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Topic: Elusive Love
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Virgo/Leo Cusp Knowflake Posts: 26 From: Registered: May 2007
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posted March 11, 2008 10:14 PM
well I'm posting this post cause I need a little bit of insight....I'm 27 years old and I have never been in love ....last relationship was about 7 years ago..but wasn't in love....and well I'm lost .....I seem to be attracted to people who are attached already or are emotinonally unstable and well this is not good for me....cause this causes me alot of pain....so I experience alot of unrequited love....I was wondering if someone maybe could look at my chart...just to maybe offer some advice to me....to see what I'm doing wrongIP: Logged |
Virgo/Leo Cusp Knowflake Posts: 26 From: Registered: May 2007
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posted March 11, 2008 10:17 PM
sorry wrong linkok let's see if this works IP: Logged |
MysticMelody Moderator Posts: 3380 From: Registered: Dec 2005
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posted March 13, 2008 07:31 PM
Virgo/Leo if this topic doesn't take off I will probably move it over to the Personal Readings forum where you might get a better response. IP: Logged |
Geocosmic Valentine Knowflake Posts: 561 From: New York, NY Registered: Sep 2007
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posted March 13, 2008 07:38 PM
Mystic Melody,Please don't move it yet, I knew that I saw this one and wanted to comment on it, I just couldn't find it again. I'm leaving my office now but when I get home, I'll comment on it. Thanks a lot. Geocosmic Valentine ------------------ "Everybody is a star!" Sly & The Family Stone IP: Logged |
MysticMelody Moderator Posts: 3380 From: Registered: Dec 2005
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posted March 13, 2008 08:34 PM
right on IP: Logged |
Geocosmic Valentine Knowflake Posts: 561 From: New York, NY Registered: Sep 2007
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posted March 13, 2008 10:42 PM
When I look at your chart I immediately noticed several things.First, your Sun is in the 8th house and it rules the 8th house. One of the things that suggests is isolation. Many people with heavy 8th house energy can spend a lot of time alone by choice. Is this something that you do? The 8th house is also one of the of the 2 sexuality houses and with your Sun in "virginal" Virgo, there might be more cerebral, "chaste librarian" type energy. But bare with me, I could be wrong about that. It could manifest as you being more sexually attracted to cerebral subjects, maybe "nerdy" Bill Gates types, and that ain't so bad in my book now, these days. Second, your Venus is in Cancer in the partnership 7th house and it rules the 5th house of romantic sexuality. Your Venus is squared by Pluto which is a very tense and powerful aspect for life development. When you have a tense aspect between Venus and Pluto it can suggest "the wh0re/nun syndrome" which means that you can be highly promiscious or incredibly virginal and perfect about social values. So I think something is building here, I'm betting on the nun being dominant in your situation. Third, and this is might be a sensitive bombshell. You have Pluto conjunction Midheaven in Libra (traditionally the relationship sign), so one of your parents, probably your father, appears to be very powerful and difficult. With Moon in Aquarius, your mother may have been very detached or highly eccentric (the dark end of that spectrum is crazy or mentally ill). I suspect an incident may have happened with either him or your mother or both of them, toward you, when you were around 7 or 8 years old that might have been of a violent or sexually abusive nature. Something brutal and controlling occurred and it might be part of your caution around relationships, sexuality, extreme discrimination around romance and relationships. I forgot to mention that Pluto rules your 11th house of love received and hoped for which also leads me to believe that this incident occurring at age6, 7 or 8 was geared toward some kind of inappropriate sexual activity. Whatever it was, it was a complete ego wipe-out, over a time period that made you feel completely worthless, suppressed and in someways, unseen. There may have also been some severe illness involved as well. The way that your chart is set up suggests that you feel victimized by life circumstances, there appears to have been no real anchor and so your learning experiences in life may have been extreme experiences of trial and error. If any of this is correct and I'm not way off base here, my only suggestion can be to give yourself the gift of counseling, avail yourself of some kind of help with this. Because when I saw that your Sun was in the hiding 8th house, my first thought was, "She needs to get out and be in the world." But if you're worried about how to be there safely, it can sometimes seem easier to just stay in and enjoy your own company and that gets us nowhere. By the way, I see this kind of thing in my practice A LOT!! And I've seen people make great strides. If I'm wrong, please let me know, as a matter of fact, please confirm if any of this is correct so we can all learn, and I wish you all the best. I'm actually hoping that I'm wrong because I hate to see this kind of thing, and it pops up much to often. It's one of the reasons why I can't look at children's charts. Anyway, I wish you great good luck and I see that you are entering into your Saturn return phase over the next few years so I'm sure you will be making plans for your life and making decisions based on a more mature outlook on life. Geocosmic Valentine Professional Astrologer geocosmicvalentine@yahoo.com . www.myspace.com/geocosmicvalentine IP: Logged |
Geocosmic Valentine Knowflake Posts: 561 From: New York, NY Registered: Sep 2007
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posted March 13, 2008 10:48 PM
You might want to read it again, I went back and did some editing, correcting certain information.IP: Logged |
Virgo/Leo Cusp Knowflake Posts: 26 From: Registered: May 2007
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posted March 15, 2008 04:03 AM
