posted September 27, 2012 03:11 AM            

I will do a little background story because its complicated. This is a man I have known for 8 years, we met in high school and it was love at first sight for us both (ASC's opposite tight). He was my first first hug, first love, first kiss, first everything. But being the insecure, inexperienced, stupid girl I was, I didn't take him seriously because he is really, really attractive and many girls liked him. So I befriended his friend in hops to get closer to him, and as time went on, I started to take my love less and less seriously, and ended up falling for his friend. Then I did the one thing that would insure my love would be in my life but at a distance and I married his friend. He was really upset, and he tried to stop me but I went with it anyway. I had my little girl and as things started to fall apart in my family (my ex was abusive to pretty much everyone in his life, even his coworkers), my love and I grew closer. It was loving, supportive, intimate, overwhelming, and sweet at the same time. He urged me to leave the relationship but I didn't till a few years ago. I'm really ashamed for my disgraceful behavior and I won't use astrology to justify my actions but a lot of the time I felt like fated events were taking place. There were things I did that were socially inappropriate and downright dangerous, like randomly hugging him when there was a group of people around including my ex, and we were all talking in a circle, him standing right across from me and it was our of the blue, I swear I couldn't help it (thank god everyone was trashed).

Anyway, now all these years later, and our feelings are even stronger/deeper/open. We feel like we can see into one another' soul completely exposed. He loves my little girl, and has always said that she feels like she is his own (they have an intense clustered composite and amazing synastry). We would be willing to put our reputations, respect of our friends and family on the line to be together BUT I am petrified (much more so than he). I can't help but think I will be too intense to handle on a day to day life. I love him, I love him so much, I am just so scared. I'm scared of losing him, of disappointing him, of hurting him or being hurt because I know I know I could never get over this even as of right now. I'm scared of the danger to him and even me from my ex (he is in another state now, engaged and a baby on the way, and I have a no contact order for myself and my daughter). I would like your opinion as this is something that I cannot imagine tearing myself away from, yet at the same time there is so much to lose. Why do you see going on? I see separate things but I cannot put is all together for an over all picture.

I also wanted to say that absolutely every composite planet and angle conjuncts either mine or his planets and angles at 0-1* except for Uranus. Saturn falling on his chart ruler Uranus/Venus conjunction, Sun/Venus right on my and my little girls NN, feel like the most important to me. C sun/venus right on the composite mars/mercury MP and Jupiter solstice mars.

The only DW'S we have are chiron/venus exact, Venus/Pluto minor aspects DW and asteroids.

Me's Sun in Taurus and C's Sun in Aquarius

While Me often takes a practical, down-to-earth, simple approach to life, C is more inclined to take a modern, progressive or unconventional approach. This inclines the two of you to often differ on political and social issues as well as have different tastes in art, music, and literature. C is more aware of modern trends, and stays more in tune with changing styles and current events, while Me stubbornly holds on to the classics. Me's interests are more focused, less wide-ranging, and change little over time. This difference in your approach to life is not likely to create serious problems, but it does tend to be annoying at times. You are both stubborn (Me is particularly stubborn!), and this can aggravate the problem as you may be unwilling to fully accept and appreciate each other, being unwilling to adapt to your differences.

Me's Moon in Cancer and C's Moon in Pisces

The two of you understand each other very well and you share many of the same traits. You can have a very strong emotional rapport and attachment to one another, so much so that you communicate nonverbally or telepathically quite easily.

Both of you are highly receptive and sensitive to the emotional tone surrounding you. You have an intuitive awareness of others' inner feelings and needs, and are sympathetic almost to a fault. You absorb the moods of the people around you, and are prone to take on others' troubles or emotions, sometimes not even knowing what your own true feelings are and what you have picked up from someone else. It is important for both of you to have a peaceful home to retreat to (near a lake or other body of water, ideally). You need a place where you can withdraw and replenish yourselves, spiritually and emotionally, on a regular basis. You share a tendency to want to escape from the pressures of the world and modern day competition and stress, and both of you need to beware of the tendency to become dependent on alcohol or other substances which enable you to evade reality. Meditation, listening to or creating music, or living close to nature are other, more nurturing ways to do the same thing.

Me's Venus opposition C's Saturn orb 2° 38'

Emotional distance or coolness, and an inability either to show love, or to feel sufficiently loved and appreciated are problems you are likely to face in this relationship. Me, in particular, can feel dominated, stifled, or inhibited socially and emotionally by C. There may be other, more positive astrological influences to offset this basically difficult dynamic between the two of you, but even so there are times when you feel lonely and unfulfilled by being together. C must try to avoid being too demanding, possessive, withholding, or controlling towards Me. Me needs to be with other friends sometimes, and should go off and do something fun and frivolous once in a while.

Me's Mars conjunct C's Sun orb 1° 31'

Your relationship is a stimulating, energizing, dynamic one. You inspire each other to be very active in both work and play, and to accomplish a great deal. You enjoy challenging each other and probably enjoy competing with each other in games. Sexual attraction to each other is very strong as well. The only negative tendency is to possibly develop a rivalry with each other; this is especially possible if Me comes on too forcefully, directly and aggressively, hurting C's feelings or pride.

