posted December 19, 2021 08:17 AM            

Twelfth Night / by William Shakespeare

Act II, Scene IV

DUKE ORSINO's palace.

ORSINO, VIOLA, CURIO, and others enter.

DUKE ORSINO

Play me some music.
(music plays) Good morning, my friends. Have them sing me that song again, Cesario, that old-fashioned song someone sang last night. It made me feel better and took my mind off my troubles much better than the silly songs they sing nowadays. Please, have them sing just one verse.

CURIO

Sir, the person who should sing that song isn’t here.

DUKE ORSINO

Who was it?

CURIO

Feste, the jester, my lord. Olivia’s father used to like him. He’s somewhere else in the house.

DUKE ORSINO

Then go find him. Meanwhile, play the tune.

CURIO exits. Music plays.

(to VIOLA) Come here, boy. If you ever fall in love and feel the bittersweet pain it brings, think of me.
Because the way I am now, moody and unable to focus on anything except the face of the woman I love, is exactly how all true lovers are. What do you think of this song?

VIOLA

It really makes you feel what a lover feels…

posted December 21, 2021 04:17 AM            

A pure soul and beautiful
You
Don't understand
Don't feel me now
I will breathe
For the both of us
Travel the world
Traverse the skies
Your home is here
Within my heart

And for the first time
I feel as though I am reborn
In my mind
Recast as child and mystic sage
Who wouldn't be the one you love
Who wouldn't stand inside your love

posted December 21, 2021 05:36 AM            

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6oVaIuMI0II

Salomé / by Oscar Wilde

http://www.gutenberg.org/files/42704/42704-h/42704-h.htm

You will find that quote you like after picture 14: THE DANCER'S REWARD

in this part:

SALOMÉ

[She leans over the cistern and listens.]

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posted December 21, 2021 09:32 PM              

quote:

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See the stone set in your eyes
See the thorn twist in your side
I'll wait for you
Sleight of hand and twist of fate
On a bed of nails, she makes me wait
And I wait without you
With or without you
With or without you
Through the storm, we reach the shore
You give it all but I want more
And I'm waiting for you
With or without you
With or without you, ah, ah
I can't live
With or without you
And you give yourself away
And you give yourself away
And you give
And you give
And you give yourself away
My hands are tied
My body bruised, she got me with
Nothing to win and
Nothing left to lose
And you give yourself away
And you give yourself away
And you give
And you give
And you give yourself away
With or without you
With or without you, oh
I can't live
With or without you
Oh, oh
Oh, oh
With or without you
With or without you, oh
I can't live
With or without you

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"And you give yourself away
And you give yourself away
And you give
And you give
And you give yourself away [to everyone but me]"

posted December 22, 2021 07:22 AM            

quote:

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Originally posted by Eternal Energy:
Salomé / by Oscar Wilde

http://www.gutenberg.org/files/42704/42704-h/42704-h.htm

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ah yes, true love. it be like that sometimes.

posted December 22, 2021 08:50 PM              

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Originally posted by Sauerkraut:
ah yes, true love. it be like that sometimes.

mostly joking BUT my maybe “twin” initially did not want to kiss me, friend zoned me and could not even look at me in the eyes. madness! i wanted his head! ..to be fair, when he looks at me in the eyes now, i have to turn away. i dont even see eyes - i see two beams of the most beautiful golden light.

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Wait?!! Are you telling me that you hooked up with Cyclops--The Cyclops!? Can you get him to sign my X-men poster of him?

Lol j/k (and his are red, I guess). Actually that is very beautiful and touching what you wrote.

posted December 22, 2021 09:52 PM              

Lyrics:

quote:

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If the sun refused to shine
I would still be loving you
When mountains crumble to the sea
There will still be you and me
Kind a woman, I give you my all
Kind a woman, nothing more

Little drops of rain, whisper of the pain
Tears of love's lost in the days gone by
My love is strong, with you there is no wrong
Together we shall go until we die, my, my, my
Inspiration's what you are to me
Inspiration, look 'n' see

And so, today my world it smiles
Your hand in mine, we walk the miles
Thanks to you, it will be done
For you to me are the only one
Alright, yeah
Happiness, no more be sad
Happiness, I'm glad

If the sun refused to shine
I would still be loving you
Mountains crumble to the sea
There will still be you and me

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posted December 22, 2021 09:58 PM              

Lyrics:

quote:

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Helplessly hoping
Her harlequin hovers nearby
Awaiting a word
Gasping at glimpses
Of gentle true spirit
He runs, wishing he could fly
Only to trip at the sound of good-bye

Wordlessly watching
He waits by the window
And wonders
At the empty place inside
Heartlessly helping himself to her bad dreams
He worries
Did he hear a good-bye? Or even hello?

They are one person
They are two alone
They are three together
They are for-or each other

Stand by the stairway
You'll see something
Certain to tell you confusion has its cost
Love isn't lying
It's loose in a lady who lingers
Saying she is lost
And choking on hello

They are one person
They are two alone
They are three together
They are for-or each other

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posted December 23, 2021 08:36 AM            

The song I promised.

posted December 23, 2021 06:20 PM              

quote:

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Originally posted by Eternal Energy:
I have many "friends" around me, but I never invite them at home. Unless I have other guests too.

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D@mn girl, you're more kinky than I thought...

J/K.

posted December 23, 2021 06:21 PM              

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Originally posted by Eternal Energy:
Lindaland had another network outage yesterday, at least on my part of the world... I only hope it didn't cause much stress and everything is ok now...

