posted November 25, 2011 12:41 PM            

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I should add that I may be partly not being honest with him as I have not said much of anything while he was sick and waiting for a brighter day to talk. He too maybe has stressers he can't share.

My lifelong pattern in relationships is to shrink up and let go and not be heard and be miserable and full of regret. So by way of opposite my intuition says fight for this relationship. He's worth it. Reaching out is new for me in love. I've always waited for men to make every move... So how to detach without keeping my old patterns of shrinking away? How to proceed in a new light?

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posted November 25, 2011 01:39 PM            

1. As you are now

8 of Fire – Traveling

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The tiny figure moving on the path through this beautiful landscape is not concerned about the goal. He or she knows that the journey is the goal, the pilgrimage itself is the sacred place. Each step on the path is important in itself. When this card appears in a reading, it indicates a time of movement and change. It may be a physical movement from one place to the next, or an inner movement from one way of being to another. But whatever the case, this card promises that the going will be easy and will bring a sense of adventure and growth; there is no need to struggle or plan too much.
The Traveling card also reminds us to accept and embrace the new, just as when we travel to another country with a different culture and environment than the one we are accustomed to. This attitude of openness and acceptance invites new friends and experiences into our lives.

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2. As he is now

Major Arcana 0 - The Fool

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Moment to moment, and with every step, the Fool leaves the past behind. He carries nothing more than his purity, innocence and trust, symbolized by the white rose in his hand. The pattern on his waistcoat contains the colors of all four elements of the tarot, indicating that he is in harmony with all that surrounds him. His intuition is functioning at its peak. At this moment the Fool has the support of the universe to make this jump into the unknown. Adventures await him in the river of life.

The card indicates that if you trust your intuition right now, your feeling of the 'rightness' of things, you cannot go wrong. Your actions may appear 'foolish' to others, or even to yourself, if you try to analyze them with the rational mind. But the 'zero' place occupied by the Fool is the numberless number where trust and innocence are the guides, not skepticism and past experience.

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posted November 25, 2011 01:40 PM            

6 of Fire – Success

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This character is obviously "on top of the world" right now, and the whole world is celebrating his success with a ticker-tape parade! Because of your willingness to accept the recent challenges of life, you are now--or you soon will be--enjoying a wonderful ride on the tiger of success. Welcome it, enjoy it, and share your joy with others--and remember that all bright parades have a beginning and an end.
If you keep this in mind, and squeeze every drop of juice out of the happiness you are experiencing now, you will be able to take the future as it comes without regrets. But don't be tempted to try to hold on to this abundant moment, or coat it in plastic so that it lasts forever. The greatest wisdom to keep in mind with all the phenomena in the parade of your life, whether they be valleys or peaks, is that "this too will pass". Celebrate, yes, and keep on riding the tiger.

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4. What he thinks about you

Major Arcana XII - New Vision

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The figure on this card is being born anew, emerging from his earthbound roots and growing wings to fly into the unbounded. The geometric shapes around the body of the figure show the many dimensions of life simultaneously available to him. The square represents the physical, the manifest, the known. The circle represents the unmanifest, the spirit, pure space. And the triangle symbolizes the threefold nature of the universe: manifest, unmanifest, and the human being who contains both.
Now you are presented with an opportunity to see life in all its dimensions, from the depths to the heights. They exist together, and when we come to know from experience that the dark and the difficult are needed as much as the light and easy, then we begin to have a very different perspective on the world. By allowing all of life's colors to penetrate us, we become more integrated.

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posted November 25, 2011 01:40 PM            

Major Arcana II – Inner Voice

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The Inner Voice speaks not in words but in the wordless language of the heart. It is like an oracle who only speaks the truth. If it had a face, it would be like the face at the center of this card--alert, watchful, and able to accept both the dark and the light, symbolized by the two hands holding the crystal. The crystal itself represents the clarity that comes from transcending all dualities.
The Inner Voice can also be playful, as it dives deep into the emotions and emerges again to soar towards the sky, like two dolphins dancing in the waters of life. It is connected with the cosmos, through the crescent-moon crown, and the earth, as represented by the green leaves on the figure's kimono.

