posted May 12, 2004 11:09 AM         

When my emotions get heavy they get blocked and so I had long talk with the Gemini which he appreciated. He likes it when I am moody and heavy for some reason. But it's hard to not be strong, i am a Taurus. He says he likes it better when I am not strong.

I am gong to start working on emotions again as in using the emotional freedom technique "tapping", that's where you tap yourself on certain power points of your body and say I love and accept myself when feeling overwhelmed. I certainly needed to do that last night.

Instead I ended up kissing the Gemini again:> Not that he is a bad kisser but I need to do some more work on myself before I have enough to bring to the table. I am practicing acceptance instead of desire, thinking logically is not easy for me.
So I guess I'm practicing this week,

posted May 14, 2004 03:12 PM         

Even though He is in a relationship with a Cancer he pursued me constantly the first month we met. I can't ignore the effect it has on me, but I can't ignore the fact that he pursued me while involved with someone else too. It's hard to understand because I am very dignified and proud regarding lovers, I need to respect my partner.

Still he won't stop so I need to explore my feelings so I can be sure he understands what I am trying to say. I guess I just expected him to stop pursuing me, and THAT doesn't work. Yes he is very attracted and I am too. He is a strange fish, not pushy but persistent. Must be Pisces rising.

He likes deep, emotional talks which I am good at, he can't get that from his partner now. Probably he is attracted and needed someone to talk to, and I am getting too close. I have some plans that may or may not work at staying apart. Will post again.

posted May 25, 2004 11:10 AM         

Thanks for asking, you are so thoughtful:>

Yes things are heating up a bit with the Gemini and we are now dating. I don't know how I feel, I guess I feel what my friends feel and that's a little confused about how stable everything is. A lot of people depend on me so I can't be too moody, and I don't want any more life changes right now.

I find myself drifting towards a fantasy of a perfect world but I know that's not possible. Right now I am moving 4.5 hours away because I can't live near him, the Gemini lives in a ritzier part of a suburban town than I want to be in, and I need my downtown city life.

He wants to move in with me I think, but needs to work things out, and plus he will still be far away part of the time. I'll give it a year and after that make sure we spend some time apart so I can get my emotions in check. It's difficult for men to feel the same way about relationships, and they do have trouble saying I love you, and making plans. I can't help feeling resentful about that, since I am a woman and think differently.

I know saying I love you to a woman is like giving a hug, it makes you feel warm and fuzzy inside and men just go out and get hugs or flirt. But I can't hug everyone so I tend to be warmer and need more affection.

I was talking to a Sag today and he said what's up with you, I don't feel the love, meaning that I wasn't spending time with him and he felt it. Geminis just don't really feel that way in terms of needing your presence so I will always feel a little lonely with him gone. I have learned to accept it.

Acceptance I can see will be a big part of this relationship, that and getting my own needs taken care of first, in terms of friends. I intend to still go out and have fun without him, and I don't know if he will enact the double standard, but I can't live my life alone if he is not going to be part of it.

He does flirt a lot and I can accept that, in the past I have found men usually do not like my flirting which is warmer and more real, but that's not something I can change.

posted May 25, 2004 05:29 PM         

I think you guys sound like you have a nice solid basic understanding, and that's definitely worth building on. He'll still need the warm one-on-on that you crave too, as everyone I know that has strong Taurus in their charts, even only a rising, loves physical displays of affection, even though depending on their chart, they aren't the most comfortable letting others know. I see you offer each other a patient, yet energetic partner...And I wish you the best of luck with this special relationship. I think Geminis, whether they admit it or not, need the constant day-to-day reassurances of their partner's affection for them, and that is hard to accomplish if there is always literal distance between them, so...of course, I'm moving myself closer to my Gemmy, and I'm curious to know what affect, if any, it will have on our emotioanl/romantic closeness. hehe...Gotta love those Gemmys. They keep us on unpredictable, yet totally sweetly warm ground, and we stick by them cause it's worth it.
Dear Cancer Moon friend, enjoy the added roller-coaster of emotion your evolving relationship brings, and remember to embrace life to the fullest, savoring every moment (as I know you will).
Affection is not something to be taken lightly, it is there to be cherished in all it's many forms. and keep us posted!

posted May 27, 2004 08:37 AM         

Actually not with anyone but he is with me I have found, so I am trying to present myself with confidence and conviction in the relationship department. Part of me wasn't sure he would do it, but he was always straight about doing what I wanted from him. I am just not good at vocalizing what I want from him.

He wants a relationship, that is clear. However, like the country song says "we stumble over hearts until we find solid ground", I don't feel like being another heart on his road to solid ground, so I have to write up some ground rules this weekend, which will be rough. I plan on telling him I want a relationship for only 6 months more, so we see it as it is, a six month relationship and that way my heart is not played with for too long.

Plus it negates any idea of unsafe practicies becuase it's only six months. Then we can stop and re-evaluate what's going on, not because I have doubts, but because he will and we will have to talk about them sometime instead of pretending everything is okay. In the meantime I will make it as positive as I can, and try to go slow with him. If I go too fast, honestly I won't respect or trust him. Plus I don't want to be stuck in a kitchen cooking for him either, so it's a fine line.

Between girlfriend and friend, I am walking it. If he decides to go back to his ex girlfriend, I will know if he is lying to me in a heartbeat but I have to have the guts to walk away too if that happens and not be in too deep. Time will tell.

We are having dinner this weekend in his new place, he wants me to spend the night but I prefer to just have dinner. I can see where it's going but I would prefer that he move in with me for a short time first, so we can bond day to day. It's hard to hide how you are that way. But I don't intend to get in deeper than anyone would in a six month relationship. Make sense?

Thanks for listening, I must seem suspicious,

Natasha
Taurus