posted December 30, 2011 09:50 PM            

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posted December 30, 2011 09:51 PM            

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posted December 30, 2011 10:03 PM            

I have Chiron in the 11th and I have been bullied all my life, especially when in groups. Very painful emotional memories from this. It's like I have a target on my forehead. I got picked on all through school by big groups of kids. I have always been singled out. Right now at work, I'm being harassed by another employee. Verbally, sexually. I have just quit because of it. I think for me, it's a test of strength. I never stood up for myself before. I think that's why it happens so continuously. I am learning to have my confidence and grow a back bone (thanks to harsh Saturn transits, I think).

Other than that I am no help with asteroids. Gonna be taking off here pretty soon so I don't have a lot of time to go over your chart, really. But, I see there's a few oppositions to your Sun. I think confronting your bullies will help bring a lot of strength of self and character.

Anyway,
I have a lot of respect for you, being able to confront these people. I never did, I am just learning to with my current one. It takes a lot of guts to do that!

Hopefully someone more experienced will chime in!

posted December 30, 2011 10:06 PM            

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posted December 30, 2011 10:49 PM            

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Originally posted by Soothsayer:
HOW did I not see that? I didn't even notice that aspect. Good start, Ami. Okay I will leave ya too it.

Have a good night, ladies

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Well, come back when you want

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posted December 31, 2011 10:07 AM            

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posted December 31, 2011 10:08 AM            

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posted December 31, 2011 10:10 AM            

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posted December 31, 2011 10:14 AM            

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posted December 31, 2011 10:15 AM            

This asteroid is our basic, most primal energy called Kundalini energy. What it touches in our natal chart is important as our energy will be melded with it. In synastry, it gets even more complicated especially if your Kundalini energy touches someone’s dark asteroid(s) One can see abuse if someone’s Kaali conjuncts a persons Hekate, for example, as was the case in a child who was abused by her mother.

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posted December 31, 2011 10:16 AM            

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posted December 31, 2011 10:27 AM            

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posted December 31, 2011 03:56 PM            

My mother was abusive, but my father was the anti-thesis. He was rarely around, he'd come home from work very late. We'd eat dinner at 9 and go to bed by 1030. I still love him, but I often feel that life could have been better had he protected me more often... been there to tell my mom to stop, been stronger for me. He's my father, and isn't that what father's should do. I also feel a bit betrayed. He lied about finances which basically screwed me out of college. He gambled away a lot if not most of his savings when I was in high school. When I'd cry about my worries about money, he'd tell me that everything was going to be okay... when it definitely not going to be okay. For a long time, I was very resentful... I've gotten over it, though.

I think kids bullied because it was safe. I never raised my voice. I could never think of anything really aggressive or aggressive to say back. Couple that with lack of confidence.

When I was growing up, I was far more intrigued by books and writing. Unfortunately, I grew up in a town that puts more weight on reputation, ego, and athletics, all which I did not give a **** about. I had a lot of health problems as well, so the other kids looked at me like I was a weak, meek girl. I wasn't "popular" material.

What's unfortunate is that the people who got to know me, were just as "troubled" as I was - forgotten, harassed, and severed from the rest of our class. This almost always broods troublemakers, though I was much less difficult. I was just depressed, didn't have the drive to succeed, and I wasn't working to my potential. My friends involved me in a lot of mischief, though, which further injured my reputation. I felt very defeated at a very young age. I had very few teachers who knew my potential, or even cared about me. I felt very alone.

After all those years of abuse, I have learned to harness my inner strength. I believe that strength and confidence in oneself is a seed that is planted very young. I was confident and adventurous before I was thrown into the restrictive cage of societal expectations only found in the schools of today's America. My sapling was just never given the chance to grow, never nurtured.