There are times in our lives when too many voices seem to be pulling us this way and that. Our very confusion in such situations is a reminder to seek silence and centering within. Only then are we able to hear our truth.

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6. What he reveals to you

Queen of Rainbows: Flowering

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The Queen of Rainbows is like a fantastic plant that has reached the apex of its flowering and its colors. She is very sexual, very alive, and full of possibilities. She snaps her fingers to the music of love, and her zodiac necklace is placed in a way that Venus lies over her heart. The sleeves of her garment contain an abundance of seeds, and as the wind blows the seeds will be scattered to take root where they may. She is not concerned whether they land on the soil or on the rocks--she is just spreading them everywhere in sheer celebration of life and love. Flowers fall on her from above, in harmony with her own flowering, and the waters of emotion swirl playfully beneath the flower on which she sits.
You might feel like a garden of flowers right now, showered with blessings from everywhere. Welcome the bees, invite the birds to drink your nectar. Spread your joy around for all to share.

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posted November 25, 2011 01:41 PM            

7 of Water - Projections

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The man and woman in this card are facing each other, yet they are not able to see each other clearly. Each is projecting an image they have constructed in their minds, covering the real face of the person they are looking at.

All of us can get caught up in projecting movies of our own making onto the situations and people surrounding us. It happens when we are not fully aware of our own expectations, desires and judgments; instead of taking responsibility for them and owning them, we try to attribute them to others. A projection can be devilish or divine, disturbing or comforting, but it is a projection nonetheless--a cloud that prevents us from seeing reality as it is. The only way out is to recognize the game. When you find a judgment arising about another, turn it around: Does what you see in others really belong to you? Is your vision clear, or clouded by what you want to see?

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8. Where is the relationship heading?

Major Arcana IX – Aloneness

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When there is no "significant other" in our lives we can either be lonely, or enjoy the freedom that solitude brings. When we find no support among others for our deeply felt truths, we can either feel isolated and bitter, or celebrate the fact that our vision is strong enough even to survive the powerful human need for the approval of family, friends or colleagues.

If you are facing such a situation now, be aware of how you are choosing to view your "aloneness" and take responsibility for the choice you have made.
The humble figure in this card glows with a light that emanates from within. One of Gautam Buddha's most significant contributions to the spiritual life of humankind was to insist to his disciples, "Be a light unto yourself." Ultimately, each of us must develop within ourselves the capacity to make our way through the darkness without any companions, maps or guide.

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posted November 25, 2011 01:51 PM            

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Originally posted by yuting:
Hi Hera,

I am wondering if I could change my question. I was asking about friendship with my ex-bf & his wife, instead of dwelling in my current relationship again. But with the advice from the reading you did for me, I took some action today: I wrote him a meaty email on how I feel about our relationship and what I am looking for and what his intentions are, in a less blunt way (as you suggested ).

So now, I'd like to ask instead where we are and where we are going from here (ie with that "we need to talk" msg that guys usually hate, but I think necessary in this case).

Is this OK with you?

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posted November 25, 2011 02:06 PM            

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You're next, Yuting. I don't know if I can do it tonight, if not... hopefully tomorrow.

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You are lovely! Always so ready to help and always with personal touch! You know, it is really nice to know you remember every one of us even when you are so busy and bombarded with requests

posted November 25, 2011 02:13 PM            

I wish for him contentment & happiness - and finally freedom from the complications he's been avoiding. And for me, I need a man who can express his love and/or show it sufficiently which he did all along up until about the time he got ill. That along with his sons birthday (more time with his ex) is when all went weird.

And I just bit my tongue and held my desires while he recovered. So I have not been myself and not been honest and so my fears grow and then the self fulfilling prophecy emerges. My gut is weary - and now in a full fledged "mess & test". Ugh! Time is fine, hope I can trust it will not just fade and we can talk and we can openly share the hurts and pains.

