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anevolena
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posted June 27, 2022 10:50 PM     Click Here to See the Profile for anevolena     Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote
Hey everyone,

Just like most everyone on here I met this guy and now I'm looking for answers.

We met twice, a year a part, and both instances were exceptionally significant, and I felt a massive sense of recognition. Very often will one of us say the exact thing on the other's mind, we act alike, we have similar backgrounds...

Astrologically, he and I have a very, very karmic synastry. We have the same Ascendant, Mars-NN DW, his vertex conjuncts my DC. (Loosely a DW-- composite vertex is on DC) His DC ruler conjuncts my IC.

In our Draconic, his moon exactly conjuncts my Sun, and my natal Sun exactly conjuncts his draconic Venus.

You can see it here: http://www.linda-goodman.com/ubb/Forum35/HTML/011807.html

I barely know him but he's already triggering me. We became very quick friends after meeting, but I called him out on some Gemini Venus BS and now we're not talking. Although we are very similar, we seem to have opposite perspectives on relationships. I seem to be more serious/guarded/avoidant, whereas he seems to be desperate for validation and attention.

That being said, I CANNOT get this out of my mind. My intuition is haywire around him.

I'm certain we're karmic in a way, but
I feel like we may actually be twin flames. I didn't even know that term until I started researching our connection.

I am curious to get insight from actual people who think they found their twin. A lot of the results on Google seem very fake, tbh, whether it is someone trying to make money, or frankly delusional people deep in limerence towards an unavailable partner.

If you found your twin, can you summarize your story? How do you mirror each other? What have you learned, how have you grown? Has your twin grown as well?

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posted June 28, 2022 04:27 PM     Click Here to See the Profile for Randall     Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote
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GalacticCoreExplosionV2
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posted June 29, 2022 06:45 PM           Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote
My partner of 21 years and I have a twin soul connection.

The first couple years were kind of rough as we both have strong, stubborn personalities, and were coming out of messed up/stressful family and life situations.

We have a rather strong psychic/intuitive connection. I would say that is one of the more consistent hallmarks of a true twin soul connection. Not that you can't have that with other soul connections--of course you can. I mean, if you and say a soulmate connection were both monks or priests/priestesses in another life and meditated-prayed together all the time, or the like, then yeah, chances are, in this life you will also have a heightened intuitive connection between you. Or say you were physical, identical twins in another life with a soulmate, then similarly, likely to have a heightened intuitive connection in this life.

But with a twin soul connection, it often is more automatic and "built in" so to speak. And it is more common for the psychic-intuitive connection to be powerful in twin soul connections.

That is about as much as I will generalize about these connections, as I find too often, too many sources over generalize and lump them together, when really, we are all individuals and our individual journey's will likely vary quite a bit with this (twin soul connections) and other things.

One of the over generalizations that I often see about these connections is the over focus on romance. You're just as likely to have a twin soul connection with a family member, a friend you can't be with romantically for whatever reason, etc. They are not always lovers/mates. In fact, past life/karmic investigation into our respective Soul and Higher/Expanded self histories has shown my partner and I--that romantic connections have not necessarily predominated.

We've been each others parents, other family members, friends without benefits/co-workers for a similar cause, etc just as often as we've been lovers/mates. Nor do we always incarnate together. Occasionally when one of us incarnates, the other one will hang back in the nonphysical and act as a guide/helper type to the other.

Oh, another BIG misconception is that you can and will only ever have one twin soul connection in this life. Nope. Our individual Soul was created by an older, wiser/more aware, larger part of ourselves that we can call our Higher or Expanded self. This part of us creates us soul extensions on a "as needed" basis.

It can, and often does, have more than one Soul extension going on in the same time/space cycle.

Hence, if your Expanded/Higher self and the Higher/Expanded self of your "twin flame" have multiple soul extensions going on in this particular life/space-time cycle, then it is quite possible for you or them to meet more than one of these connections.

This has happened to both my partner and I. To be honest, I don't know how common or not this is though. I just know that it is possible based on our experience.

Astrologically speaking, my partner and I have a strong emphasis on opposite and same Sign placements between different but important/sensitive placements in our respective charts.

