting to know them before your eyes see them. Of course there are predators and liars, but my heart always subltely picked them out before they got too far.

Ok, Im babbling now. Hehe. Just putting in my two cents.

posted November 10, 2003 04:04 PM         

Since the year 2000 I've lost so much love. First there was my true love, than my soulmate and finally my twinflame. Right now I feel like I died inside; like a star that died. I was suppose to ascend with my twinflame but although he said he loved me he left. I thought what you told the others was extremly impressive and accurate. Can you please find it in your heart to help me also. I don't know how God can let this happen to me, there is no justification ever for what happened. It was beyond cruel.(I know these are not things that are meant to be said out loud but I need to ask for help in understanding this). I can't ever forgive my loves or love again. My soulmate was a Gemini-May 28,1977 born in Denizili, Turkey but I don't know the time; who I'm really curious about is my twinflame he was a Sagittarius-Dec 4,1980 at 4:00 AM born in Sousse, Tunisia. I'm a Capricorn born-Jan 13,1962 at 5:05 PM, in Montreal, Quebec, Canada. Did my twinflame really love me, my heart and soul says he did. And will we ever be together again, although I can't imagine myself forgiving him, it's now to late. If not is there any hope for love for me ever again. Is there any indication in my chart about the ascension, it just finished. There must be I waited for this for all my lifetimes, I know I sense it.

posted November 10, 2003 07:18 PM         

Since the year 2000 I've lost so much love. First there was my true love, than my soulmate and finally my twinflame. Right now I feel like I died inside; like a star that died. I was suppose to ascend with my twinflame but although he said he loved me he left. I thought what you told the others was extremely impressive, accurate and wise. Can you please find it in your heart to help me also. I don't know how God can let this happen to me, there is no justification ever for what happened. It was beyond cruel.(I know these are not things that are meant to be said out loud but I need to ask for help in understanding this). I can't ever forgive my loves or love again. My soulmate was a Gemini-May 28,1977 born in Denizili, Turkey but I don't know the time; who I'm really curious about is my twinflame he was a Sagittarius-Dec 4,1980 at 4:00 AM born in Sousse, Tunisia. I'm a Capricorn born-Jan 13,1962 at 5:05 PM, in Montreal, Quebec, Canada. Did my twinflame really love me, my heart and soul says he did. And will we ever be together again, although I can't imagine myself forgiving him, it's now to late. If not is there any hope for love for me ever again. Is there any indication in my chart about the ascension, it just finished. There must be I waited for this for all my lifetimes, I know I sense it.

With all my heart