Hera, you have amazing energy. And I want to find my inner Xena Warrior princess. But just don't want to steel myself too much. He is a gorgeous inner being who often second guesses himself (like me) waits for someone else to make the move (like me) and loves with deep passion once he feels safe (like me). Obstinate maybe or perhaps crippled with fear. So how to be there for him when faced with such a speed bump?

Your reading opens my heart again and allows my energy to flow...here's to him finding his answer in me.

posted November 26, 2011 03:38 AM            

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You are lovely! Always so ready to help and always with personal touch! You know, it is really nice to know you remember every one of us even when you are so busy and bombarded with requests

Remember to be good to yourself too! Relax and have a good rest. Please do it only when you feel like it.

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posted November 26, 2011 03:43 AM            

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Hera,
A peace enters my heart, though I know a road of potholes needs to be navigated.

I wish for him contentment & happiness - and finally freedom from the complications he's been avoiding. And for me, I need a man who can express his love and/or show it sufficiently which he did all along up until about the time he got ill. That along with his sons birthday (more time with his ex) is when all went weird.

And I just bit my tongue and held my desires while he recovered. So I have not been myself and not been honest and so my fears grow and then the self fulfilling prophecy emerges. My gut is weary - and now in a full fledged "mess & test". Ugh! Time is fine, hope I can trust it will not just fade and we can talk and we can openly share the hurts and pains.

Hera, you have amazing energy. And I want to find my inner Xena Warrior princess. But just don't want to steel myself too much. He is a gorgeous inner being who often second guesses himself (like me) waits for someone else to make the move (like me) and loves with deep passion once he feels safe (like me). Obstinate maybe or perhaps crippled with fear. So how to be there for him when faced with such a speed bump?

Your reading opens my heart again and allows my energy to flow...here's to him finding his answer in me.

I like that I can love and share how beautiful you are & blessings you share. Thank you Hera. Keep us in your heart if you have a spare space ;-)

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posted November 26, 2011 04:51 AM            

1. Past history of the relationship

Major Arcana XVII – Silence

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The silent mirrorlike receptiveness of a star-filled night with a full moon is reflected in the misty lake below. The face in the sky is deep in meditation, a goddess of the night who brings depth, peace and understanding. Now is a very precious time. It will be easy for you to rest inside, to plumb the depths of your own inner silence to the point where it meets the silence of the universe.
There's nothing to do, nowhere to go, and the quality of your inner silence permeates everything you do. It might make some people uncomfortable, accustomed as they are to all the noise and activity of the world. Never mind; seek out those who can resonate with your silence, or enjoy your aloneness.

Now is the time to come home to yourself. The understanding and insights that come to you in these moments will be manifested later on, in a more outgoing phase of your life.
The energy of the whole has taken possession of you. You are possessed, you are no more, the whole is. This moment, as the silence penetrates in you, you can understand the significance of it, because it is the same silence that Gautam Buddha experienced. It is the same silence that Chuang Tzu or Bodhidharma or Nansen.... The taste of the silence is the same.
Time changes, the world goes on changing, but the experience of silence, the joy of it, remains the same. That is the only thing you can rely upon, the only thing that never dies. It is the only thing that you can call your very being.

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2. Your past experience in this relationship

Page of Fire – Playfulness

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The moment you start seeing life as non-serious, a playfulness, all the burden on your heart disappears. All the fear of death, of life, of love--everything disappears. One starts living with a very light weight or almost no weight. So weightless one becomes, one can fly in the open sky.
Zen's greatest contribution is to give you an alternative to the serious man. The serious man has made the world, the serious man has made all the religions. He has created all the philosophies, all the cultures, all the moralities; everything that exists around you is a creation of the serious man.
Zen has dropped out of the serious world. It has created a world of its own which is very playful, full of laughter, where even great masters behave like children.
Life is rarely as serious as we believe it to be, and when we recognize this fact, it responds by giving us more and more opportunities to play. The woman in this card is celebrating the joy of being alive, like a butterfly that has emerged from its chrysalis into the promise of the light. She reminds us of the time when we were children, discovering seashells on the beach or building castles in the sand without any concern that the waves might come and wash them away in the next moment. She knows that life is a game, and she's playing the part of a clown right now with no sense of embarrassment or pretense.