For example, I have Cap Sun and Merc, Leo Rising, Libra Moon, Aqua Venus (in 7th*), Virgo Mars, Jupiter, NN, and Saturn, and obviously Pisces SN. Scorpio IC/Taurus MC.

She has Aqua Sun, Venus, and South Node, Cap Rising, Aries Moon, and Mercury and Mars in Pisces. Taurus IC/Scorpio MC.
* (Interesting to note that my partner is a predominant Venusian, with Venus Rising and closest Planet to her Asc point).

My Venus is conjunct her Sun/South Node conjunction which in turn is conjunct my Desc. My Sun is conjunct her Asc, her Mercury and Mars are conjunct my South Node, our Moons are in opposition, etc, etc.

Astrologically, this is probably the most common pattern I've seen between twin soul connection relationships--very strong emphasis on opposite and same Sign connections, especially between different, but sensitive/important symbols in the chart. Also, the other reflecting our Desc and related factors powerfully.

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posted June 29, 2022 10:18 PM     Click Here to See the Profile for anevolena     Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote
Galactic,

Wow, thank you for responding! That's fascinating.

I simply know we are twin flames. I just know it. Also, it is very strange how me and this guy didn't meet before we did. Before I met him, I was in the worst depression of my life (saying something) due to heartbreak over a guy (a soulmate, I believe.) Having made it through, I now realize I needed to go through that, because I was able to choose to love myself in the face of it all. One step lead to the next and before I knew it I was on my spiritual awakening.

Then the pandemic hit, my job shut down, and I used that time to deepen my connection with God. Summer 2021, my job reopened, and on the very first day, I met him. Turns out we have been coworkers this entire time, I've been to his house, we have the same friends... I just never knew him.

I still haven't interacted with him extensively but I believe we have a psychic connection. He often says the exact thing on my mind. I can barely look him in the eyes due to the intensity. Although, I am trying to strengthen this bond, as I haven't had anything truly WOW yet (tbf him saying my thoughts is kinda strange)

Can I ask you how you mirror your twin flame, personality wise? Do you acknowledge that you are TF, or is it left unsaid?

Also, can I ask how you have explored your past lives together? I am extremely intersted in this.

Your astrological connections are fascinating. Wow! I can tell there's something huge in our charts, but I am still learning how to tell the whole astrological story instead of zeroing in on certain aspects.

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posted June 30, 2022 09:39 AM           Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote
Sounds like it has been quite a journey for you so far. Yeah, it does seem like a somewhat common pattern for a person to go through karmic soulmate situations that are very painful, testing, challenging, before meeting and getting to be with their twin soul IF that is part of the cards in this life (again, not all twin soul connections are romantic).

Believe me, I understand the intensity of the feelings and emotions in all this, but at the same time, try to keep in mind that at a Soul, and especially Higher/Expanded self level, we are here trying to move more and more towards the Oneness of the Whole. If you are more spiritually developed than the average on a Soul level, and if you overly lose yourself in a twin soul connection (can and does happen), then it may be taken away from you so that you do focus more on the Oneness and true/pure Love. We are parts/extensions of the Source itself, and that is our true Home of homes--with Source and with the Oneness of the Whole.

Twin souls can distract us from that, and yet, they are meant to help us to remember/realize that ultimate truth also. For, if we can experience a greater Oneness with one other Soul, it can make it easier to experience it with others as long as we keep the right ideals and bigger picture in mind.

How do we mirror each other personality wise? Well, as mentioned, we are both strong and stubborn personalities, but we are also opposites at the same time. On a Soul level, I am more attuned to the Yin and she to the Yang. Astrologically speaking, this often relates to my Libra Moon and 7th House Pisces South Node vs her Aries Moon and very strong Aquarius. Though I do have a strong, stubborn personality in many ways (Leo Rising, Cap Sun, etc), I'm also more go with the flow, more flexible, etc than she tends to be. She is definitely more fixed.

We have very similar tastes in music, food, etc, but at the same time, we also have very different tastes and interests in some areas. For example, she is obsessed with visual art, which for the most part, I could care less about (though I respect it) while I'm VERY focused on music. But our inner ideals are quite similar. We both strongly believe in and deeply care about service, Love, the Oneness of the Whole, etc.

