posted July 23, 2006 05:05 AM         

I have meet my soul mate or the person im sure is my sould mate 100%.

Before I meet (a) I dident believe I could love somone as much or as fully as i discovered when meeting person (a)- perhaps thats the aloof aquarian in me?

when meeting (a) we fell in love at first sight... he was my best friend we under stood everything about each other to a t- he was born the same day year and time as myself.

We looked similar - we thought the same, we even ended up finisheing each others sentances with out even knowing. If felt like the love story you see on the movies,,, a dream, no one could touch us. Every one, family and friends couldent believe how well we got on, and how similar and extremly happy we were with each other.

He was my best friend - 3 years, Then he dumped me for ' no reason ' well... seemly reason and no reason was given. I was extremly broken - I could barley breath for 3 mths - stoped eating and cried for 4 days straight. I thought that i was going to die- ( such extreme feelings for an aquarian was really hard and really hard to understand)

2 years later I meet another man (b) we get along well.. sure i love him and all.. were very, 'practical' well he is a capricorn, we dont see eye 2 eye most times and dissagree alot- we both have a love for art tho- and have art in our profession.

but I keep on feeling / thinking about (a)- I even told (b) I was still in love when we started going out but he said that was ok and it dident matter- so then I basically supressed my felings of (a).

I dont even know why Im writting this- I guess i feel alot of sadness, a bit of guilt, scared, and also scared to tell anyone I know or even say it out alowed.

posted July 23, 2006 08:47 PM         

I have experienced meeting, loving and losing a soul mate..

With the privilage of hindsight i can say that soul mates are not necessarily meant to be our life long partners..

I also am with a Cappy right now(yep my polar) and he knows of my "soul mate" i do still talk to him via email now but my Cappy KNOWS its not and never will be a future relationship for me other than a deep connection and a mutual friendship as ive explained this to him..

Free yourself from the thought that because he is your soul mate that you need to be together.. appreciate what you experienced and learnt from him..even meditate on that and try to move forward..

Your relationship with your Cappy could be strained just by the fact that your still holding on to your last love..im not saying you shouldnt love your soul mate.. he obviously is part of you and always will be..but BE where you are.. with your Cappy.. even though he said it didnt matter...its does and im sure he feels it does just as you do..you need to work though this so you relationship can reach its potential..or any future relationship for that matter..

Hope ive made sense..and not just rambled..
My heart is with you, being thru a similar situation myself..

posted July 24, 2006 12:16 AM         

Give yourself some more time, but don't focus overly much on what you had with that man. It is in the past, and can be a habit to be dreaming about the past and not living in the present. Much love to you, I know how much it hurts. I was in love with an Aquarian man and felt like my heart was ripped out when it ended. The love for that person never goes away, you just change focus.