When the Page of Fire enters your life, it is a sign that you are ready for the fresh and the new. Something wonderful is just on the horizon, and you have just the right quality of playful innocence and clarity to welcome it with open arms.

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posted November 26, 2011 04:52 AM            

6 of Rainbows - Compromise

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In the courts of ancient Japan, the male attendants were often selected from the ranks of petty criminals who were castrated. Because of their intimate familiarity with the activities of the court, they were often at the center of the political and social intrigues and exercised a great deal of power behind the scenes.

The two figures on this card remind us of the sleazy and conspiratorial situations we can get into when we compromise our own truth. It is one thing to meet another halfway, to understand a point of view different from our own and work towards a harmony of the opposing forces. It is quite another to "cave in" and betray our own truth. If we look deeply into it, we usually find that we are trying to gain something--whether it is power or the approval of others. If you are tempted, beware: the rewards of this kind of compromise always leave a bitter taste in the mouth.

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4. Your current experience in this relationship

Major Arcana – The Master

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The Master in Zen is not a master over others, but a master of himself. His every gesture and his every word reflect his enlightened state. He has no private goals, no desire that anything should be other than the way it is. His disciples gather around him not to follow him, but to soak up his presence and be inspired by his example. In his eyes they find their own truth reflected, and in his silence they fall more easily into the silence of their own beings.
The master welcomes the disciples not because he wants to lead them, but because he has so much to share. Together, they create an energy field that supports each unique individual in finding his or her own light. If you can find such a master you are blessed. If you cannot, keep on searching. Learn from the teachers, and the would-be masters, and move on. Charaiveti, charaiveti, said Gautam Buddha. Keep on moving.

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posted November 26, 2011 04:52 AM            

Major Arcana XIII – Transformation

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The central figure in this card sits atop the vast flower of the void, and holds the symbols of transformation--the sword that cuts through illusion, the snake that rejuvenates itself by shedding its skin, the broken chain of limitations, and the yin/yang symbol of transcending duality. One of its hands rests on its lap, open and receptive. The other reaches down to touch the mouth of a sleeping face, symbolizing the silence that comes when we are at rest.

This is a time for a deep let-go. Allow any pain, sorrow, or difficulty just to be there, accepting its "facticity". It is very much like the experience of Gautam Buddha when, after years of seeking, he finally gave up knowing there was nothing more that he could do. That very night, he became enlightened. Transformation comes, like death, in its own time. And, like death, it takes you from one dimension into another.

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6. The relationship at present

3 of Water – Celebration

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These three women dancing in the wind and the rain remind us that celebration never need depend on outside circumstances. We need not wait for a special holiday or a formal occasion, nor a sunny and cloudless day. True celebration arises from a joy that is first experienced deep within, and spills over into an overflow of song and dance and laughter, and yes, even tears of gratitude.

When you choose this card, it indicates that you are becoming more and more available and open to the many opportunities that are to celebrate in life, and to spread this by contagion to others. Don't bother about scheduling a party on your calendar. Let your hair down, take your shoes off, and start splashing in the puddles right now. The party is happening all around you every moment!

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posted November 26, 2011 04:53 AM            

Ace of Rainbows – Maturity

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This figure stands alone, silent and yet alert. The inner being is filled with flowers--that carry the quality of springtime and regenerate wherever he goes. This inner flowering and the wholeness that he feels affords the possibility of unlimited movement. He can move in any direction--within and without it makes no difference as his joy and and maturity cannot be diminished by externals. He has come to a time of centeredness and expansiveness--the white glow around the figure is his protection and his light. All of life's experiences have brought him to this time of perfection.
When you draw this card, know well this moment carries a gift--for hard work well done. Your base is solid now and success and good fortune are yours for they are the outcome of what has already been experienced within.