She is an extrovert and I'm an introvert. Again, in some ways, we are opposites and very different.

Past life investigation has come about primarily via a combo of dreams, readings with psychics, way beyond chance synchronicity with others/life itself. Also, we have a bit of a "leg up" in a way from others, in that we are both connected to Souls that incarnated during the same space/time cycle as Edgar Cayce and that group of service Souls that incarnated with him.

These other Souls that we are connected to, had "Life Readings" from Edgar and his nonphysical guidance. Hence, some of the lives that we are aware of, are via those readings. Some of our dreams (both for ourselves and for/about each other), psychic readings from longtime/professional intuitives-psychics, etc have confirmed and/or correlated with those readings, and sometimes in very intense ways.

Heck, even my partner's birth date seems to be a big clue to all this. In common, American, numerological form, her birth date is 2/8/81. This "coincidentally" is the same number sequence of the woman she is connected to and the woman's first reading. Meaning, each person was assigned a random number sequence to protect their identity and give them anonymity and yet allow for a way to identify and categorize their readings for their and Cayce and friends benefit.

For example, this is how it worked. Edgar's own set of readings was listed under the number sequence of "294". But then the number sequence of the readings was listed as -1, -2, -3, etc, etc. So Edgar's first reading for himself would look like 294-1, his second would be 294-2, etc. In a way, you could say that Edgar's first reading, was a "birth" of sorts for him, as the 1 begins it all in an active phase after the latent/purely Yin potential of the 0.

So it does seem a little over coincidental that my partner's birth-date number sequence is the same as this woman's case number + first reading. Course, neither of us only rely on this. My partner has had dreams of being connected to this woman. One dream was kind of amusing as she saw herself connected to this woman and then saw a bunch of people we know/are close to in this life and who they were connected to in that past life. Her ex boyfriend in this life, was in the dream as her ex husband (died and left her a widow) and spoke up about my brother's wife, who in that life was my mate, and her ex boyfriend/husband wryly said something like, "and J has chosen quite the body for herself in this life".

(Indeed, she is quite attractive in this life).

But I want to and should make clear, these are not cases of direct, literal reincarnations of the same Soul. This is actually kind of rare. What is far more common is that the Higher/Expanded self part of us, creates a new Soul to have a new life and when it does that, the way it creates that new Soul is by mixing and matching different parts/memories/energetics/patterns from other Souls it has already created and who had already lived human (or other) lives.

Hence, when this new Soul comes into this life, it often comes with a feeling of having lived before, but they are not literally, directly these other people and Souls. Souls can and sometimes do directly and literally reincarnate, but it seems most Souls go fairly long times before choosing that. Probably simply because of how difficult and stressful human lives tend to be on the Soul, and no one knows that better than a Soul who has already directly experienced that for themselves.

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posted December 05, 2023 03:29 PM     Click Here to See the Profile for sashavittoria     Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote
I am pretty sure I found mine and the story isn’t over, but I can sum it up so far. However, first, I have to explain what I understand a TF to be, because there is a lot of romanticizing and false information out there.

Let’s first consider the science: before the Big Bang, All was One. A singularity. After the Big Bang, we have duality: hot and cold, light and dark, male and female. Astrology reflects this: every pair of opposites operate on a single axis; they are flip sides of the same coin, two signs taking opposite approaches to the same subject.

So a twin flame is a single soul in two bodies/minds. By definition, IMO, you cannot have more than one “twin”. Twin = two. So you can have many soulmates, but only one Twin Flame. You can have other members of the same soul family, but only one Twin Flame.