Me's Venus sextile C's Mars orb 0° 18'

There is a strong romantic attraction between you and you instinctively know how to please and make one another happy sexually. Both tenderness and passion are present between you, so this relationship can be immensely fulfilling to both of you!

Me's Mars square C's Pluto orb 0° 15'

You inspire, inflame, vitalize, and energize one another and you can accomplish much together, but you can easily become overly zealous, even fanatical, in your pursuits. It is also likely that your objectives will sometimes be different and you will feel at cross-purposes with each other. You often end up in power struggles, being very competitive with each other, and trying to manipulate or dominate one another. C, especially, can override or undermine Me's efforts.

Sexual attraction is very strong, but as with other things, one of you is likely to come on too strong to the other and this may be offensive to your partner. There is a driving, compelling, somewhat impersonal quality to your love-making at times.

Me's Jupiter square C's Sun orb 1° 17'

Enthusiasm, optimism, and good will are very strong in your relationship. Me is able to see ways that C can grow, expand, and develop in material and concrete ways as well as in attitude and inner ways. Me, however, may try to push C too hastily and be deceived by unrealistic expectations, resulting in foolish joint speculations and unsuccessful ventures. Try not to let your shared enthusiasm and optimism spawn unrealistic hopes and expectations.

Me's Jupiter sextile C's Moon orb 0° 33'

There is a light-hearted, jovial quality to your relationship. This relationship tends to bring both of you 'out of the closet'. You enjoy going out together and entertaining friends at your home. The friendly, harmonious quality of your relationship is contagious and, as a couple, you are likely to have many good friends and a happy domestic life.

Me's Neptune sextile C's Moon orb 0° 49'

You feel extremely comfortable with each other, and it is not surprising that you have become close friends. The intuitive rapport for each other is very strong, and you connect strongly on a deep, compassionate, almost mystical level. You also work well together in artistic, musical, and humanitarian areas.

Me's Pluto square C's Sun orb 0° 16'

Your relationship is intense, magnetic, and complex. You are fascinated by each other and you engage in deep, intense discussions and encounters that unveil your innermost thoughts, feelings, goals, hopes, fears, and ambitions. This is not a superficial relationship! You are very uninhibited with each other, and you open up to each other more readily than to others. Be wary of power struggles, however, as Me, in particular, may be tempted to use the magnetic attractive power over C to manipulate and control C. Also, either of you may feel threatened, embarrassed, or disempowered by revealing so much of yourself to the other, and consequently feel the need to be secretive and competitive with each other. You have a profound influence upon one another, for good or ill.

Me's Pluto trine C's Moon orb 2° 8'

You have a very deep appreciation for each other's innermost feelings. This is not a superficial relationship. From your first meetings, you found that you could reveal to each other your deepest concerns, fears, and drives. At the least you are close friends. This deep appreciation and rapport is also conducive to a long-lasting marriage.

Me's Sun square C's Ascendant orb 1° 4'

Although the two of you are strongly attracted to each other, you often 'rub each other the wrong way'. Your personal tastes and interests are frequently different. If you try to convince each other that your life style, tastes, and interests are better than your partner's, then you will frustrate each other and fail to appreciate and really understand each other. You must accept the fact that the two of you are different people with your own unique qualities. Don't try to force each other to adopt your own tastes, hobbies, and interests, as it will only make matters worse.

Me's Mercury square C's Ascendant orb 0° 16'

Frequently the two of you view a situation very differently, and you frequently respond to events very differently. Unfortunately, you are also inclined to feel that your approach is superior and feel very frustrated that you cannot enlighten your partner. Very often, also, this annoying situation is triggered by a relatively minor incident. Try to better appreciate your partner's point of view.

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The above chart is the only one I would like input on but here is a chart for him and my little girl. Also with many conjunctions to both their charts.

And I don't know if you look at multi-people composites but here is one for the 3 of us, also with many conjunctions to all 3 of our charts and to our composite. That square from Saturn is also an exact solstice and parallel to mars. Moon exactly contra-parallel Sun. Sun conjunct his sun/moon MP 1*.

posted September 27, 2012 05:38 AM            

Yoko ono and Lennon had this composite setup as well, with medicore synastry and so did Richard Burton and Liz Taylor
I have also seen it many times in readings, the sheer passion and desperation being obvious in their description of the relationship, and I have also experienced it once myself. It's my absolute favorite setup.

However, you guys have the love stellium square uranus and saturn. Sun opp saturn is fine in composite but when the entire stelium is afflicted by saturn that is a problem bc u can be overly critical of each other. Also, the uranus affliction shows ur on and off feelings and the instability/getting out of touch with each other, etc.

still, though, even with those afflictions, this setup is so special. you guys are obviously soulmates. what do u have to be scared of! when you're older you're going to regret not having gotten with your soulmate