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Topic: Haunting Love
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scorpbaby
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From: Ny, USA
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posted November 24, 2004 12:20 AM
 
Does anyone else have vibes that they just can't place?
I was thinking about a vibe that I have with a certain guy and can never figure it out. What I find the most fascinating is that every time I see his face it's like seeing a ghost or that I'm just seeing him for the first time.
There's a psychic bond between us that seems to leave us staring into eachother's eyes, without a word spoken. We seem to have trouble communicating verbally on occasion, almost like we hesitate or don't wan't to use words. It's a haunting feeling that often leaves me confused and sad. I barely know him but can't stop thinking about him. After I leave him I completely forget what it was like to be near him. The feeling of his presence is almost washed from my memory, and then there comes a feeling of desperation for his closeness. Does that make sense? The first time I met him was with a group of people. I remember he sat next to me and I didn't even look at his face yet, but I felt such a strong vibe, stronger than I'd ever felt. When I finally spoke to him face to face I was so overwhelmed. The night after that I remember I had a dream about his eyes, and looking into them electrocuted me. I've posted a lot about this guy here in L.L, and for some reason he hasn't left my mind...
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astro junkie
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posted November 24, 2004 01:12 AM
Wow - I love this topic. Yeah, I know the one, equal to a minorly bending North Star. I often think love like this never leaves us and just gets more pure over time, regardless of any physicality whatsoever. How are you with "living in the now?" It may teach you more of that. IP: Logged |
lovely*
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posted November 24, 2004 01:13 AM
i can relate. i have a friend i feel this with. everytime he is thinking of me, i know it because i have signals. tingling on the crown. i see his face (particularly eyes) in full color, every detail, mark on his face, pore.. i see it. it overwhelms me. there is more... IP: Logged |
scorpbaby
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posted November 24, 2004 02:10 AM
Hey AJ~ ah YES there is a non-physicality about it all, even though there wants to be. But I've decided it would never work because he is in a long distance relationship, yet he does see other girls on campus just not me. Maybe it's not meant to be consummated, but to be left pure like you said. It's weird, we held hands during are first attempted conversation, kind of ODD for two strangers who can barely hold a convo together...I didn't even know it was happening. I'm not much of a hand holder and he is not a PDA type at all.
AS for the "living in the now" I have some trouble with that, my nostalgicness(word?) leads me to think back on my encounters with him a lot. Is that what you meant by it?
I'd like to know more about your reference to a "minorly bending north star", it sounded beautiful.Lovely~ That's so special you get signals when he thinks of you and I'm sure he has the same. I also experience this usually before I sleep when I first close my eyes. IP: Logged |
scorpbaby
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Registered: Jun 2004
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posted November 24, 2004 02:17 AM
Oh I almost forgot, his Libra Saturn/Mars/Pluto conjunct my Venus/Mars/Ascendant=some Karma...This could be part of it! And his Cap influence rolls in the squares.IP: Logged |
astro junkie
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posted November 24, 2004 03:09 AM
Cool ... that's it then ...So, just meditate in total quiet, on the appreciation you experienced when he was around you. As you said, you forget what he looked like immediately after separating. So the gift is that essence alone. (If you try to piece together a date, you'll never see him in full). IP: Logged |
sthenri
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posted November 24, 2004 08:54 AM
Yes I get that feeling with certain people, especially the pure part. I feel there is a connection between people that can't be explained with Love, anger, fear, the usual emotions. It's like you recognize eachother, and it fills your head and heart. Can drown you.I find it frustrating if as I tend to wander off in my head, blame Neptune conj Ascendant but I am prone to romantic fantasy anyway! Normally this happens with Pisces people, or Pisces ascendant, or Venus. I think there is something karmic about every Pisces I know, as if I knew him or her before, and they knew me. Pisces is heavy and intense. Natasha
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ghanima81
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posted November 24, 2004 09:47 AM