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8. His future experience in this relationship

Major Arcana XII - New Vision

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The figure on this card is being born anew, emerging from his earthbound roots and growing wings to fly into the unbounded. The geometric shapes around the body of the figure show the many dimensions of life simultaneously available to him. The square represents the physical, the manifest, the known. The circle represents the unmanifest, the spirit, pure space. And the triangle symbolizes the threefold nature of the universe: manifest, unmanifest, and the human being who contains both.
Now you are presented with an opportunity to see life in all its dimensions, from the depths to the heights. They exist together, and when we come to know from experience that the dark and the difficult are needed as much as the light and easy, then we begin to have a very different perspective on the world. By allowing all of life's colors to penetrate us, we become more integrated.

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posted November 26, 2011 04:53 AM            

Major Arcana XIV - Integration

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The image of integration is the union mystica, the fusion of opposites. This is a time of communication between the previously experienced dualities of life. Rather than night opposing day, dark suppressing light, they work together to create a unified whole, turning endlessly one into the other, each containing in its deepest core the seed of the opposite.
The eagle and the swan are both beings of flight and majesty. The eagle is the embodiment of power and aloneness. The swan is the embodiment of space and purity, gently floating and diving upon and within the element of the emotions, entirely content and complete within her perfection and beauty. We are the union of eagle and swan: male and female, fire and water, life and death.

The card of integration is the symbol of self-creation, new life, and mystical union; otherwise known as alchemy.

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10. The outcome
Personally, this last position confuses me, because up until now all the cards arranged themselves in such a way that they tell a story, but with this last card, it seems you will not be out of the woods just yet.

4 of Clouds – Postponement

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The woman in this picture is living in a gray landscape, full of unreal, cut-out clouds. Through the window frame she can see colors and light and aliveness, and although she would like to move through the frame--as we can see by the rainbow colors appearing in her garment--she can't quite manage to do it. There is still too much 'what-if?' activity in her mind.

Tomorrow never comes, they say, but no matter how often it is said, it seems that most of us tend to forget the truth of it. In fact, the one and only result of postponing things is a dull and depressing feeling of incompletion and 'stuck-ness' today. The relief and expansiveness you will feel once you put aside all the dithering thoughts that are preventing you from acting now will make you wonder why you ever waited so long.

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posted November 26, 2011 05:03 AM            

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Originally posted by Venia:
Hi Hera!

I wonder if you could do a reading for me as well! Whenever possible, of course!

That's so generous of you

Is it possible to ask what can I expect for my coming SR? My Birthday is approaching and things still aren't easy!

Let me know if you want any more details... Thank you in advance!

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posted November 26, 2011 05:16 AM            

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Venia, it seems you're next in line! I don't know if there were any requests on the missing page from the old thread, so looking at the date when the requests were made, your turn is up next. I will try to do the reading today.

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posted November 26, 2011 05:19 AM            

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Originally posted by Venia:
Thank you so much, dear Hera! Can't wait!

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I found a birthday spread for you, it is the first time I'm doing one of those and I really hope it's going to be a positive one!

Oh, and HAPPY BIRTHDAY, dear Venia!!!!

posted November 26, 2011 06:32 AM            

1. Past influences – things that are ending/passing from your life

Major Arcana XIX – Innocence

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The old man in this card radiates a childlike delight in the world. There is a sense of grace surrounding him, as if he is at home with himself and with what life has brought. He seems to be having a playful communication with the praying mantis on his finger, as if the two of them are the greatest friends. The pink flowers cascading around him represent a time of letting go, relaxation and sweetness. They are a response to his presence, a reflection of his own qualities.
The innocence that comes from a deep experience of life is childlike, but not childish. The innocence of children is beautiful, but ignorant. It will be replaced by mistrust and doubt as the child grows and learns that the world can be a dangerous and threatening place. But the innocence of a life lived fully has a quality of wisdom and acceptance of the ever-changing wonder of life.

