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LEXX
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posted September 03, 2011 07:48 PM     Click Here to See the Profile for LEXX     Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote
Why do I keep dreaming that I am dying?
Why do I keep dreaming of being dead?
I die several times a day/night in my dreams.
Oddly I am not feeling suicidal.
Birth info if anyone needs it for a chart,
transits or whatever.
November 3rd. 1954
11:02AM
Titusville, Pennsylvania
United States Of America

If anyone can take a look
my sincere thanks!

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posted September 03, 2011 07:51 PM     Click Here to See the Profile for Ami Anne     Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote
Did this just start happening? When?

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posted September 03, 2011 08:01 PM     Click Here to See the Profile for LEXX     Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote
It has been going on and off since last year.
But the past month has become worse.

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posted September 03, 2011 10:10 PM     Click Here to See the Profile for mochai     Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote
You're going through a lot of changes..

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posted September 03, 2011 10:27 PM     Click Here to See the Profile for LEXX     Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote
quote:
Originally posted by mochai:
You're going through a lot of changes..
So very true.
This past year and a half up til now has been accelerating and I am often overwhelmed.
Isn't it interesting how even good things can add to the stress caused by the bad things?

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posted September 03, 2011 10:30 PM     Click Here to See the Profile for mochai     Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote
Yeah.. tell me about it . With bipolar disorder, positive things caused my soulmate to go manic or depressed, but he's very messed up.


Err anyway.. to make it easier for the real astrologer..

I also uploaded her data in case anyone wants to play with it. http://www.astro .com/cgi/chart.cgi?cid=s8mfile5GB8yK-u1315104086〈=e&gm=a1&nhor=1&nho2=1&btyp=2&mth=gw&sday=4&smon=9&syr=2011&hsy=-1&zod=&orbp=&rs=0&ast=

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posted September 04, 2011 08:09 AM     Click Here to See the Profile for Ami Anne     Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote
Lexx
I was thinking about this last night. Tell me the tone of the dreams.

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posted September 04, 2011 09:55 AM     Click Here to See the Profile for abcd efg     Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote
How is your life line LEXX? It seems if we see someone die in our dream then that person actually lives long. Unless it is an indicative dream. Lets see what our resident astrologers have to say.

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posted September 04, 2011 10:36 AM     Click Here to See the Profile for Ceridwen     Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote
Tr Pluto is on your NN.

When Pluto was transiting my Sun I was having that fixed idea I could die any moment (which actually made me enjoy my life a lot more than before).

Also from that Pluto transit as well as from what I gather from your posts you are undergoing a TOTAL transformation, and a part of you (the past, or parts of the past) has to and are dying in the process. But that is the only possibility to be born again into your life.

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posted September 04, 2011 11:26 AM     Click Here to See the Profile for LEXX     Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote
quote:
Originally posted by Ami Anne:
Lexx
I was thinking about this last night. Tell me the tone of the dreams.


I am not scared.
Often calmly, though not happy about dying.
Feels past lives often which I know you do not believe in.
I think, as dying from illness, injury, attack, accidents, that,
"here I go again"
A kind of resigned sadness comes as I leave my body.....then I wake up or proceed to the next dying dream.
Sometimes I am male, sometimes female.
Sometimes child, any age, and well any age betwixt baby and very very old.
Also English is not always the language, nor my race.
The one common theme seems to be that I am sooooo very tired or exhausted. I sometimes think such things as "the needs of the many outweigh the needs of the one", or a sadness that the disposal of my dead body will be a burden to someone.
I feel caught up by fate, like there is nothing I can do but ride it all out each time and then die.
I never see myself but feel, and after I leave my body, I can see my corpse, but then wham, I wake up or proceed to the next dying.
I never get what I desire, never have a happy ever after. Just when such happiness is with my grasp, I die or am killed.
I just live doing best I can and then die feeling resigned because I feel I was not done with that chapter and feel there was so much more to do.


