posted October 08, 2006 03:11 AM         

I’m sort of at the end of my rope here,, and at a point where I don’t know where else to turn to try to understand why I am feeling so intensely for someone I've fallen in love with - so bear with me a little . I had my chart done a while ago and was amazed at how spot-on it was so I’m wondering if astrology could also give me some clues about my current turmoil. I’m a Taurus with Scorpio Rising, and Moon in Pisces. She’s a Virgo with Virgo Rising and Moon in Leo. There’s a lot between us that would make us incompatible but there’s also a strong strong attraction that is driving me crazy. First off there’s a generational gap between us. I originally pegged her as a very attractive woman in her early 40’s -I'm nearing 30 - only to learn she was much older. She has a very, very youthful appearance, is very health conscious and very much into taking care of her body so I was floored when I learned that she was actually 60. I’m totally confused because I’ve never been attracted to a woman this much older than myself ever before. The sexual tension between us is stifling and though we have a lot in common, sometimes it's hard to just hold a conversation because of this. The problem is as strong as this attraction is and though I sense she is interested too, I'm scared to approach her for various reasons but I hope some of you will be kind enough to read on and offer some insight into this situation.

My tight Venus/Mars conjunction in Aries and mercury in Taurus fall in her 8th house. My moon in Pisces falls in her 7th house, opposite her ascendant. My Sun in Taurus and Jupiter in Gemini fall in her 9th house, my Saturn in Leo falls in her 12th, my Pluto in Libra and Uranus in Scorpio fall in her 2nd house, and my Neptune in Sagittarius falls in her 4th.

Her Venus and Mars in Libra fall in my 12th house, so does her Jupiter in Libra. Her Neptune in Libra falls in my 11th house. Four of her planets - Pluto in Leo, Mercury and Moon in Leo and Sun in Virgo - fall in my 10th house. Her Saturn in Leo falls in my 9th and her Uranus in Gemini falls in my 8th.

Element wise we are compatible I suppose. As I mentioned, she is Sun Virgo and I am Sun Taurus, both earth signs. However She is Virgo Rising, I am Scorpio rising. I see a problem with her Moon in Leo with my Moon in Pisces but so far we relate to each other well. We have alot of similar interests and intellectually very compatible but I've never experienced such intensity for someone I haven't begun to even date yet. We probably want different things in life, she’s at a different stage in hers, I am just beginning mine but I can’t deny the attraction and my strong affection for her and the feeling we were meant to be close. Even if this doesn’t last (and I’m realistic enough to realize that it probably won’t if it turns romantic) I sense a "meant to be" thing going on here. I know this could be a transformative experience for me but that's another story...I fear the possibility of making a fool of myself by making romantic overtures to her and since we're great friends I'd hate to spoil that dynamic. I guess I want to know if I can take it further and if the stars smile on this situation or what aspects or energies are contributing to it and how to deal with them.

Some other aspects between us: ( I Just bought solar fire but I've got alot of studying to do before I understand any of this)