We can still access singularity (what Buddhists call Unity Consciousness) by transcending the 3D (physical, Newtonian) and accessing the 5D (quantum, which is beyond the 4th dimension of time). We do this primarily through meditation and present-consciousness. Look to Eckhart Tolle, Joe Dispenza, and others: they explain it quite well. This is from Dispenza’s book Becoming Supernatural (emphasis mine):

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Mystical quantum physicist David Bohm called the realm of the quantum the implicate order where everything is connected. He called the explicit order the material realm of separation…

When you take your attention off being some body, some one, some thing, some where, in some time, and you become no body, no one, no thing, no where, in no time, you are becoming pure consclousness. Your consciousness merges with the unified held--which is made only of consciousness and energy- where you connect to the self-organizing consciousness of every body, every one, every thing, every where in every time. Thus, as you surrender as an awareness (without your senses) into this feld of oneness where there is no separation, and you keep going deeper into the void or blackness, because nothing physical exists there, you as a consciousness become less separate from the consciousness of the unifed field. If you can keep becoming more conscious and aware of it and keep paying attention to it, you are investing your energy in it and your attention directly at it. Thus, as you keep moving toward it, you will feel less separation and more wholeness.

Finally, since only the eternal present moment exists in the unified field, because there is no linear time (only all time), the consciousness and energy of the unified field that is observing all matter into form is always in the present eternal moment. Therefore, in order for you to connect and unify with it, you will have to be completely in the present moment as well…

One last point about the speed of light. In this realm of the material world, visible light is a frequency based on polarity (electrons, positrons, photons, and so on)… according to scale, approximately one-third of the way up from the slowest frequency is where the division of light takes place. Above this wave or frequency is where matter goes from form to energy and singularity, and below this frequency are division and polarity. When the division of light takes place, photons, electrons, and positrons come into being because the visible light field holds the information template of matter as organized frequency In patterns of light. This division of light is where the Big Bang occurred--where singularity became duality and polarity, and where the universe eventually appeared as organized information and matter. That's why this void is eternal blackness: There is no visible light.

Because matter vibrates at such a slow frequency, to enter the time-space dimension or the unified field, you can't enter as a body or matter, so you must become no body. You can't take your identity so you're going to have to become no one. You can't take things so you must become no thing. You can't be some where so you're going to have to get to no where. Finally, if you're living by a familiar past or predictable future where time appears linear, to get to the place of time-space you're going to have to experience no time. How do you do this? You keep placing your attention on the unified field--not with your senses but with your awareness. As you change your consciousness, you raise your energy. The more you become aware of this invisible field, the more you're moving further away from the separation of matter and closer to oneness. Now you're in the quantum, or the unified field. This is the realm of information that connects every body, every one, every thing, every where, and every time.


What is the point of twin flame union? UNITY CONSCIOUSNESS. To end the illusion of duality. The purpose of twin flame “union” is nothing less than enlightenment - unity with god/spirit/the divine/the universe, whatever you want to call it.

The truth is that you already are your twin flame. There is nothing to DO, only to BE.

So when you encounter your twin, you are one soul, but you are polarized on the level of mind/body. But the one who is conscious RECOGNIZES the soul in the other - that's soul recognition. One (“divine feminine”, which has nothing to do with gender) is conscious and begins as the chaser, the other (“divine masculine”, again not gender) is unconscious and begins as the runner. The "goal" is to collapse this polarization.

The mistake people make is in perpetuating the separation by believing in that duality, ie believing they need to “achieve” union. But they already ARE in union. They just have to transcend the 3D illusion and live in the 5D. That’s why the DF has to stop chasing.

This is why so many twin flames don’t come into union - no matter what we are in the 5D, our 3D selves simply cannot always evolve or wake up enough to manifest it here in the 3D material world. The mistake is thinking that we need to.

For me, like most DFs/chasers, this desire for 3D validation holds us back.

Since TFs are polarized in the 3D, they trigger one another. The task in the 3D is to integrate the shadow as represented by the twin. This is RADICAL shadow work, consciousness-raising work. In practical terms, you have to identify what about your twin you 1) admire and want to emulate; 2) hate but secretly do; 3) hate but secretly want to do. For example, one of the #2s for me: we are both perfectionists in our work, but it manifests in opposite ways: his as anxiety (anxiously perfecting everything he does) and mine as avoidance (procrastination, hiding, and inactivity because if I don’t try, I can’t fail).

Then you have to set about doing/becoming/embodying all three of those things. And you better have a list of items under each of those three, if you’re self-aware.

Due to the polarization in the 3D, instead of attaching to the TF as the other half to your half, you have to set about focusing on YOURSELF and embodying in YOURSELF all the things you think you lack and that they magically have. You have to be your own TF - because, in the 5D, you already are.

