posted September 04, 2011 02:14 PM            

sending you my compassion and good (hopefully healing) vibes.

posted September 04, 2011 07:14 PM            

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Originally posted by Ceridwen:
Lexx,

sending you my compassion and good (hopefully healing) vibes.

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posted September 04, 2011 08:08 PM            

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Originally posted by Ceridwen:
Ami,

in this case I think it`s the "biggies" like Tr NN through 12th house, or Tr Pluto conjunct her NN.
I also notice that Tr Jupiter opposes Sun, with Jupiter ruling 12th house and Sun ruling 8th house. The mystique of death.
Also possible recall of past life deaths.

But even Jupiter is comparatively quick in transits (not as Sun to Mars though); just in this instance it just has turned retrograde and may do some going back and forth over the opposition to her 8th house ruler.

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Originally posted by Ceridwen:

Lexx,

it`s absolutely amazing and deep what you`ve experienced. And yes, I understand with all that deep and traumatizing experiences, how it all comes to the surface, maybe triggered by recent deaths, and it is now that your psyche tries to deal with it, understand, know and incorporate it to deepen your life even more.

Also, I mentioned that Tr Jupiter opposes your natal Sun (which is in Scorpio, the sign of death and rebirth!).

There is even more hints to the importance of the death-and-life and reincarnation-theme in your chart.
I just want to point out that ANUBIS is exactly conjunct your ASC on 00 Cap (the Aries-point) and opposing Vesta on the DESC (also on Aries-point).

Anubis is the Egyptian God, who led the mortals into the land of the dead and then back again into the land of the living (for a new incarnation).
It could mean that you have psychic antennas for (communicating or even guiding) the dead, at least an awareness of them. What you told about your uncle, is absolutely what this conjunction could be about.
With Vesta tied to it, there is a sacred, dedicated energy accompanied with it. The Aries-point gives it even more energy, makes it more visible and urgent somehow.

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Originally posted by Ceridwen:
Another thing I noticed (though more in composites) is Anubis` association with the astral realm, astral travel and communication especially.

Transit Anubis right now is squaring both your natal Sun in Scorpio and Tr Jupiter.
Additionally Tr Anubis is almost opposite (or has been in the recent past) Tr Vesta, thus repeating the opposition you already have in natal, just this time squaring your natal Sun in Scorpio, which rules the Scorpio house (8th house) and is closely conjunct your chartruler Saturn.
I think it would bring issues revolving around death, transformation, the astral, mystical/occult experiences and maybe even issues surrounding sexual intimacy to the forefront. With your chartruler and Sun being "hit", it is affecting you on a very personal level.

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Originally posted by Ceridwen:
Adding to that you have a Venus-Pluto-square natally with Venus in Scorpio (though this Plutonic theme is more tied to love I think, romance, erotic pleasure, as Venus rules your 5th house - actually I have the same Venus-Pluto-square with rulerships in my chart, only in my case Pluto and Venus are in different houses. - anyway Pluto is also in his own house in your chart, the 8th, and right now Tr Neptune had been opposing it from the 2nd house.
I wonder how that manifested? Did some kind of "substance" (maybe even physical) kind of dissolve or something that gave you a feeling of security disappeared from your life?

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Originally posted by Ceridwen:

Of course Neptune also squares your Venus, so maybe it simply indicates the dissolving of a romantic relationship.

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Originally posted by Ceridwen:

At the same time Tr Neptune trines your 12th house ruler Jupiter and 2nd house ruler Uranus in 7th house - so I guess in the long haul your spirituality and personal value system might even gain from all these experiences.

All these hardships - do you feel like they strengthen your faith and spiritual orientation and skills?
Like your perception of events, people, the whole world goes much deeper, because of that "different" perspective you have (different than many other people)?

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Thank you for the chart reading.

posted September 05, 2011 02:17 PM            

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Originally posted by abcd efg:
LEXX, where art though?

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posted September 06, 2011 05:49 AM            

Others have already mentioned that Pluto is currently transiting your north node. I actually have this too as my node is only 1 degree away from yours. The north node is the overall "where we are going in this lifetime".

In capricorn it's about using what you've got, bringing all talents and abilities to the fore so that the "public" may benefit from them.

Because Pluto is currently on this spot it's job is to remove anything and everything that is blocking your life progress. I've certainly been experiencing this myself. It sounds so simple when written down but back on planet reality there will be people leaving and that means grief to contend with. I know you've had actual bereavements and for others it could mean friendships/relationships ending.

Clearing the way for the future....sounds great - but like clearing any overgrown path it can be back breaking work.

That particular part of your chart will be active until november 2012.

Saturn is also doing a slow climb to your mc, this will also be over and done with before the end of next year and can signify some real achievements in the outside world. The stuff that you've been working towards for the last few years could see good results but it can also be an increase in responsibility towards the "outside" world. That will happen in december of this year and again april + september of 2012. It will also conjunct your neptune which can sometimes make you feel a bit discouraged or disillusioned. Saturn represents structure and form whereas neptune is anti structure and anti form so there will be an internal struggle that occurs during these times that I just mentioned. The 1st hit in december is likely to be the worst as it'll highlight the struggle. I'm only mentioning it so you can keep it in mind in case your moods start to fluctuate around those times...some people will get a little down during that particular transit but especially when it occurs after the age of 30, mainly because we tend to become more saturn than neptune and lose our dreams and visions. Saturn poking around in there can make us more aware of how close (or not) we are to those dreams and saturn tells us to accept realities and move on or at least try to make dreams more like reality.