The song I promised.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gqKxRJWvduo

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If I didn't know better sweet Eternal, I'd might think you were teasing me... Haven't listened to it yet, but shall tomorrow. Busy tonight.

posted December 24, 2021 12:02 AM            

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Originally posted by Eternal Energy:
But, why do you turn away???

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good question. i have been thinking about your question for a bit and could not come up with an answer that i felt satisfied with. although i understand the reasons viscerally, they seem too complex to verbalize.

posted December 24, 2021 03:34 PM              

I wonder if this fear of vulnerability has some correspondence with Aries? Also, do you have strong Scorpio, Pluto, Saturn, and/or Capricorn in your chart? (I ask because I knew someone that has Aries Sun, Scorpio Moon conjunct Pluto, and Venus Saturn conjunction in the 7th who has deep, deep fears of being vulnerable--especially with me).

But here is the thing, you wouldn't be destroyed. I had a dream a number of years back that was pretty intense: I was sitting outside, meditating while looking at the sun with my eyes open. As I went deeper within myself during the meditation, I simultaneously started to somehow merge with the Sun (in consciousness). I felt an incredible expanding sensation. It got so intense that at one point, I felt some definite fear, like there was the possibility that I might be destroyed.

But something within, told me to just go with it, and I surrendered, let go of control, and was pleasantly surprised to find that I was still me at the end, but just a much more expanded, whole, and purified version of myself.

posted December 25, 2021 12:12 AM            

not sure if its really an issue related to scorpio/pluto or cap/saturn for me. there are flavors of trust issues and restrictions in my chart but they are definitely not as withholding as scorpio moon/pluto and venus/saturn.. that seems difficult, complicated. seems like that would be with everyone in general and not more with you? is this person a "twin"? would make much sense for those fears to be magnified with you.

hmm on my end, not sure if its actually astrology-personality related or more of an ancestral karma thing (i know one of my purposes as the black sheep is to break and heal that). nobody in my family - immediate or extended (or lineage) shows vulnerability. there are no obvious pattern(s) astrologically (at quick glance anyway). it seems the family was conditioned to see vulnerability as a "weakness" via toxic punishment. tbh even on a macro scale within humanity, i have not seen much vulnerability either (perhaps that could just be my dirty perception/projection as i heal). while i do see true vulnerability as a pillar of strength, vulnerability without proper boundaries IS weak and false. poor boundaries seem to run rampant in the family also.

if anything astrologically, this issue probably has more to do with a neptune in 1st/parallel ascendant in combo with the heavy aries/yang signature (and not being fully balanced currently). i believe i had that balance between the ages of 0-6, before absorbing the fears of the environment and losing myself. respecting my own and others energetic sovereignty, recognizing and honoring healthy boundaries is getting easier with time (alongside helpful transits). "maybe twin" has been a huge catalyst in this. i believe once i gain better mastery of this, i will be able to be strong enough to be truly vulnerable.

posted December 25, 2021 07:46 PM              

Hmmm--yeah that family karmic pattern stuff is very real and often rather hard to break. I was briefly involved with a woman in a very similar situation. She has Aries Rising and a boatload of Sag, including her chart ruler. But then she had a sensitive Pisces Moon. It was like her body was hard, separative, and selfish (from that familial strong karmic pattern), but her Soul was trying to work on it, and open up her heart. I think I came into her life to kind of catalyze that process some. Seems to be a pattern of mine. I get involved with a woman briefly, help to open up her heart some, and then I'm left behind. If there is anything to Chiron, then I suppose it fits Taurus Chiron closely conjunct Taurus MC, with Venus (also ruler of the Libra Moon), in Aqua in the 7th with a very close sextile to Sag Neptune in 5th and trine to Libra Pluto in 3rd, and square Scorpio Uranus in the 4th.

Some kind of "wounded healer" type when it comes to women and their hearts. Probably because my Expanded self has some other Souls in it that have deeply hurt women in other lives. I'm grateful that I didn't live those lives directly, but those lives and Souls are a part of me and our larger self, nonetheless, and karma of one's Expanded self is karma for all the Souls created by and connected within same. Oh joy.

What an interesting mix of energies, Neptune and Aries. These perhaps couldn't be anymore different in nature and vibration. It's like putting a bright red wall next to a pastel lavender colored wall in the same room. What a contrast!

It's a process, you'll get there, but yes, boundaries, balance, and facing fears will be very important, continuing parts of that process. I'm glad you have someone in your life that is helping you with that, though I know from experience that is not always all that enjoyable or comfortable, to say the least.

Hmm, would recommend Aya or an Aya analogue over DMT because it lasts significantly longer. Thank you for appreciating the dream. Yes, it is interesting, a few years or so later after that dream, I had another dream where I experienced that incredibly intense expanding sensation, but this time, I didn't feel any fear or didn't try to initially control it. It was all smooth and harmonious from start to end.

In the dream, I was with a group of other individuals, and we were all standing in a circle, holding hands and collectively meditating and attuning. And we were helping each other in that endeavor*. At some point, I became intuitively aware that I should step into the middle of the circle that that I was to become a channel of Source. I did so, and as I opened up, experienced that intense expanding sensation, and weirdly, I felt I was myself, but I also felt I was imbued, somehow, with two other distinct consciousnesses (Source and Christ/Love?). Like they were fused to, or grafted on to me and/or vice versa, but I was still me, but a much more powerful, purified, aware version.