Oh my!!Yes! I can totally understand this... actually, I have had such connections twice in my life. The first was with a Gemini... it's still a pretty strong connection, but on a totally friend level, we tried the relationship thing for years.. it never worked out. For a long time, I thought it was because we were both too scared of what we had, too afraid of something so strong at such a young age. We used to joke about an invisible thread that connected us to each other by our foreheads... it always reminded me of what Linda said about aqua women and Gemini men in 'Love Signs': There are many reasons why these two are sure to notice each other in a crowd, but the main one is that faint chord of music they both hear.. Yup, faint chord of music, no words were really ever nessecary, and still aren't. It's a deep rooted connection that will never leave me, but it is what it is, and I appreciate that we will always be friends. The other was with a Libra who had just had a crazy, and intense relationship with a Leo. I was in the middle of a really strange time in my life, upheaveal and transformation. We found in each other a strange and almost Karmic connection. We almost dated, *almost*, but really just very much enjoyed each others company. We had the best conversations, and shared many feelings about things, all of them in a 'growth' process for both of us. His explination of it was that I was inhabited by the Goddess at the time, and that I helped him not give up on love... we used to sleep next to each other a lot. He would stay over, and we would just spoon. It was really nice... and often, while sleeping next to him, he would be in my dreams, almost as a voice of reason, or a guide of some sort. And when I would wake up and tell him about it, he would have almost the same kind of dream to tell me about, except in his, I was the teacher... It was really quite exciting, and certainly something I will never forget. I saw him over the summer, and that feeling was gone. It was a bit awkward... almost like, we were so different from who we were when we were that close, that we didn't recognize each other any more. We did try at one point to see if we could 'physically' be that compatible, and NOOOOOO!! That was just too weird... It was almost like kissing yourself, or a very close relative. But I cannot say anything bad about what we shared, I really did love him, in a friend way... these kinds of connections are so beyond normal friendships, there is a special vibration between people that share this kind of thing... one that may last forever, or may dwindle away with the radio waves... Either way, it always seems to teach us something we were ready to learn... Cool topic!!  Ghani IP: Logged |
hereisgone
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From: Charleston, WV
Registered: Aug 2004
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posted November 24, 2004 10:42 AM
YES! My Taurus man. When I first met him (3 months ago), I knew I'd seen him before, then realized it was in my head. For the last six years, I've been writing a book and the main character is the Taurus. Looks, height, thinness, walk, talk, *everything* is exactly like my character.I love being around him; it makes me feel... complete, like I'm not a whole person when he's gone. Seether's "Broken" tore me apart those first few weeks. lol It's weird too cause whenever I walk into the building, I can tell instantly if he's here or not. The first time, I just knew something was wrong. Turns out, he was in a car wreck. I told him once that I knew he was coming before he did. He was like "Oh really?" So I told him about me dreaming about the building catching on fire the week before it did. That shocked him, lol. It's just weird though. I've never felt so connected to someone. I noticed something interesting last night though. If I have his Saturn, Uranus, Neptune, Pluto, and Chiron correct, ours are in the same signs. Maybe that has something to do with it? IP: Logged |
Yang
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posted November 24, 2004 01:36 PM
I can somehow relate too.There is this guy I know (quite older then me,but nevertheless) and I feel a strong connection to him-don't know if he does too.
I constantly think about him but not in a sexual way.
He is in and out of my mind. IP: Logged |
scorpbaby
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posted November 24, 2004 02:08 PM
Ok I get what you mean by it now AJ. I find that when I do meditate on the vibe of being around him I have great visual dreams about him, which are extremely fulfilling I'm amazed! Yea Natasha, it could be just his being a normal Pisces. Also, no I can't explain the vibe, it's like a boiling pot of all emotions, but it does almost feel like drowning.
I've been hoping it's not my Venus/Ascendant Square Neptune building an illusion! haha I know all about the romantic fantasy life but luckily there's been substance to all this which leans me towards thinking it's not an illusion after all! Nice stories Ghani, your lucky to have had a close relationship with those two people even though it was never consummated or anything. Thanks for mentioning the passage from Love Signs too, it remind me of a similar thing Linda said about Pisces man and Scorp Woman. In this case she spoke of a faint echo, kinda like the chord of music!And also the nonphysicality is weird because I know we are both attracted to eachother. Deep down I know if there was something physical it would be great but almost too consuming.
Everything has also been very fated, it almost creeps me out. He lived across the building from mine and are windows were exactly parrallel so we could see into eachothers rooms! From then on, me and my roomate began to have run ins with him and his friends on campus and then there were several other encounters that seemed fated. That was last yr though. Now I rarely see him, the last time was in september and I've been trying to not think about him but then appears in dreams.
Hereisgone~That's amazing you wrote him into existance almost. I feel like I've done something similar through dreams, like through the force of Will alone I could make things start to happen. Yang~ Maybe there is something we need to learn from these people that seem to be always in our thoughts. I for one still don't know.
