posted June 13, 2012 12:46 AM            

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Originally posted by Junethird:
And how fast i move on with a guy really depends how much i like him but its rare... Its only happened twice. K & J lol

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posted June 13, 2012 12:47 AM            

Its too bad he changed his mind about me when i have never changed my mind about him

Its just funny how easily he can let go, detach. Its amazing to me.

posted June 13, 2012 12:49 AM            

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Originally posted by ShyVirgo1979:
Notice how K comes b4 J now lol interesting. And yea if I wasn't that into him I move on much quicker. Next! Haha

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Lol yes, but i met J first ... Working backwards i guess...

posted June 13, 2012 01:02 AM            

He's not MY mr venus in leo lol I'm not sure if he would marry again. He got burned pretty bad by his ex. I know he has libra asc and couple that with venus leo and I c a man who really desires some kind of partnership. I don't need astrology to tell me that. Right now I don't think he would b ready. But I bet one day he will.

posted June 13, 2012 01:17 AM            

3 spunds like a good number lol and its good to read that your kids well being comes first before any man.

O like to interpret dreams... I need various outlets when i get bored or bogged down in any given divination tool.

posted June 13, 2012 01:52 AM            

As an update to ur original reading on this thread (u can read this 2moro) id like to share some of my thoughts with u.

I don't quite feel like I'm in the same state of mind as I was a month ago. I'm still me, the true me, but things have shifted in my head. Concerning Wild Bill....ok here's the thing. Talking to my brother has done me more good than I thought. Our dad got physical with him too. I found this out. He got it worse than I did in fact. Our dad was the EXACT same way with him - wasn't really there for him growing up. So...

For yrs and I mean YRS I blamed myself for my father's actions towards me. All of his actions. I thought I must have been a disappointment for him on so many levels or he would have been there more, wouldn't have beat me, would have made more effort. I no longer think that. Not after what my brother has shared with me. It wasn't me june, it wasn't me. I don't just think it, I feel it. There isn't a damn thing wrong with me.

Right now, I still hate my father. But I hate him less than I did prior to ur reading. I haven't forgiven him yet, but I have a small feint glimmer of hope that one day I can.

I've been thinking on this quite a bit lately. No wonder I had blocked energy. I didn't have enuf info a few months ago to truly make an accurate assessment of all of it. Idk if u believe in reincarnation or not but I do. In my mind I chose him for a father. Or if u don't believe in all that then God chose him. But I chose this experience so I could learn from it. And I realize that Wild Bill has lessons of his own. He also chose to b born into this world with a predisposition for alcholism and anger issues. He's not done learning. Neither am I. I can get mad til the cows come home but that's not gonna change the past nor will it help me. Its empowering to realize all this. Knowledge is power

I have u to thank for some of this. When I hit 'reply' with my question about my dad, I prayed. I actually prayed out loud and said please God let someone give me answers, let me find someone who can help. He works in mysterious ways he really does lol that chip on my shoulder I had a month ago feels light right now. Its still there don't get me wrong but that heavy weight of it has lifted quite a bit. Of all the ppl who answered my desperate call for help that day, it was u. J has nooo friggen clue how lucky he was/is. U truly r a gem and no pun intended

posted June 13, 2012 10:19 AM            

Wow so many compliments

Yes, i agree J is one lucky man... Lucky that i truly love him despite him being the most infuriating man i have ever had the good fortune to meet for me its love. True love. I accept him as he is. Never wanted to change him, let alone try lol ok maybe the snoring... But other than that, altho i know nobody is perfect, he is perfect for me. I guess time will tell....

Iam so happy to read this morning, sans coffee i may add lol that you are finding your own inner peace about your father. That is truly a miracle, a blessing. Communication and knowledge always prevails.... And something about that happening this month with the planets lol...

Iam glad you found the BALLS to pick up the phone and call your brother.... It has brought you many new insights and answers that up to this moment i time, you didnt know you needed.... The answer turned out to be something drastically than you expected. It was never about you. Its was about him and his issues. Karma to put it nicely.

Find your self worth, find your power, find your inner essence. Mine is my little cancer moon (She will make unleash her power after she gets her coffee lol)

You have great qualities, never doubt them. You are patient. You are kind. You are helpful. You are sympathetic. You are funny. You are loving and warm.

But above else... You came into your own via your children not because of anyone else.

The qualities you exude here to me and on LL are of a warm kind loving mom. Its refreshing and heartfelt. Its true and its real.

In such a short time you have come along way.... Proud of you mama. Keep it up!!

posted June 13, 2012 12:01 PM            

Yeah I think ur right. U put that into the right words: the answer I was looking for was karma.

And I 200% agree that I found myself thru my kids. if something ever happened to any of them I seriously would need massive amts of therapy. No joke lol

And about J.....this will b interesting to me to c how the rest of this month plays out for u. Ur right about time tho. Sometimes it feels like its in slow motion and then other times I personally c that's its moved so fast and I'm wondering what I missed lol

posted June 13, 2012 02:11 PM            

The phone thing i can easily explain addicted to LL lol just like me lol i tried to log off by 1am, 2 at the latest... I used to saty on here until 3 /4 am lol

But in dream world....