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posted September 04, 2011 11:32 AM     Click Here to See the Profile for LEXX     Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote
quote:
Originally posted by abcd efg:
How is your life line LEXX? It seems if we see someone die in our dream then that person actually lives long. Unless it is an indicative dream. Lets see what our resident astrologers have to say.
My life lines are long, very long.
I also have faint second life lines and all life lines are attached to strong fate lines.
I seem to have faint extra heart lines below the main heart lines.
Both head and heart lines are connected by a bridge line.
Overall my hands change often, with new lines
appearing and joining the others in a while.
Stars come and go and return.

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posted September 04, 2011 11:36 AM     Click Here to See the Profile for LEXX     Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote
quote:
Originally posted by mochai:
You're going through a lot of changes..
quote:
Originally posted by LEXX:
So very true.
This past year and a half up til now has been accelerating and I am often overwhelmed.
Isn't it interesting how even good things can add to the stress caused by the bad things?

quote:
Originally posted by mochai:
Yeah.. tell me about it . With bipolar disorder, positive things caused my soulmate to go manic or depressed, but he's very messed up.


Err anyway.. to make it easier for the real astrologer..

I also uploaded her data in case anyone wants to play with it. http://www.astro .com/cgi/chart.cgi?cid=s8mfile5GB8yK-u1315104086〈=e&gm=a1&nhor=1&nho2=1&btyp=2&mth=gw&sday=4&smon=9&syr=2011&hsy=-1&zod=&orbp=&rs=0&ast=



Thank you mochai
I am not bi-polar but deal with a few persons who are. And live with one.

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posted September 04, 2011 11:42 AM     Click Here to See the Profile for LEXX     Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote
quote:
Originally posted by Ceridwen:
Tr Pluto is on your NN.

When Pluto was transiting my Sun I was having that fixed idea I could die any moment (which actually made me enjoy my life a lot more than before).

Also from that Pluto transit as well as from what I gather from your posts you are undergoing a TOTAL transformation, and a part of you (the past, or parts of the past) has to and are dying in the process. But that is the only possibility to be born again into your life.


Yes.
Also being disabled and in pain or agony too often interferes with my life and what I want and need to do.
Add in the financial hardships and I just feel so lost, so exhausted, so resigned.
However I keep trying, I keep going, for others, but it takes every erg of will to do so.


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posted September 04, 2011 11:55 AM     Click Here to See the Profile for fireopal     Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote
All those planets in Scorpio and Pluto in 8th house -- seems natural to me that death and great awareness of it would be with you.

It's incredibly powerful to have this - and knowing death you can discover life

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posted September 04, 2011 12:19 PM     Click Here to See the Profile for LEXX     Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote
quote:
Originally posted by fireopal:
All those planets in Scorpio and Pluto in 8th house -- seems natural to me that death and great awareness of it would be with you.

It's incredibly powerful to have this - and knowing death you can discover life


Yes, I study the entire process of dying and death and the events leading back to incarnating. I have been on death watches.
I have personally flat lined.
NDEs and OBEs are both things I am personal familiar with all my life to date.
I have had 26+ pregnancies and lost all but one.
I knew when there was "someone home" in around the 12th. week when the soul moves into the foetus during the quickening which takes place when the foetal body has begun to generate its own auric field independent of the mother.
I felt the soul(s) when they left the body betwixt 12 to 20 weeks when each of their bodies died.
When I was about 4 years old my great uncle was dying at home.
The adults were all sitting around him crying and telling him to hold on.
He had terminal cancer.
I hid behind the draperies, I was young but felt anger at the adults being so selfish as he writhed and moaned and cried out in pain.
The adults did not notice me as I stepped out from the heavy drapery and whispered,
"go uncle, and you won't hurt anymore"
as I pointed at him.
He opened his eyes and looked straight at me,
and made like a weird smile/smirk and then closed his eyes and made a weird sound and died.
I made a loud sigh and the adults saw me there still pointing and thought I'd been traumatized and was in shock.
I got all kinds of hugs and attention and fed goodies.
It was after that I felt intense curiosity about it all.
Also I was not expected to live past 8 years or so due to health issues.