My North Node Sextile Her Moon
Orb 2°43' Separating

My Chiron Square Her Saturn
Orb 0°17' Separating

My Uranus Sextile Her Ascendant
Orb 0°31' Applying

My Mercury Trine Her Ascendant
Orb 3°54' Separating

My Moon Square Her North Node
Orb 6°06' Applying

My Venus Opposition Her Chiron
Orb 7°42' Applying

My Sun Quincunx Her Chiron
Orb 1°25' Separating

My North Node conjunct Her Jupiter
Orb 0°13' Separating

My Venus Trine Her Mercury
Orb 3°41' Separating

My Venus Opposition Her Mars
Orb 1°13' Applying

My Venus Opposition Her Neptune
Orb 4°53' Separating

My Venus Trine Her Pluto
Orb 0°07' Applying

My Mars Opposition Her Mars
Orb 0°13' Separating

My Venus Opposition Her Venus
Orb 6°22' Separating

My Mars Opposition Her Neptune
Orb 3°53' Separating

My Mars Trine Her Pluto
Orb 1°07' Applying

My Jupiter Square Her Sun
Orb 5°38' Applying

My Jupiter Trine Her Mars
Orb 2°30' Separating

My Jupiter Trine Her Neptune
Orb 1°09' Separating

My Saturn Conjunction Her Mercury
Orb 4°50' Separating

My Saturn Conjunction Her Saturn
Orb 7°50' Applying

My Saturn Conjunction Her Pluto
Orb 1°16' Applying

My Uranus Square Her Pluto
Orb 2°46' Separating

My Neptune Trine Her Mercury
Orb 0°12' Separating

My Neptune Opposition Her Uranus
Orb 5°56' Separating

My Neptune Trine Her Pluto
Orb 3°22' Applying

My Pluto Conjunction Her Venus
Orb 6°28' Separating

My Pluto Conjunction Her Mars
Orb 1°07' Applying

My Pluto Conjunction Her Neptune
Orb 4°46' Applying

My Sun Square Her Moon
Orb 5°47' Separating

My Sun Square Her Mercury
Orb 5°26' Applying

My Pluto Semisquare Her Moon
Orb 0°00' Separating

My Mercury Trine Her Sun
Orb 2°17' Applying

My Mercury Square Her Saturn
Orb 1°54' Applying

My Mercury Semisquare Her Uranus
Orb 1°29' Separating

My Venus Sesquisquare Her Moon
Orb 0°06' Applying

My Mars Sesquisquare Her Moon
Orb 0°54' Separating

My Mars Trine Her Mercury
Orb 4°41' Separating

My Jupiter Sesquisquare Her Jupiter
Orb 1°08' Applying

My Jupiter Sextile Her Pluto
Orb 3°51' Applying

My Saturn Sextile Her Mars
Orb 0°04' Applying

My Uranus Sesquisquare Her Uranus
Orb 2°56' Applying

My Neptune Sextile Her Venus
Orb 2°53' Separating

My Pluto Sextile Her Pluto
Orb 0°13' Separating

My Moon Quincunx Her Mars
Orb 1°02' Separating

My Moon Quincunx Her Pluto
Orb 0°18' Applying

My Sun Quincunx Her Venus
Orb 2°45' Applying

My Sun Sesquisquare Her Neptune
Orb 1°01' Applying

My Vertex Opposition Her Moon
Orb 8°55' Applying

My Vertex Opposition Her Sun
Orb 3°11' Applying

My Vertex Sesquisquare Her Venus
Orb 2°27' Applying

There are also some contacts between my Ceres, Pallas and Juno and some of her planets and vice versa, but I’m not sure of their importance.

posted October 08, 2006 04:47 PM         

I don't know astrology like you have it listed, so I'll just answer you on a more "grounded" level.

Is your attraction to her more sexual than anything else? I ask this because you say that you know it probably won't last -- meaning a real relationship. Does she just want a sexual relationship with you? If you can both agree on what kind of relationship you want to explore, then I say go for whatever that is with all the gusto you have. You only live once and could have a beautiful time together -- as long as you are both clear on what you both want.

posted October 08, 2006 11:37 PM         

LetsDance, well I am strongly attracted to her sexually but somehow it feels …I guess karmic is the right word. I'm just wondering if I'm feeling more than she is. This is a new kind of feeling for me and it forces me to confront feelings I have for women. It's not easy pursuing a gay relationship or even being open about your sexuality in a society such as the one I live in. I do know that she is a lesbian but I'm uncertain if she just sees me in a sexual way or if there is something more. I don't know how to go about even telling her how I feel since this is un-chartered territory for me and I'm afraid of getting hurt. I said that it may not last because I suspect our age difference would be a major issue but who knows maybe it might not. I’m still "in the closet" and this experience might force me out of it yet I'm not even sure I’m ready to take that step. If this sounds confusing, it is for me too and I’m trying my best not to get depressed about it..