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2. Accomplishments from the past year that you need to reflect upon

6 of Fire – Success

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This character is obviously "on top of the world" right now, and the whole world is celebrating his success with a ticker-tape parade! Because of your willingness to accept the recent challenges of life, you are now--or you soon will be--enjoying a wonderful ride on the tiger of success. Welcome it, enjoy it, and share your joy with others--and remember that all bright parades have a beginning and an end.
If you keep this in mind, and squeeze every drop of juice out of the happiness you are experiencing now, you will be able to take the future as it comes without regrets. But don't be tempted to try to hold on to this abundant moment, or coat it in plastic so that it lasts forever. The greatest wisdom to keep in mind with all the phenomena in the parade of your life, whether they be valleys or peaks, is that "this too will pass". Celebrate, yes, and keep on riding the tiger.

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3. Issues, tasks or goals carried forward into the new year

Knight of Clouds – Fighting

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The figure in this card is completely covered in armor. Only his glare of rage is visible, and the whites of the knuckles on his clenched fists. If you look closely at the armor, you can see it's covered with buttons, ready to detonate if anybody so much as brushes up against them. In the background we see the shadowy movie that plays in this man's mind--two figures fighting for a castle. An explosive temper or a smoldering rage often masks a deep feeling of pain.

We think that if we frighten people away, we can avoid being hurt even more. In fact, just the opposite is the case. By covering our wounds with armor we are preventing them from being healed. By lashing out at others we keep ourselves from getting the love and nourishment we need. If this description seems to fit you, it's time to stop fighting. There is so much love available to you if you just let it in. Start by forgiving yourself: you're worth it.

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posted November 26, 2011 06:33 AM            

2 of Fire – Possibilities

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The eagle has an overview of all the possibilities contained in the landscape below, as he flies freely, naturally and effortlessly through the sky. He is really in his domain, very grand and self-contained.

This card indicates that you are at a point where a world of possibilities is open to you. Because you have grown more loving towards yourself, more self-contained, you can work easily with others. Because you are relaxed and at ease, you can recognize possibilities as they present themselves, sometimes even before others can see them. Because you are in tune with your own nature, you understand that existence is providing you with exactly what you need. Enjoy the flight! And celebrate all the varied wonders of the landscape spread before you.

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5. New influences coming into your life in the near future

6 of Rainbows - Compromise

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The two figures on this card remind us of the sleazy and conspiratorial situations we can get into when we compromise our own truth. It is one thing to meet another halfway, to understand a point of view different from our own and work towards a harmony of the opposing forces. It is quite another to "cave in" and betray our own truth. If we look deeply into it, we usually find that we are trying to gain something--whether it is power or the approval of others. If you are tempted, beware: the rewards of this kind of compromise always leave a bitter taste in the mouth.
Don't be clever, otherwise you will remain the same, you will not change. Half-techniques on the path of love and half-techniques on the path of meditation will create much confusion in you. They will not help....
But to ask for help is against the ego, so you try to compromise. This compromise will be more dangerous, it will confuse you more because, made out of confusion, it will create more confusion. So try to understand why you hanker for compromise. Sooner or later you will be able to understand that compromise is not going to help. And compromise may be a way of not going in either direction, or it may be just a repression of your confusion. It will assert itself.
Never repress anything, be clear-cut about your situation. And if you are confused, remember that you are confused. This will be the first clear-cut thing about you: that you are confused. You have started on the journey.

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6. Challenges you face
Knight of Water – Trust

