posted November 17, 2005 09:27 AM         

What exactly are you wanting to know? I swear I've re-read your posts... so I am trying.

I apologize. I'm having one of those days.

posted November 17, 2005 11:19 AM         

ok heres some random thoughts

so i will join the boat
mines a libra but 3 placements in scorpio

i'm sure this is a worldwide phenomenon - it's happening to a lot of people

re neptunian influences, my descendant is pisces and my vens is a wide conjunct to neptune 8 degrees

transiting pluto *past lives*?? has been over my moon in 4th (past lives?) for a couple years now

interestingly, this morning i had a reading and our past life was described - what can i say? it all made it all make sense!! i understand the connection now - and this time around the pattern has many similarities - just hope it has a happy ending this time lol

the synastry and midpoint connections bring up some very interesting and close contacts and compatability score is very very high indeed - had a chart done and they told me the bond is like epoxy

re the head banging stuff/confusion - get a grip youre deluding yourself, look at reality vs the i so know this is real and special, i'm not going to let this opportunity pass up - yup been there done it

you make a decision to get a grip - but unfortunately it comes back to the same

comes a time you get so tired and drained going round in circles that you make a decision to get it under control - how hard is that? LOL

so whoever said don't worry about any outcomes was right - thats not the point though its understandable to think like that

its a bit like an obsession

its also like a test of faith of sorts too -do you find that you ask advice of others and it mucks it all up? gets you doubting - then you go back to your original thoughts and feelings and feel better

i think another reason for the trials and tribulations is the process of being sure in your own mind and heart 100% - its natural to have doubts about many things so dont worry

i think the answer is to balance the two worlds in your mind - make sure you are staying in reality, see the other person as they really are but indulge your imagination and feelings if they invite you to and do trust your intuition

and again whats the urgency??? why the panic??? what's for you won't go by you

leave things to develop naturally into what they are meant to be and if they are not meant to be then that's fine too - will have been a wonderful experience

what you actually decide to do about it all is up to you

lots of time and space is good too

for me i know this is the right person but its the wrong time!! both of us are attached - and if i pursue it will create too many problems - so i am happy to keep it to friendship and give myself a rest LOL from all the fretting - does no one any favours

god what a palava - tell me about it !!!

what i would like to know is if the men are going through the same thing - bet they are but not showing it LOL

hope some of that made sense
good luck everyone
smile and be happy

xxx

posted November 17, 2005 11:33 AM         

I guess I'm predisposed to this.

Moon Square Midheaven

Your needs and feelings may often conflict with what other people seem to expect of you. Your feelings are sometimes more correct than rational judgments, which may be based on ideas taught by others with no thought for your individuality. You have to live with others, but at the same time you have to be yourself.

If reason tells you to go one way and emotion says the opposite, think about your choices carefully. If the 'reasonable' path helps others but offers you very little, then your emotions may be trying to tell you what your real needs are.

You will need the advice of a faithful friend who can show you which choice is best for you without having a stake in the result.

posted November 17, 2005 12:56 PM         

The challenge for me is I now believe that there isnt just one person for us....how can there be....so what do you do if another tempts you......oooh oooh oooh....definately gonna keep them eyes firmly closed !!!

Love to all

posted November 17, 2005 12:56 PM         

You've put yourself out there for him. It's up to him to take it or leave it. He needs to know that you feel like you're being strung along.

You need to be happy.

It's hard to be the one to carry all the weight in a (or) developing relationship. It's hard for it to work or be healthy unless it's equal.

He may wake up and realize how selfish he has been. If not, I'm sure you would be happier without it.

I know I'm self-protective. It can be a bad thing at times.
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posted November 17, 2005 12:03 PM         

My story

I met him when I was 5, and then again at 12
in another body temple, a spell was cast
my one true love
he was to old for me
then I turned 18, he got married to someone else
then he divorce and I broke off an engagement
to finally be with him
after 6 years of marriage, my twin soul
left that body
to tend to my other piece, or pieces
on the other side
the seven fold spirit
then in 98, after my divorce
Mr twin in a man born on a special ddate
for twins
he was in him, and he said, I love you dearly
darling, but this isn't where we begin
I'll be moving on, to another
gathering of my pieces, I'm moving on
I'll see you later
gosh I thought I'd die

anyway, I found him, here
so yes you will love in different
body temples, but you will
know when you look deep into the eyes
that when you realize, you've never
been apart, you are magnetically
drawn together
for completion
and always watching out for
all the pieces to your jigsaw.