You forgot something... Something in your recent past you overlooked something...a. Communication. An unresponded text, email, fb msg, call... Maybe you failed or forgot to check in with a friend...etc something.

Phone are communication so its related.

Maybe it has something to do with your lost usb... An old employer, A reference..etc.

The man...

Tricky... Iam still looking into it... But how do you feel when you see him?

Scared
Happy
Anxious
In loveee? Or in lust?
Sad?

Baldness to means bare, duh.... But baring of soul and mind...

So who was the last person you truly exposed your true self too? Mind and heart?

Your last bf?

Could this man possibley resemble one of your boys in adult form? Any resemblance?

posted June 13, 2012 03:22 PM            

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Originally posted by ShyVirgo1979:
Results for J:
Ruler of 1st in 12th
Ruler of 2nd in 12th
Ruler of 3rd in 12th
Ruler of 4th in 1st
Ruler of 5th in 2nd
Ruler of 6th in 10th
Ruler of 7th in 1st
Ruler of 8th in 12th
Ruler of 9th in 8th
Ruler of 10th in 11th
Ruler of 11th in 12th
Ruler of 12th in 1st

Yeah mine were hit and miss too. Placidus may change ur house rulers so using that may change the results just a bit. Id hafta pull up the chart myself on astro to c. But oh well I tried so there ya go. Hiya empress

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Yw June, cheer up! It's funny because I used to be obsessed about a certain Jason myself who acts just like yours, but mine is Pisces. He's the one I mention here, how we don't get along..etc...his name is Jason too and yours reminds me so much of him..Jasons are so weird :/..

And hello shyvirgo! How fun you learned the rulers, do u think u could do it for me or teach me how?

posted June 13, 2012 03:29 PM            

The last guy I opened my heart to was mr flirt. Aka chris. Chris is verrry yummy to me lol brown hair, lil bit of a goatee goin on. Looks nothing like my mystery man. Not even a resemblence. I opened up to chris around xmas time about how I wished I had a dad around xmas. The last time I actually saw him was right b4 new yrs. He asked me to come over that fri night but I'm independent butt had plans to go out and have a few drinks with mindy so I told him maybe later after I was done. And he hunted me down and joined us we were keeping in contact for a few months. Jan he did what J is doing to u and he pulled away a lil bit. Feb we were msging quite a bit. He knew I was goin to calling hrs for my friends mom and asked if I was ok. March I was supp to go c him and he blew me off and then gave me 2 different lame a*s excuses the next day. And I got really ****** . It was kinda my breaking point with him. I haven't opened up to a man since. He tried to make a comeback in april then may after venus went rx. But too late. I had my wall put up. I considered picking things up where we left off but I finally got him to admit to his true intentions and he told me he likes me but doesn't want to commit to anything. So I've refused to c him. Cuz he's dangerous to me lol I'm still to this day very attracted to him and its too easy for me to get sucked back in and he doesn't satisfy me emotionally and I'm now well aware of it. His venus falls in my 8th house. Maybe that's y? In our composite, we have venus conjunct pluto with a 3 degree orb. And since he has virgo asc - my sun, mercury, venus, saturn, and NN all fall right in his 1st house. There also moon trine pluto in synastry. Close orb less than 2 degrees. So I've come to the conclusion that pluto has played a big role there. There's a lot of harsh saturn aspects in synastry AND composite. And pluto is alllll about head games and obsessions lol I don't really like it either. So bye-bye chris. Stay out of my pants, stay out of my head, and stay outta my life hmmph.

I'm not seeing a connection of mystery man to chris but that's just my opinion. I'm trying to think of any emails or txts or calls I've overlooked or forgot about but nothing is coming to mind right now. Course I've been shutting out men for a few months too lol I've been asked out but I think men r just attracted and nothing else. And that bothers me. So I push them all away. When I get that feeling, I won't do that. There's just been no sparks for anyone. And I've had my own issues to deal with that I feel should come 1st b4 I even think about dating....I wonder if there's a connection between all that and these vague dreams??

And YES I'm becoming addicted to this site its the one and only place online where I'm free to b the astrology freak that I am lol warts and all.

posted June 13, 2012 03:51 PM            

Next step conver the planets. Aries is ruler by mars so my 1st house is ruled my mars. 2nd house - taurus is ruled by venus so ruler of h2 is venus. 3rd house - gemini is ruled by mercury so that makes ruler of my 3rd house mercury. And so on and so on.

posted June 13, 2012 03:55 PM            

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Originally posted by Junethird:
Maybe thats it... The fact that you are overlooking men in pRticular. Shutting yourself out so they are coming to you in dream land now lol

Coffee is just coffee.

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posted June 13, 2012 04:01 PM            

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Originally posted by Junethird:
Still nothing from him today... So sad to know iam not very important to him. That he can disregard my feelings and be so selfish

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posted June 13, 2012 04:16 PM            

But the thing that scares most people is my cold expression and tone of voice. Its deadly i even scare myself sometimes lol... Afterwards i get the shakes...

No wonder why people at work call me a B*tch lol i heard a girl say that i look like one and act like one... Its true tho... Its a work place. Work dont fool around... Aaaahh its saturn in my 6th house. I cant help it i take responsability to the extreme and follow everything to a T!