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Now is the moment to be a bungee jumper without the cord! And it is this quality of absolute trust, with no reservations or secret safety nets, that the Knight of Water demands from us. There is a tremendous sense of exhilaration if we can take the jump and move into the unknown, even if the idea scares us to death. And when we take trust to the level of the quantum leap, we don't make any elaborate plans or preparations. We don't say, "Okay, I trust that I know what to do now, and I'll settle my things and pack my suitcase and take it with me." No, we just jump, with hardly a thought for what happens next. The leap is the thing, and the thrill of it as we free-fall through the empty sky. The card gives a hint here, though, about what waits for us at the other end--a soft, welcoming, yummy pink, rose petals, juicy...c'mon!
Don't waste your life for that which is going to be taken away. Trust life. If you trust, only then can you drop your knowledge, only then can you put your mind aside. And with trust, something immense opens up. Then this life is no longer ordinary life, it becomes full of God, overflowing.
When the heart is innocent and the walls have disappeared, you are bridged with infinity. And you are not deceived; there is nothing that can be taken away from you. That which can be taken away from you is not worth keeping, and that which cannot be taken away from you, why should one be afraid of its being taken away?--it cannot be taken away, there is no possibility. You cannot lose your real treasure.

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posted November 26, 2011 06:41 AM            

6 of Clouds – The Burden

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When we carry a load of shoulds and shouldn'ts imposed on us by others we become like this ragged, struggling figure trying to make his way uphill. "Go faster, try harder, reach the top!" shouts the foolish tyrant he carries on his shoulder, while the tyrant himself is crowned with an imperious rooster. If life these days feels like just a struggle from the cradle to the grave, it could be time to shrug your shoulders and see what it feels like to walk without these characters on your back.

You have your own mountains to conquer, your own dreams to fulfill, but you will never have the energy to pursue them until you release yourself from all the expectations you've gathered from others but now think are your own. Chances are they exist only in your own mind, but that doesn't mean they can't weigh you down. It's time to lighten up, and send them on their way.
A man's true life is the way in which he puts off the lie imposed by others on him. Stripped, naked, natural, he is what he is. This is a matter of being, and not of becoming. The lie cannot become the truth, the personality cannot become your soul. There is no way to make the nonessential the essential. The nonessential remains nonessential and the essential remains essential, they are not convertible. And striving towards truth is nothing but creating more confusion.
The truth has not to be achieved. It cannot be achieved, it is already the case. Only the lie has to be dropped. All aims and ends and ideals and goals and ideologies, religions and systems of improvement and betterment, are lies. Beware of them. Recognize the fact that, as you are, you are a lie. Manipulated, cultivated by others. Striving after truth is a distraction and a postponement. It is the lie's way to hide.
See the lie, look deep into the lie of your personality. Because to see the lie is to cease to lie. No longer to lie is to seek no more for any truth--there is no need. The moment the lie disappears, truth is there in all its beauty and radiance. In the seeing of the lie it disappears, and what is left is the truth.

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8. The overall focus/outlook of the coming year

Queen of Fire – Sharing

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The Queen of Fire is so rich, so much a queen, that she can afford to give. It doesn't even occur to her to take inventories or to put something aside for later. She dispenses her treasures without limits, welcoming all and sundry to partake of the abundance, fertility and light that surrounds her.
When you draw this card, it suggests that you too are in a situation where you have an opportunity to share your love, your joy and your laughter. And in sharing, you find that you feel even more full. There is no need to go anywhere or to make any special effort. You find that you can enjoy sensuality without possessiveness or attachment, can give birth to a child or to a new project with an equal sense of creativity fulfilled.

Everything around you seems to be "coming together" now. Enjoy it, ground yourself in it, and let the abundance in you and around you overflow.
As you move above to the fourth center--that is the heart--your whole life becomes a sharing of love. The third center has created the abundance of love. By reaching to the third center in meditation, you have become so overflowing with love, with compassion, and you want to share. It happens at the fourth center--the heart. That's why even in the ordinary world people think love comes out of the heart. For them it is just hearsay, they have heard it; they don't know it because they have never reached to their heart.
But the meditator finally reaches to the heart. As he has reached to the center of his being--the third center--suddenly an explosion of love and compassion and joy and blissfulness and benediction has arisen in him with such a force that it hits his heart and opens the heart. The heart is just in the middle of all your seven centers--three centers below, three centers above. You have come exactly to the middle.

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9. Your birthday gift – a blessing you will receive during the next year

2 of Rainbows – Moment to moment

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As this figure moves across the stones, he steps lightly and non-seriously, and at the same time absolutely balanced and alert. Behind the swirling, ever-changing waters we can see the shapes of buildings; there appears to be a city in the background. The man is in the marketplace but at the same time outside of it, maintaining his balance and able to watch it from above.