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posted September 04, 2011 12:41 PM     Click Here to See the Profile for fireopal     Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote
Absolutely amazing Lexx - I've got a feeling you are being called to help in this area, you know this realm profoundly and will be able to reach with others much further than many. Part of the task for you is in accepting it and then knowing how to move with it and find the channel to express it.

These are a couple of things I've looked into which may be of assistance to you. Michael Newton life between Lives and also there is the area of helping people who are dying and in the process of transitting...Death Midwifery or Soul Midwifery and also known as thanadoulas. You may have already explored this area though with having such insight here.

With the great strength you carry, even though you know the weight of it, it's also true that you will experience the great lightness of it too.

Thank you for sharing very intimate and deep experiences which you have travelled - I wish you all the assistance you need and much love and protection.

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posted September 04, 2011 12:47 PM     Click Here to See the Profile for Ami Anne     Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote
The most prominent thing that sticks out to me s the NN transiting the 12th house.
Your path is to explore all things mystical.Death is the most mystical thing there is cuz it is the entryway in to the next dimension.
Are you afraid to die,Lexx?


What does anyone else think about NN transiting the 12th?

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posted September 04, 2011 12:56 PM     Click Here to See the Profile for Ami Anne     Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote
I am not good with transits. She has T Mars conj Uranus. What does that mean?

T Pluto conj her natal NN.

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posted September 04, 2011 01:07 PM     Click Here to See the Profile for LEXX     Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote
quote:
Originally posted by fireopal:
Absolutely amazing Lexx - I've got a feeling you are being called to help in this area, you know this realm profoundly and will be able to reach with others much further than many. Part of the task for you is in accepting it and then knowing how to move with it and find the channel to express it.
Oh yes! I know this has been and is one of my main callings. So much I do and have discovered but it is not the right time to share it all yet.
I have a huge manuscript and notes and case studies I and others both incarnate and discarnate have contributed to and who continue to do so.

quote:
Originally posted by fireopal:
These are a couple of things I've looked into which may be of assistance to you. Michael Newton life between Lives and also there is the area of helping people who are dying and in the process of transitting...Death Midwifery or Soul Midwifery and also known as thanadoulas. You may have already explored this area though with having such insight here.

I have read Micheal Newton's book long ago.
The other I have not. Oh yes, that is one thing I (we) have done, is helping the dying have peaceful transitions:
People too often selfishly hold the dying person and refuse to let them go, which is so important to let go especially after death of the body. It is the ultimate unkindness to expect and try to keep around, the soul of the one who has left their body.

quote:
Originally posted by fireopal:

With the great strength you carry, even though you know the weight of it, it's also true that you will experience the great lightness of it too.

Thank you for sharing very intimate and deep experiences which you have travelled - I wish you all the assistance you need and much love and protection.



Thank you.{{{hugs}}}
It does however leave me often feeling I only live 1/2 my time in the world of the incarnates.

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posted September 04, 2011 01:11 PM     Click Here to See the Profile for LEXX     Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote
quote:
Originally posted by Ami Anne:
The most prominent thing that sticks out to me s the NN transiting the 12th house.
Your path is to explore all things mystical.Death is the most mystical thing there is cuz it is the entryway in to the next dimension.
Are you afraid to die,Lexx?


What does anyone else think about NN transiting the 12th?


That does fit.
No, I am not afraid to die.
However it does anger and frustrate me due to the amnesia of past lives and the need to start completely over each time as a child under the control of others until one grows up.
The past lives' amnesia is what I do not like.
I also resent the burden put on others to deal with disposal of the body each time.
And resent being "taken out" when I still have much to do.

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posted September 04, 2011 01:14 PM     Click Here to See the Profile for LEXX     Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote
quote:
Originally posted by Ami Anne:
I am not good with transits. She has T Mars conj Uranus. What does that mean?

T Pluto conj her natal NN.

I need the Ace Astrologers. I am just a student


I am also clueless as to what that means.

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posted September 04, 2011 01:26 PM     Click Here to See the Profile for Ceridwen     Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote
Ami,

in this case I think it`s the "biggies" like Tr NN through 12th house, or Tr Pluto conjunct her NN.
I also notice that Tr Jupiter opposes Sun, with Jupiter ruling 12th house and Sun ruling 8th house. The mystique of death.
Also possible recall of past life deaths.