I didn't explain that very well, saturn asks that we do something to make our dreams a reality or stop dreaming. And I'm obviously not talking about the particular dreams you've been having lately. The dreams that will be highlighted for you will be the ones connected to your career and because pluto is clearing the way for your north node - this all seems pretty symbolic as to "where do you want to be in life"?

You've also had pluto crossing your ascendant a few years ago (early2008) which is still recent enough to be connected to this transformation that is occurring now. Pluto - the old planet of rebirth- is never pleasant despite how strong it makes you, as you know yourself birthing is unpleasant and frequently painful so any pluto transits are going to mimic delivery in some way. It's a process, conception, birth, think of labour pains and the joy at the end result. All labours are different, some are quicker than others and some are difficult. Pluto is nearly sextiling your scorpio sun which tells me that with a little bit of effort, you should be okay with the process itself. The good news is, pluto isn't forming any squares or oppositions to your natal planets which would increase difficulty.

Mars will hit your uranus around the middle of this month and may make you a little impulsive or because it's in your 7th house - it could manifest as others being impatient towards you. It only lasts a few short days though.

If you need me to clarify anything please just ask. I can see why you're not feeling fantastic, saturn and pluto transits are never much fun, I had some big hits from both last year and the year before...very heavy, too introverted, couldn't get away from myself and my god was I hard on myself.

Just a quick mention on that north node in capricorn - I have read that it frequently indicates that you've switched genders in recent lifetimes....if you're into past lives etc. Think it was a book by Martin Schulman that I read that. The chart example he gave was (please excuse spelling) Christine Jorgenson one of the 1st gender op people.

posted September 06, 2011 06:02 AM            

Transiting mars just happens to be right on your natal pluto - you see pluto again! which means themes activated around 8th house/pluto issues such as death/rebirth....which you have going on elsewhere in your chart too with the north node thing.

This mars (in the 10th house of career in the solar return) is also just within orb of being conjunct to the mc so I do think something could be happening on the career front. I know you're disabled but are you planning on writing or anything? Or maybe something else, I don't know but there's suggestions of becoming more known for what you do.

Interestingly in your solar return, the sun in scorpio sits right on your ascendant (which pluto crossed only a couple of years ago) and this means that the rebirth is strongly connected to the "face" you present to the world. People will see that you're changed but also it could mean that a huge chunk of what you've been going through for the last couple of years will be integrated into your personality making you feel happier to be you. Scorpio is ultimately about healing and you could see the results this next year even if you are feeling kicked by the cosmos.

Another interesting thing is that your solar return chart has the moon in aquarius which is where it was in your natal chart. I had this in mine this year too and it doesn't happen all that often. That means that emotionally, you should be able to feel comfortable with yourself and the emotional situations that arise will be dealt with easily.

Jupiter is in the 6th house so watch your diet because you could be tempted more than usual to eat rich foods but on the positive side it's an excellent omen for work or study suggesting growth in both areas.

Mercury sits alongside venus in the 1st house and I'd say that you may be much more communicative during the next year and because they are both in sagittarius, I imagine you'll be more open than normal. It also suggests dealing with people from other cultures..which I know you do here but there should be more of it. It suggests mind expansion.

posted September 06, 2011 06:10 AM            

Your progressed sun is at 8 degrees capricorn which is very close to that north node of yours which is being brought up repeatedly. Mercury is also close by at 11 degrees.

Symbolically speaking - I think a lot of this is pointing towards you accepting that you are more than useful as a member of society. I think "others out there" are going to be more accepting of you also but I think this is a two way street. Integration is a definite keyword, so is acceptance, emergence and validation.

posted September 06, 2011 06:52 AM            

My sun is also at 25 degrees leo which is almost exactly on your pluto, with a bit of luck I just shined a light and you just helped me to dig a little deeper into my own soul.

I don't need paying back because I already got something from being able to open my heart for you.

posted September 06, 2011 10:26 AM            

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I don't need any repayment. Overall, we have an almost identical destination this time around, wherever that may be. I just took a few steps along the path with you

My sun is also at 25 degrees leo which is almost exactly on your pluto, with a bit of luck I just shined a light and you just helped me to dig a little deeper into my own soul.

I don't need paying back because I already got something from being able to open my heart for you.

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posted September 07, 2011 09:28 AM            

But if it is a mini stroke, you SHOULD go to ER.
there must be something they can do for you.

posted September 07, 2011 09:34 AM            

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Originally posted by Ceridwen:
Oh, my, I so wished you would be feeling better by now, and now this.

But if it is a mini stroke, you SHOULD go to ER.
there must be something they can do for you.

thank you for the detailed feedback btw. I just couldn`t write earlier because of my work-amount and because I lost my other laptop. *sighs*

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