This card challenges us to move away from our preoccupations with other spaces and other times, and stay alert to what is happening in the here and now. Life is a great ocean in which you can play if you drop all your judgments, your preferences and the attachment to the details of your long-term plans. Be available to what comes your way, as it comes. And don't worry if you stumble or fall; just pick yourself up, dust yourself off, have a good laugh, and carry on.
The past is no more and the future is not yet: both are unnecessarily moving in directions which don't exist. One used to exist, but no longer exists, and one has not even started to exist.
The only right person is one who lives moment to moment, whose arrow is directed to the moment, who is always here and now; wherever he is, his whole consciousness, his whole being, is involved in the reality of here and in the reality of now. That's the only right direction. Only such a man can enter into the golden gate. The present is the golden gate. Here-now is the golden gate. ...
And you can be in the present only if you are not ambitious--no accomplishment, no desire to achieve power, money, prestige, even enlightenment, because all ambition leads you into the future.
Only a non-ambitious man can remain in the present. A man who wants to be in the present has not to think, has just to see and enter the gate. Experience will come, but experience has not to be premeditated.

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posted November 26, 2011 08:55 AM            

There were 100 posts when I left, now there are 95.

posted November 26, 2011 09:28 AM            

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Originally posted by Hera:
Oh no... posts are disappearing again!

There were 100 posts when I left, now there are 95.

I missed what you guys wrote.

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Maybe because of all the pics you have in your spread, there's capacity limitation to each thread. You might want to split a new thread again every time you go past 3 pages.

posted November 26, 2011 09:38 AM            

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Originally posted by Hera:
I'll try to do it today. Yesterday I was a bit drained, plus had some things to solve on my romantic life myself...
Hope to give you a good reading, Yuting! Have there been more developments with your story, since you sent the email?

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Hope things are smoothing out for you.

As for me, as expected, he did not reply to my msg. Sensing his confusion, doubt he knew what he wanted to say anyway. I followed the email with a separate sms (content related to his health, not the email) and he did respond to the sms that night...just maybe a tad cool. But next day he was extra warm in his sms. Anyway, seemed back to before email level now, after a couple of days. I guess I wont know if he has taken any step forward until next time I am back in time to see if he'd really ask me out during my stay and if he does, his behavior. So, still waiting game.

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READING FOR YUTING � RELATIONSHIP SPREAD
1. Past history of the relationship
Major Arcana XVII � Silence
This card is suggesting that in the past, even though there was an unspoken understanding of the importance of this relationship for both of you, things remained silent, still. Silence can be confusing, especially in relationships, where you need communication to know where the things stand with you two, but I think, despite the fact that things remained unsaid, you both knew you met someone special. Silence in this card means silent knowing. You were both a bit undemonstrative, but I think deep down you both knew this is going to be an important relationship for both of you.

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2. Your past experience in this relationship
Page of Fire � Playfulness
The woman in this card is celebrating the joy of being alive ¡­ She reminds us of the time when we were children, ... She knows that life is a game, and she's playing the part of a clown right now with no sense of embarrassment or pretense.
When the Page of Fire enters your life, it is a sign that you are ready for the fresh and the new. Something wonderful is just on the horizon, and you have just the right quality of playful innocence and clarity to welcome it with open arms.

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3. His past experience in the relationship
6 of Rainbows - Compromise
The two figures on this card remind us of the sleazy and conspiratorial situations we can get into when we compromise our own truth¡­ If we look deeply into it, we usually find that we are trying to gain something--whether it is power or the approval of others. If you are tempted, beware: the rewards of this kind of compromise always leave a bitter taste in the mouth.
For him, in the past¡­He was perhaps not very honest about his feelings, not very upfront with you. As the other reading indicated, there was some deceptiveness on his side, perhaps due to his indecisiveness and the confusing situation with his ex wife.

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