But even Jupiter is comparatively quick in transits (not as Sun to Mars though); just in this instance it just has turned retrograde and may do some going back and forth over the opposition to her 8th house ruler.


Lexx,

it`s absolutely amazing and deep what you`ve experienced. And yes, I understand with all that deep and traumatizing experiences, how it all comes to the surface, maybe triggered by recent deaths, and it is now that your psyche tries to deal with it, understand, know and incorporate it to deepen your life even more.

Also, I mentioned that Tr Jupiter opposes your natal Sun (which is in Scorpio, the sign of death and rebirth!).


There is even more hints to the importance of the death-and-life and reincarnation-theme in your chart.
I just want to point out that ANUBIS is exactly conjunct your ASC on 00 Cap (the Aries-point) and opposing Vesta on the DESC (also on Aries-point).

Anubis is the Egyptian God, who led the mortals into the land of the dead and then back again into the land of the living (for a new incarnation).
It could mean that you have psychic antennas for (communicating or even guiding) the dead, at least an awareness of them. What you told about your uncle, is absolutely what this conjunction could be about.
With Vesta tied to it, there is a sacred, dedicated energy accompanied with it. The Aries-point gives it even more energy, makes it more visible and urgent somehow.

Another thing I noticed (though more in composites) is Anubis` association with the astral realm, astral travel and communication especially.

Transit Anubis right now is squaring both your natal Sun in Scorpio and Tr Jupiter.
Additionally Tr Anubis is almost opposite (or has been in the recent past) Tr Vesta, thus repeating the opposition you already have in natal, just this time squaring your natal Sun in Scorpio, which rules the Scorpio house (8th house) and is closely conjunct your chartruler Saturn.
I think it would bring issues revolving around death, transformation, the astral, mystical/occult experiences and maybe even issues surrounding sexual intimacy to the forefront. With your chartruler and Sun being "hit", it is affecting you on a very personal level.

Adding to that you have a Venus-Pluto-square natally with Venus in Scorpio (though this Plutonic theme is more tied to love I think, romance, erotic pleasure, as Venus rules your 5th house - actually I have the same Venus-Pluto-square with rulerships in my chart, only in my case Pluto and Venus are in different houses. - anyway Pluto is also in his own house in your chart, the 8th, and right now Tr Neptune had been opposing it from the 2nd house.
I wonder how that manifested? Did some kind of "substance" (maybe even physical) kind of dissolve or something that gave you a feeling of security disappeared from your life?
Of course Neptune also squares your Venus, so maybe it simply indicates the dissolving of a romantic relationship.

At the same time Tr Neptune trines your 12th house ruler Jupiter and 2nd house ruler Uranus in 7th house - so I guess in the long haul your spirituality and personal value system might even gain from all these experiences.

All these hardships - do you feel like they strengthen your faith and spiritual orientation and skills?
Like your perception of events, people, the whole world goes much deeper, because of that "different" perspective you have (different than many other people)?


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posted September 04, 2011 02:06 PM     Click Here to See the Profile for mochai     Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote
No, I know you're not bipolar lexx. Just showing an example.. sorry it came off that way. Good things are in a way a type of stress. I was trying to illustrate it with that example.

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posted September 04, 2011 02:07 PM     Click Here to See the Profile for LEXX     Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote
Ceridwen
Thank you.
I need to take a break but shall return asap.
My disabled body is giving me a hard time at the moment so I must attend to it.

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posted September 04, 2011 02:10 PM     Click Here to See the Profile for LEXX     Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote
quote:
Originally posted by mochai:
No, I know you're not bipolar lexx. Just showing an example.. sorry it came off that way. Good things are in a way a type of stress. I was trying to illustrate it with that example.
Oh my!
I know you did not mean it that way at all.{{{hugs}}}
And yes, you illustrated it well!
OK......
must take break and try to get past the spasms, pain, and nausea I am experiencing.


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