posted November 09, 2006 10:48 PM         

last time we saw each other was two weekends ago... a bunch of us were all hanging out... and as the night wore out, it was down to him, me and 4 of my friends whom he had never met before. then the 6 of us went somewhere else and stayed up til dawn.

then last weekend, i was out of town... so i didn't get to see him.

i think it's because i always thought that if a guy liked you enough, he would've made the first move. but i also have a tendency to keep a way-too-safe distant from the guys i like. i can't figure out why that is... i'm handicapped in that sense.

thanks again, pidaua!!... i'll keep you updated. i'm not quite sure if i'll see him this coming weekend... but next week, there's a mutual friend's wedding that i know he'll be going as well!

- princess aries~

posted November 10, 2006 05:50 PM         

i'm kinda tipsy right now... but i just wanted to let you know that i saw the sag guy again tonite and we hung out til 6am AGAIN... and like you said, i asked for his number and gave him enough green light to go ahead...

the thing is- my younger brother said he noticed that the sag guy IS into me on some level... but one thing i forgot to tell you... he's an ex of one of my best friends... and my brother is saying that this is what's been preventing him to make a further move...

and i think he's right...

if thats the case... its just too bad, right??

yea, i know i should just give up... because it's too friggin' bad... and the timing is ALL WRONG...

thanks for you kind words anyways...

love it that you're having a good time with you leo... and good luck with your move and everything!!

posted November 14, 2006 12:07 PM         

Sorry it took me so long to write back. I have been in and out with work and leisure LOL...

In your last post you said "the thing is- my younger brother said he noticed that the sag guy IS into me on some level... but one thing i forgot to tell you... he's an ex of one of my best friends... and my brother is saying that this is what's been preventing him to make a further move..."

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Does your bf know that you have an interest in Mr. Sag? How long did they date or was it something serious. If it was only a few dates and she broke it off with him, there may not be anything to worry about. If he is her true "ex" and they had a very intimate and long lasting relationship, I'd stay away unless you are willing to trade him in for your friend.

If you think the two of you have something that can be amazing, then by all means, at least start a dialog. It can't hurt to be friends and see where it goes. I am assuming you are in college and if so, keep in mind that we tend to move away after school, have new friends and new experiences- the true ones remain and I would hate to see someone that is great for you (if that is the case) slip by.

You may embark on a great friendship and realize that although you and Mr. Sag makes wonderful friends, you would never want a relationship with him. I have a few experiences where I was somewhat interested in a guy, only to become friends and then thank my lucky stars we didn't date LOL....

I wish you lots of luck and the wedding sounds like it is going to be a BLAST!!!

~Pidaua

posted November 14, 2006 01:01 PM         

first off... i wanna say... i'm SOOOO happy coz you have the impression that i'm still in college!! YAY!!!! that means i'm still young!! woo-hoooooooo~ unfortunately, i'm actually 31... and mr. sag is 32... grrrrrrrr~

well... my best friend doesnt know i'm interested in mr. sag (i tend to protect myself too much and i'm quite secretive about my interest in guys especially in the initial stage... even from my good friends)... but they only went out for about a year a long time ago... more than 5 years ago. it wasnt a serious relationship and they always knew they werent right for each other... they broke up on really good terms... and they've remained good friends until now. so to me, i dont think my friend would mind if anything does materialize between him and i... in fact, i have a feeling that she'd be pretty okay with it. dont know what he thinks though. anyways... we'll see what happens... i really think i gave him enough green lights (in my books, at least)... so what to do next would really have to depend on him now... coz i'm not going to "pursue" anymore...

"I have a few experiences where I was somewhat interested in a guy, only to become friends and then thank my lucky stars we didn't date LOL...."

same here!!... i have a few really good friends who are guys... and all the friendships started out that way. and eventually we became good friends instead... and yes, i have to thank my lucky stars as well! they're like my brothers now!! it's just that with mr. sag, it felt different from day one... but then again, it might still be the same at the end....

thanks pidaua!!! it's always comforting to read your words...

posted November 27, 2006 06:32 PM         

Hope all is well and you had a blast at the wedding and on Thanksgiving.

posted December 16, 2006 04:20 PM         

sorry i've been MIA...

i didnt know how to tell you this... so i wasnt gonna write back... but i decided to keep you in the loop of things...

things turned a drastic change... apparently he's interested in another good friend of mine instead... and funny that this good friend is the only one (other than my younger bro) that i've confessed that i'm (was) interested in the sag guy...

i'm hurt... really hurt. i have a cancer rising... so being as insecure and as inconfident that i am... i couldnt deal with it. and still cant. and because of my pessimistic side... i even felt that i couldnt trust my friend anymore (coz she'd been in touch with the sag guy and was getting along very well... and slowly developing their relationship, though she'd been denying it)... i trusted her... and no matter how she was trying to defend herself... i know, deep down... that she was flattered with his pursue...

i'd been trying to avoid him... and tonight, he just showed up at one of our usual gatherings... with my sag moon and my aries sun... i pretended i was in the happiest mood and having fun with my other friends... but i didnt even look at him for a brief second. but deep inside... i couldnt deal with it.

anyways... so thats my story... and thats the end of it.

thanks for checking in with me... and i'm really sorry i didnt get back to sooner.

funny enough... when you wrote that message... it was his birthday....... nov 27th. made it harder for me to face it.

wish me luck... i really thought that after years of waiting... god is finally looking upon me.

guess not.

once again, i was wrong. i know... i think i'm destined to be alone for the rest of my life.

thanks pidaua... i hope you're doing much better than i am now.