So that’s the 3D work: essentially, you have to use your TF as a map to your own psychology because they are your mirror. Study them: I guarantee that everything you admire about them is within you, and so is everything you hate about them. So use them as a map to work on your trauma and attachment style, release karmic bonds, rewrite the painful stories that your TF appeared to solve, and separate them from the dream of the life you think you can only have with them. Because the truth is you don’t need to be with your twin in the 3D in order to live your best/most purposeful life because you already ARE them in the 5D and thus have everything you need.

Once you’ve worked on the 3D stuff enough - the psychological stuff that keeps you polarized in the 3D - then you can start to access the 5D work. That’s where meditation and a spiritual practice come in.

Here’s the kicker: your twin will not even begin to consider you until you stop thinking about them. Remember, you’re polarized on the level of the mind. When you chase, they run - even if you’re only chasing MENTALLY. Even if you’re just thinking about them. So you have to forget them and focus on your own spiritual ascension.

The time when I was most diligent and disciplined about NOT thinking about my TF, he reached out to me.

Once you've handled all the 3D baggage, there should no longer be any polarization there to hold you apart - ie, you no longer feel the need to chase. Then the more you align with the 5D (the reality of union), the 3D has no choice but to follow suit. Ascend, and the material universe will inevitably reflect your ascension - ie, your unity consciousness.

You have to be patient and realize it’s your own journey. You are responsible for your part and you have to do it right, regardless of what happens with your twin, regardless of whatever they’re doing or thinking or feeling. Psychological healing and spiritual ascension are not processes that can be rushed and being with your TF in the 3D is not urgent. Like I said, you already ARE them. You just have to act like it.

So here’s my story.

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We met on 22 March 2021 for six weeks and had an intense mutual attraction, something I’d never felt before. At the time, I was married and he was in an off period of an on/off relationship. We met when I was returning to the pursuit of my dharma, taking a painting workshop at the school where he teaches. (We’re only three years apart.) He seemed to embody all the dreams I had given up on: not only creatively and professionally, but romantically as well.

In the second week, I had my first dream about him: a woman told him we would get married and then he showed me some things that later, in reality, he did. We only had a few conversations, full of his red flags, but one day when I was sitting beside him I felt a strong sense of peace and contentment. Towards the end of the six weeks, I came home one day to experience an intense sensation of peace, oneness, wholeness, and an irrational confidence that we would be together someday. I had a dream about us having sex in or near a church - the most intense and realistic sex dream I’ve had to this day.

Then my entire life fell apart.

Two days after I saw him for what I thought would be the last time (because I was leaving his country to return to mine), two things happened: 1) my sister volunteered to take over taking care of our aging father - being his caretaker had held me back from my dharma; 2) my husband and I, a week or two after buying a house together, suddenly agreed to divorce.

Before I left his country, I found my TF again. I told him I was getting divorced. We talked until curfew (covid times). He didn’t tell me then, but I’m pretty sure he had gotten back with his on/off girlfriend. Still, he encouraged me to go to his school and talked about the viability of long-distance relationships. Then he let me go.

And I didn’t hear from him. I messaged him once a month for three months, and he left me on read. Yet he watched all my stories religiously. It drove me nuts. My life was falling apart - divorce, my father in the hospital, selling my childhood home - and I still thought of this guy every single day. I couldn’t get him off my mind and I hated it. So when I got into a different school, I blocked him. I was sick of being watched - it gave me anxiety. I figured I would never see or hear from him again.

That school put me through the ringer. I still thought of my TF obsessively. I became extremely depressed. I had health issues. My mother passed away. Fake profiles were popping up, watching my stories, even messaging me - and through some careless mistakes of his, I recognized them as my TF. He was stalking me.

When I finally conceded and left that school, I decided to go to the next best option: my TF’s school. When I got in, I unblocked him and messaged him. I even followed him again. He replied warmly, but then he ghosted again. He didn’t follow me back. Still, I decided: he’ll be my teacher and I don’t want any funny business. I’ll keep things friendly and professional. Sure, maybe someday we could be something - friends at least. But for now, he would be my teacher (if only for one evening class a week).