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astro junkie
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posted November 24, 2004 04:49 PM
Great thread !"minorly bending north star" = Have you ever seen a long exposed photo of the North Star? The kind that can only be taken with a tripod? All the stars in the sky revolve around this, so you see circumference after circumference, bigger and bigger the further away you get from the North Star. But if you look at the North Star, it's not 100% stable. So barely a wobble, it could be thought of as "minorly bending", especially considering all the atmosphere it's light & energy travels through. LOVE that beautiful analogy quoted from Linda - "There are many reasons why these two are sure to notice each other in a crowd, but the main one is that faint chord of music they both hear.." (uh) you have no idea how I could just ponder that endlessly. My eyes are watery just thinking about that.
"Broken by Seether I wanted you to know
I love the way you laugh
I wanna hold you high and steal your pain away
I keep your photograph;
I know it serves me well
I wanna hold you high and steal your pain ‘cause I’m broken when I’m open
And I don’t feel like I am strong enough
‘cause I’m broken when I’m lonesome
And I don’t feel light when you’re gone away The worst is over now and we can breathe again
I wanna hold you high,
you steal my pain away
There’s so much left to learn,
and no one left to fight
I wanna hold you high and steal your pain..." IP: Logged |
Navia
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posted November 24, 2004 07:01 PM
I have a similar connection with a man I dated over ten years ago; it doesn't go away. As a matter of fact, the last several months it has greatly intensified and I have the tingling in my head nearly constantly now. I'm also seeing a lot of numbers like the posts by 26Taurus in the Universal Codes forum. IP: Logged |
astro junkie
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posted November 24, 2004 08:15 PM
I haven't visited that forum, but share ! The only thing I've discussed in these parts is the phenomenon with the number 11. Or does it get more out of control than that?IP: Logged |
MysticScorpio
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posted November 24, 2004 08:36 PM
"spirit that haunts this dark lagoon tonight,"he cried,"dost hear me?"
Silly question. Of course she hears him. If the Scorpio woman and pisces man we're considering are lovers or mates, and not simply friends, she heard him calling many years ago, quite probably when she was a little girl, dreaming about her soul mate...who was, she was certain, somewhere on this Earth...also dreaming of her. Where would they meet? When would they meet? How would they meet? All these questions concerned her, but never the question of "if" they would meet. That she knew,as she has always known many matters of the heart, the spirit and the future.
Faint though the echo might have been, Neptune also whispered into the inner ear of the pisces man when he was a young boy, that someday, somewhere, somehow...he would meet someone who would understand the way he looked at things, who would see things, not as they are in reality, but as they might be and should be...as he remembered them to be in some half-forgotten, misty world of long ago, maybe in a dream.That was from love signs. I can so relate to u scorpbaby. I'm a scorpio with a moon in taurus & was deeply attracted to a piscean.
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scorpbaby
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posted November 24, 2004 09:12 PM
AJ I just heard that song on the radio a few mins ago! That's neat about the North Star, I've never seen a pic of that before. I'm gonna see what I can dig up on the net...
Navia~ I just realized the days of our bdays (19, 28) both add up to 10. Would that have any significance, I haven't done much with numerology.HI MysticScorp I also have a Taurus moon! I really love that passage from Linda, she's always right on. I've also kind of given up on anything ever happening between him and I, at least the way I'd want it too. But the vibe I felt with him stays with me, and in a way, that's almost enough. IP: Logged |
Navia
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posted November 24, 2004 11:50 PM
Astro Junkie,
Most of the numbers that I've been seeing lately are 11:11, which is supposed to mean that there is a doorway opening, lots of 11's, 111's, I've seen 911 a couple of times, 444 which is supposed to mean resurrection, occassionally a 555 which is supposed to represent Christ consciousness, and 777 which is the integration of the higher self with the lower self. He continues to be in my dreams (as the post I made four months ago) and many times it feels like we were learning about colors or shapes and other things in my dreams. There are many other things, but I feel him with me much of the time (or at least his higher self) and a friend of mine that is developing some psychic gifts has dreamed of us twice. I believe that he is my twin flame and that he is helping me to achieve spirituality. IP: Logged |
astro junkie
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posted November 25, 2004 12:54 AM
OK - it's the similar thing with me. Big strong and most definite dawning of 11:11 starting when I was 18 years old.HAS NOT waivered much from until the last 12 months or so, when I first seemed to "graduate" to a 3:33 connection, and other than that, 4:44. Really notice this. IP: Logged |
zoso
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From: Nevada
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posted November 25, 2004 01:21 AM
I completely agree with these feelings drowning you!