thanks Geocosmic Valentine for taking the time to read my chart........i really do appreciate it!!ok where to begin Yeah I have Sun in the 8th house......I do often isolate myself...I just need to be with my thoughts oftens for my sanity.....but I'm also a very social person and with my profession.....I literally deal with the public everyday and I do have lots of friends.....so I do socialize and I'm not that shy cause I can make a friend with just about anyone....but yes somewhat shy around people I don't not know I do spend alot of time thinking about life, death sex, issue always have.........but yeah I have to get out and see the world more often..........it feels great when I do. Yeah I am attracted to more cerebral types, but someone who I can talk to about any subject.....being as I am the same way......once I get comfortable with someone..........you can't shut me up lol......also I dislike the superficial type , I want someone who has their own opinions and are not easily strayed.......someone like me oh that damn! Venus squared Pluto ..........well it's weird I do have a strong sex drive.......which I satisfy by myself.....alot ( not by choice).........but I just haven't found the right person to unleash my passion, love towards........so yes I am alone............but maybe because I'm just too picky I guess.......I just don't want to have relations with just anyone........there has to be passion, depth, intensity, something there. to spark interest......but I'm also kind of afraid of letting someone in my heart.......cause I feel someone could easily play with my feelings...... I'm a sensitive person, and i do care alot .........but i don't want to be played with either...... Yes growing up.......father was strict, stern, dominant, ruled with an "iron fist " he was distant, cold, unemotional most of the time...in his world alot of the time....he was young , when he married my mother...(accidentally conceived me)........I think in a way he resented this.......it was not probably wasn't the way he pictured his life would turn out.......so looking back he was frustrated and didn't know how to deal ..........Mom is great.......although yes she was bit detached and bit eccentric......but nothing too bad....she has moon in cancer and tried her best with three kids......she was working most of the time and trying to support us.......so she didn't have a great deal of time to really mother us..........but she did the best she could ......yeah she's a character lol well around 8-9 my parents seperated.......and well the seperation/ fight was a violent one.......that I witnessed......I had never seen my dad be so brutal to my mom......I felt confused and powerless to do anything.......I remember my mom asking my to call the police and my dad saying no! I didn't know what to do at the time...so I was caught in the middle and I was scared at the time ....I guess you can say.....that fight has never left my mind......I guess you can say that I don't want what happened to her to happen to me.......seeing that made me think......Is this how two people who claim to love eachother act towards eachother? this made me repel towards the idea of marriage.......I don't want to be tied down like that so someone can think they can control me , or that I have to do this or that just because I'm someone's wife.......I won't allow that....ever.....so yeah really dislike possessive, jealous, angry folk..they tend to remind of my father......so if I sense a dangerous quality to person......then i'm outta there and quick..... well I did have a friend......who I sensed was in trouble.. around age 9....yeah she revealed to me that she was being abused.......so it wasn't me.......but interesting..7-8 -9 years old .........I was ostracized , I didn't have any friends.....I tried to talk to people to make friends but no one except two people wanted to be my friends......so yeah this wiped out my ego and suppressed me and I felt invisible.......I was basically by myself at school and didn't really talk to anyone or if i did they really didn't want me talking to them.. I would basicaly watch everyone else play and i didn't have anyone to play with......so I retreated......I kept my feelings and thoughts to myself......and was very unhappy and yeah even thought about commiting suicide at that age.......cause it sucked so bad.......I had a knife , was lying underneath my bed, crying asking god to put me out of my misery......that didn't happen....lol.......so yeah for alot of my childhood.....I had only myself and I had to rely on that....so that experience taught me to be very independent now, very self reliant, and I'm a stronger person for it......my mom depended on me alot.......so I had to be serious and grow up pretty quickly but still had fun in my childhood yeah those years where quite interesting...for such a young child to experience....and extreme but I don't feel victimized not by a long shot.........but what doesn't kill you only makes you stronger.......I had witnessed death( literally), I had seen anger, I had to put my ego aside, I had to deal with sex issues( abuse of loved ones/friends) I have seen the bad....alot of it and have experienced alot.....now I want to see the good......I want to feel the good well this are good for me. I have lots of friends......too many I don't have time for all of them lol........I have a great job....and I get to help people too........which makes me feel good...I'm a good person who cares alot and has alotta love to give.. everyone calls me sweet ...Now I just want to experience LOVE........I want to experience the good......yeah saturn return is coming and is actually on my sun....so yeah hopefully love will be on the agenda
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Geocosmic Valentine Knowflake Posts: 561 From: New York, NY Registered: Sep 2007
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posted March 15, 2008 04:23 AM
Hi Virgo/LeoCusp,Thanks for responding, but just to remind you it wasn't Glaucus who did this consultation, it is Geocosmic Valentine. I'll respond more tomorrow, I'm just up late in the middle of the night, like you it seems. Have a good morning. Geocosmic Valentine IP: Logged |
Virgo/Leo Cusp Knowflake Posts: 26 From: Registered: May 2007
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posted March 15, 2008 05:48 PM
OHHH i'M SOOO SORRY Geocosmic Valentine!!I was up late last night .....so sorry but thanks for your response IP: Logged | |