I didn’t tell him when I arrived in his city in the autumn of 2022. I didn’t contact him at all. There was a welcome party at school and that was the first time I saw him in a year and a half. He came up to me, palpably nervous. I could feel the anxiety wafting off of him. I was AMAZINGLY cool - you would not believe how damn SUAVE and confident and COOL I was considering how I felt about him! He said life was hard, I agreed, he asked where I lived, and he told me he hung out at a bar near my place where he got free drinks. We chatted for all of five minutes. The moment he left (he said he was looking for a colleague but I never saw him again, so I suspect he ran away home to calm down), the drunk girl beside me turned to me and said, “You two are SWOONT for each other.”

And I panicked. She worked in the school admin. I couldn’t have someone in admin thinking we were involved in some student-teacher affair. I was convinced I was going to accidentally get this guy fired. So the next time I saw him, I told him what she’d said. He brushed it off and walked away.

Cue the eavesdropping. He never approached me unless we were alone and when he did, he sat in a way where he could plausibly turn away. If I approached him and there were people around, he was extremely rude to me. He always sat facing my direction, watching me from afar - unless he could sit close enough to eavesdrop on me and my friends. So I tried messaging him online again - no luck. Left on read again. I visited a famous city nearby - which he had told me he’d never visited - and posted about it; the next weekend, he took his girlfriend there. His paintings, while of other models, had hints of me in them: my gestures, my hairstyles, my references. Always in perfect timing, right after I’d exhibited those things. The first time it happened in 2021, I suspected it. But returning in 2022, for the school year, it became a pattern.

But he also flirted with EVERYONE. He seemed to collect a fan club of student fangirls, even while he was engaged to his on/off girlfriend. He was especially good at picking out girls just insecure and vulnerable enough to fall for him. He did it to my friends. I realized I was one of many. He DISGUSTED me.

I blocked him. I unblocked him. I criticized his lack of professionalism during class.

I found that if I was out and wanted to see him, I could manifest an encounter. I did this four times before I decided never again. Because the last time I did it, I saw him with someone else.

No, not his on/off girlfriend. They broke up and the next night, I manifested a sighting of him. But he was with a girl - another student - obviously getting cosy. Within 24 hours, this sleazebag had rebounded with the first student who would spread her legs for him. I was disgusted. Again. What was that red flag I noticed in 2021? Oh yeah, his words: “I don’t do well alone.” This serial monogamist was so emotionally codependent he couldn’t stay single for five minutes.

I announced I was leaving the school. While I made the best friends of my life there, the school itself was a massive disappointment; I wanted to return to my previous one, where I’d at least get a quality education and much better connections. This one was a good experience and I’d improved tremendously, but now I felt I was finally ready for the more challenging school I’d left behind because (I’d felt) I wasn’t good enough. Now, finally - thanks to all the inner work I'd been doing - I finally felt I was good enough for my first choice of school.

Every time we were close to one another, he was catastrophically anxious. If I touched him casually on the elbow, he jumped and sat somewhere else. If I was talking to someone beside him, he’d freeze and I’d start to feel HIS anxiety. Once he made the slightest gesture of kindness toward me, and someone commented on how out of character it was for him to be a gentleman to anyone. And I remembered a time when someone had made me feel and react that way: someone I was obsessively and spiritually in love with. Yes, I recognized the symptoms in my TF. But unlike me, he didn't have the courage to make a move.

I hated him. I loved him. I hated him. I couldn’t stop thinking about him. I hated him.

I stopped thinking about him.

He followed me again.

I insulted him.

Publicly. He had posted a painting, yet another of his same old subject, and I made a comment that cut right to the core of his transparent psychological issues. He didn’t respond. Then he deleted the comment. Then he deleted the entire post. His girlfriend hated me (but she had always hated me, even before they started dating - an insecure, passive aggressive, classic high school mean girl).

He still watched all my stories, obsessively. I messaged him to say not to care what others think of him. I blocked him again.

