posted November 12, 2005 03:34 AM         

Just flipped back to page one. Sorry about your loss.

I'm looking forward to hearing back from you, but take all the time you need. I'm sure you have some settling to do.

Take care, dear!

posted November 12, 2005 03:39 AM         

Not often we're online at the same time!!

Big day today, had the funeral. Now experiencing major panic attacks!!! Not nice.

Was wondering if i could pick your brain about sag males again? It's really been weighing on my mind this whole thing with me and the sag, and with all that has happened this week i feel like i want to resolve me and him you know...

posted November 12, 2005 03:47 AM         

Would you rather address your question here, or with email?

posted November 12, 2005 04:01 AM         

In all honesty i am beginning to think that my sag is using me. He seems to go off and have crushes on other girls around his age that lead no where cos he is too scared to do anything about them! i'm a bit sick of it. Earlier in the year he told my next door neighbours sister that he loved her...he is best friends with her brother. She has never seen sag in that light, looks to him more like a brother and she has told me nothing will ever happen between them as she feels it would feel wrong, she may have been lying, but to me when she goes off blatantly in with other guys in front of mr sag to me that means she isnt interested in him on that level.

I feel totally insecure about her in some ways. I know they get on well, and that is great. A couple of months ago she really encouraged me to be with him, and told me he was totally in love with me, but i think he was more smitten in a lustful way at the time!

His behaviour is confusing me totally. After all the effort he made last time, which i wrote about in the very first post above, i really believed we were getting somewhere, then as i wrote in the post the other day, nothing as happened since. Its like i dont exist to him anymore. Maybe he just wanted to prove something to himself i dont know.

I know you dont know either of us, but i would really appreciate your honest opinion on this situation, being a sag yourself i know you have that insight.

He is from a really dysfunctional background. His mother is totally useless and i dont think he was ever shown much love or affection, his dad who he has on a pedestal, used to beat his mum up in front of the kids so that is his male role model!

He just seems so scared of me, and i know he has been cos my next door neighbour told me that when sag saw me come home, if he was at the neighbours house, he would hide in the garage until i went inside my house, since then he has made contact and i even asked him about being scared of me, but he just chuckled and said "yeah"!

YOu know what i dont think i have a specific question at all. Just happy to hear what your gut feeling is. Looking back at some old threads on sags they can go for a while without contacting. But i just feel like i am on some string or something.

anyway enough babbling. If you have gone to bed already...sweet dreams. and i look forward to hearing from you.

I hope all is well with your beautiful son and boyfriend.