posted May 15, 2012 06:07 PM            

Ok deep breath here goes...I would like to know what it is I'm supposed to learn from the realtionship with my estranged father? I haven't spoken to him since I was 19 and I'll turn 33 this sept so its been a looong time since I've had any contact with him. I believe there is a reason for everything and I've been asking myself why for yrs now. This has haunted me my entire adult life and for the life of me I don't understand y God had to pick him of all the ppl on this earth for my father. So I've come to the conclusion that I'm just crazy or something bc I won't let this rest. I've asked a psychic on here once already and I wasn't given an answer. Perhaps u may b able to sense y...

posted May 15, 2012 06:16 PM            

Actually, your lovers are a pattern of your father.

All serious casual lovers (not flings) when put together represent an interesting aura of your dad.

I have something... Its actually a message, i know it might be a bit painful for you, but i need your fathers first name and your fav moment with him. I just wanna make sure i have the right guy.

posted May 15, 2012 06:57 PM            

Lets start with energies...

At the moment your energy is baby blue... Light and fluffy... You want to get to sunny yellow

Blue and yellow make green

Your core focus is therefore green to achieve yellow.

Its not 1+1=2 its more like whats the missing piece, understand?!

I think a nice emerald crystal will do nice for you to find your centre. my all time fav

The emerald by tradition, waaaay old tradition is the marriage stone. If pure without defect Its rare and very pricey. A perfect magnet... Quality.

As for Your past lovers having a temper like your dad... That comes in many forms... Emotional anger vs lashing out in anger is at the core the same thing just expressed diff. My opinion only. Your past lovers may not have punched a hole thru the wall physically... No, in fact, you were that wall. They punched a hole thru you and to you.

posted May 15, 2012 08:04 PM            

Ok... Back to wild bill. Actually he was at one time prolly a funny guy. Or had a hearty laugh. Something about laughter and him go hand in hand.

Your stepmom is white. Her energy altho not peaceful per se, is alright. She tried, but she had her own demons to deal with... She doesnt play too much of a role in this reading just wanted to put it out there for you.

Your father, represented by the king of swords, altho crafty with words. He is bit of a bully, He is strong, opinionated and forceful. Followed by the emperor reversed.... He is a heavily clouded judemental man. Who didnt care for reponsability or was not very good with it. Careless is better.

The strength and devil upright show That he was strong for all the wrong reasons.... His convictions and firm stands were more out of pride... Fragile ego, than anything else.

You show up as the fool reversed, moon reversed, sun reversed and the heirophant ( this card in the mix Is very interesting)

Your growth as a young woman was stunted, delayed, foolish decisions were made on your part... The moon and sun reversed show you turning your back, altho from the outside looking in, all parties tried to put in a smiley face it wasnt fooling anyone... The heirophant suggests that stability and tradition was your thirst.

Your present future comes up with the lovers, 2 of pentacles, 5 of swords and Ace of swords.

You are at a fork in the road. The lovers does not indicate romance, but more of choices, 2 of pentacles confirm this more as that shoes a balance... You are balancing the choices, weighing pros and cons...

5 of swords comand deceit, but not necessarily from others, but more within yourself... Dont sugar coat the truth it says, cuz you will end up with an empty victory That thought is backed up by the Ace of swords, be truthful with yourself.

Your reading got a lot of major face cards and swords. Which means that its all boiling down to the now.... Your past is catching up to you my dear. Its starting to be a little intrusive in your everyday life.

The swords also tell me that its more the words that were said or not said that hurt the most.

Your father's energy message is the amber stone, murky yellow. Yes it would be a happy reunion, but short lived. His sh*t hasnt changed. It would be up to you if. You want to reach out.

You actually dont need his approval. You want him to know that despite the mess of your past family dynamic, you are doing alright, you turned out ok. you want him to know personally of your beautiful accomplishments, and as you are a mother, your kids are your gems

your lesson with your father is actually the opposite of how you have been conducting yourself. Just like you shut him out off your life, you need to shut out the other uncomitted, waste of time, emotionally unavailable men... And be open to accepting your father as he is. For you right now its the past, Crazy chaos included. You dont have to like it, accept it in your life, but saying hey dad, i love you would have helped out alot... Emotionally speaking that is.

posted May 15, 2012 08:05 PM            

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Originally posted by ShyVirgo1979:
Ok I got it now sorry lol crystals give off energy as does tarot cards. I need the energy of the pure emerald to combine with the baby blue energy to get to the nice yellow ur talking about. Do I have that right? If not please feel free to correct it I won't b offended

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posted May 15, 2012 08:12 PM            

When you can be honest, dead honest, the ace of swords will grant you access to the next level and that will be growing that backbone.

posted May 15, 2012 09:29 PM            

Say. What ever you need to say. I am just waiting for you to finish all your post before replying. Its better to not interupt the flow

80% ofthe time i usetarot and my pendulum to help me focus, when the energy is blurry.... Sometimes i include the spread in my responses sometimes not... It depends how the energy is evolving.if i think i need to be more clear to get my point accross, less vague so to speak then ill usually make it known how i got to my conclusion

posted May 16, 2012 09:16 AM            

Energies and lessons are about you. Its about learning how to allow them to affect you. It is that simple.

if you would have never said i love you to your relative, than that would have bothered you too. You have to allow yourself to be realseased from bondage when you express yourself. Dont expect anything. Just feel a relief. I said, i put it outthere its time to move on so to speak.

Gems are not like colours per se... You dont have to be a green person or a blue person to enjoy the effects of the stone. Its more the depth you feel when you look into the "eye" of the stone.

If you are pulled to aquamarine then go for it... Try it out and see how it feels. But i still think the grounding force of the emerald would suit you better than wavy aquamarine... But go with what you feel. Please follow your pull

One way is for you to write a letter or maybe a speech to your father. It can be many many pages or just one word. Read it out loud for 12days straight. And on the 13th day you burn it. Go outside or in the bathtub and let that letter burn and while its burning allow yourself to set your pain free. Its done.

Its been years for you, so You might have to repeat it 2 or 3 times more... before you get everything out of your system.