We didn't see each other all summer. Then, suddenly, we saw each other a few times in a week. He continued to eavesdrop. He continued trying to get my attention in his annoying subtle ways. I even caught him hanging around my neighborhood, as if waiting to see me. I blocked enough of his fake accounts that now, I think, he can’t make any more that can see my page.

I’ll be leaving his country in two weeks. I don’t mind if I see him again or not. I don’t mind if I hear from him again.

Because here’s what sometimes happens (not just in this case but in others I’ve researched) : you meet your TF and they trigger your awakening. You ascend… but they don’t. If anything, they descend. They get worse. Sometimes, due to the polarity, this happens: you polarize even more. You ascend so far they can no longer reach you.

Maybe it’s just for a little while, until they wake up. Maybe they still have some karma to work out. But you can’t wait around for them. I can’t. Or at least, I won’t - I refuse to let anyone hold me back from my dharma. Not even my TF.

So I did the work. The first year and a half, when I didn’t see him? Psychological work: shadow integration, attachment style, all the 3D stuff. At some point, the dreams stopped - I used to dream of him constantly and at some point they just stopped. In other words, I stopped needing him psychologically, unconsciously. I'd integrated my shadow and brought enough of my unconscious (at least, the part that was him) into the light. I worked at “becoming him”, and I’m still working on it, but I don’t have much more to go now.

The past year: the 5D work. Daily meditation. Feeling oneness more and more. I don’t need to see him - because I feel him. I feel wholeness, unity, oneness, love, joy, gratitude, even that ineffable sense of peace I had after that first meeting. Yesterday I felt it so strongly I felt high, and that high stayed with me all day. I’ve started seeing synchronicities again, pulling 2 of Cups constantly - a card I always thought of as “his”. No, ***** - it’s mine!

Will I see or hear from him again? Who knows. All esoteric tools point to the end of February. One dream, long ago, indicated reunion around the three-year anniversary of meeting. But if I don’t? That’s okay. I look forward to not thinking about him anymore. I look forward to living my dreams. Because I’m not just over him - I no longer have the chronic romantic fantasies that I once used to escape and survive. I’ve finally fallen in love - with my Self. With my life. With god.

And I’m happier than I’ve ever been.

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Books and resources that have helped me:

Briana MacWilliam on YouTube - her videos and online workshops on attachment styles helped me tremendously.
New World Allstar on YouTube - his twin flame coaching helped me in the early stages.
Reigniting Women on YouTube - her twin flame experience and debunking helped me get out of the “twin flame-itis” that keeps you attached to your TF instead of doing the inner work.
Abraham Hicks on YouTube - starting my mornings with her short segments for awhile helped me rewire my thoughts.

The Power of Now by Eckhart Tolle - I listened to it multiple times.
A New Earth by Eckhart Tolle - I listened to it multiple times.
The Seat of the Soul by Gary Zukov - his own TF journey is revealing.
Becoming Supernatural by Dr. Joe Dispenza and his meditations on YouTube.
The Bhagavad Gita, which I reread most years.

DO NOT get hooked on tarot readings, especially on YouTube. Your mind will do anything to stay addicted. BREAK THE ADDICTION TO YOUR TWIN. Not only is it unhealthy for you; it pushes them away anyway.

Commit every day to getting out of the obsessive thinking and into your soul and you will reap the rewards. I seriously cannot believe how lucky I am and how magnificently my life has transformed thanks to this work - the work my twin flame catalyzed. THAT is the point of a twin flame - regardless of what form your 3D connection takes. It’s all a journey back to YOU, because YOUR TF IS YOU.

Hope this helps.

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i met my twins souls when i was 36 and 51 one in real life. i have 5 twin souls and i wanted to meet my soulmate when i was 17 but its more than than i wanted to meet my twin soul but i didnt know i have 5 twin souls. im playing soulmate game with my twin souls.

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Sashav, what an incredible story. I find many parallels from yours to what I consider to be my twin flame journey. In the middle of it now, but I’ve let him go completely. I understand that it’s all about the journey to the Self, and I’m happy regardless.

That is, of course, after my life completely fell apart, too. And he was the catalyst for it. Deep depression, severe health issues, eviction, job loss, every possession I owned stolen. It’s been a wild year and a half. But I’m coming out of it, closer to God.

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