Sometimes I feel like I can supress or "forget" the intensity, but it's more like treading water and I can only do it for so long before sinking under. "There are so many conversations we have together without speaking a word. How could we speak in the first place when there is no translation into language for what we confess to each other? Even if we are saying random nonsense in person, the unspoken dialogue is all I remember afterwards. So I'm sorry if I don't recall the names and places of your stories, but it isn't because I wasn't paying attention, you see . . ."
-excerpt of a letter from someone that I share a connection with.
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astro junkie
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posted November 25, 2004 01:43 AM
zoso -Are you replying to right thread, or did I truly miss something ... ?? IP: Logged |
geminstone
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posted November 25, 2004 03:02 AM
I experience this kind of ' knowing ' similar to hereisnow, with my Libra. Our contact did'nt happen in quite the same way, I was'nt involved with anything, but my adolescent life, which revolved around my horses. He is a Sagittarius rising though! Oddly enough, we attended the same middle school the previous year and, I am amazed that I have absolutely NO recollection of him then. Yet, on the first day of our ninth grade year, even now 14 years, two children, and so many experiences together, he still is the 1st vision and, the only memory, of my High School existance. I still ' know' to this day. I have had those kind of ' psychic ' touches happen too. I had, an a few occasions, the sweet scent of him fill my truck, this with windows open wide, as well as closed, and so strong that it was unmistakable! It, this ' knowing ' is not anything that can be expressed in terms of this reality, I believe that he and I are one, on our journey through this alchemy to become. I have wondered if that could point to some really wicked karma... ? So much in debt, that this experience had to be in ' two places at once '..... Hmmm. I do know love, more now, but even Love,... it just does not encompass this .... Sense,.... ' knowing '. ..... Well, I now have a new direction to explore in regard to my very last post in the ' Is Guilt Selfish? ' thread,.... Hmmmm,....? I love this thread! ~ geminstone IP: Logged |
26taurus
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posted November 25, 2004 04:03 AM
aj,You might be interested in this thread:
http://www.linda-goodman.com/ubb/Forum2/HTML/001212.html And at the bottom of the article I posted is a link. If you type in the numbers youve been seeing, there is sure to be some info on that site about them and their significance. It's a vast site with loads of info and a great search engine.
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Oooh check this out. At the bottom of the page at this link, it gives info on the numbers you've been seeing.
http://www.crystalinks.com/11.11.html There is also a book out I recall seeing called something like 11:11 Doorway....?.....and another book about the numbers 444 having to do with angels. Sorry scorpbaby, didnt mean to take over your thread. I'll be leaving now.
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zoso
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posted November 25, 2004 04:25 AM
Sorry, I guess it could've helped to use correct punctuation!Thanks for keeping me on my toes--I get a lil lazy. IP: Logged |
scorpbaby
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posted November 25, 2004 11:21 PM
Zoso I really like that passage from the letter you have. I notice the only dialogue I do have with this guy is always short or "random nonsense", like we can't find things to say or we forget how to talk like we normally would, but we are paying attention to eachother...Oh another thing I just though to bring up was sense of touch with these certain people we share connections with. In my case, if a random person gives me a back rub or holds my hand, the sensation of it doesn't affect me much, it's not anything exceptional...even when I'm attracted to the person. But I recall at one point I walked away from him and I felt kind of uncomfortable just standing alone in the crowded bar, and he reached out to rub my shoulders. That slightest touch was chilling and it was before I even recognized it was him giving the back rub!
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scorpbaby
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posted November 26, 2004 12:33 AM
I've been thinking about Synchronicity playing such a big part in all this. And I cowardly slapped fate in the face a few times. Do you all remember the events that lead you to these people?
I remember synchronis(sp) events that lead me to him, even when I tried to avoid them.
These quotes seemed to fit:
"We find our destiny on the path we take to avoid it."
"We are dragged along by fate to that which we refuse to walk toward upright." –Jung I'm still trying to understand why I was fearful of something so great (Love) This is just one of many events of synchronicity that occured...
One night before I went to bed I prayed that I'd see him on campus. I visualized him walking along and meeting him on the same path. The next day I was let out of a class early, it wasn't a normal dismissal period so there wasn't the usual traffic of people, but only me. As I was about to cross the street I looked across the intersection and saw him. I crossed over to the same sidewalk and began a very brisk walk. He was about 20 steps behind me, and I panicked. And that's when I took a detour to walk along another path...
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