posted July 27, 2017 04:45 PM
. . Am I delusional freak,
hopelessromantic or about to reveal
a secret that's been locked until
these veils have been lifting?
(Mods, I hope I'm in the right
Lengthy, pls be patient.
(I am married, 16yrs, love him very much -but this feels like I'm an imposter in my body/life. Like I have a current case of amnesia).
I have empath qualities first off. When ordinary (non love interests) have thought of me, I've sort of vibed to it and they said so once we spoke.
I've unusual gifts but _now_ I'm uncertain if I'm just a delusional middle aged woman or _am I actually 'feeling' the other/I finding one another in the 5D_ or something like that.
I have read recently how our etheric (veils) are merging currently and even the passed souls can mingle here with us. In the past 9months I've been 'feeling' the essence of the man I was supposed to Marry 30years ago.
We were childhood sweethearts. It ended bitterly. However he is, I believe still alive and I have even dreamed of him, albeit that didn't feel like a dream! (which I got a good reply in the dream thread).
Since that dream I've tried so hard to move him from my thoughts. I do have a Spirit guide and Raphael I speak to frequently, so I'm thinking they've been nudging me to keep thinking of 'B'. See, it's not just like thoughts, it FEELS like he and I are in same space/time. Like I'm living an inauthentic existence and he/I can't 'see' or 'touch' one another. 2way telepathy perhaps? This is a 'real' feeling.
Last week I found a token he bought me at Fisherman's Warf. It read:' name, I will love you forever'. I thought I threw it out. (Another story, when I destroyed his letters & pictures). I think it's funny since he loathed me in our last conversations. Maybe he really does still love me. Idk. I've even sought answers via his/my natals. In helio my name conj his Earth + Moon by 1'. One sided?
My natal Destinn asteroid is 0' conj our Davidson composite 'TrueNode'.
So am I just nuts or is this a more unusual love connection that the veil is guiding?
If I'm nuts, is it Neptune to blame or another facet? I have looked for mental illness in my chart, the aspects I've found to look for, none apply to me.
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I want to share movie clips
but the stories don't quite
fit, at least to convey to
you, whomever is reading
this. By the way, if you're still
reading, thank you.
There's an old film 'Made in Heaven'. The
2 stars were meant to find each other.
In my story we did, but we fell out, yet
this feeling that nags at my core, has
me wondering if that was a mistake.
We were soulmates maybe.
[ADDED] I almost forgot 'Peggy Sue Got Married'.the amnesia she had was different.
Or like OAAT (see below), memories for me are locked in some type of spell.The oddest thing about this film, Nicolas Cage was the closest in looks to 'B'.
Next the timelines meld in the final
season of 'Lost'. The Sawyer, Jack and Juliette storyline. (In my story it was my first love, sort of a triangle with another boy/He/I from our block. I killed our love story).
Then there's the series 'Once Upon a Time'.
Minus the fairytale side but the dualistic dimensions and amnesia aproach def fit.
The dimensions are lifted: http://www.enlightenedbeings.com/5th-dimension.html
Or, am I getting stronger with my abilities
and channeling answers to his true feelings
so I'll better know the past mystery of
his true heart - http://www.simion7d.com/telepathy.htm
Sorry I'm fragmented, my mind isn't feeling as its currently in only One World.