posted October 18, 2020 02:47 PM
Welcome Back, Poly! And Happy Belated Birthday. Here's a thread you started in Asteroid Astrology, 2019.
- http://www.linda-goodman.com/ubb/Forum28/HTML/004924.html
Similar issues.
Great answer, Vansio.
Your Moon conjunct Ascendant/H1 might be adding to your perceptions. Adds a sense of being more self-conscious about yourself, than the others around you.
Your Aquarius Moon might also be lending to that isolative-inward sensitivity-- you might experience feelings with a sense of being more detached from others.
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Consider your 'self-talk' too-- imagine people are "thinking" well of you, that people really 'like' you.
'Other people' may be having an other experience than what you are imagining.
For example, sometimes my forehead and areas around my eyes may appear to scowl (without me being aware of it). --- The arrangement of muscles I might have around my face is NOT about my 'feelings' about any persons {that I'm NOT relating to} in the location. I personally have to deal with headaches, which reflects slightly on face.
I recall once waiting on a taxi ride after grocery shopping. --
Standing an ample distance away from me, a woman caught my attention as with a mean voice she loudly accused me of JUDGING her?
.. No no no ... I hadn't really even 'noticed' her standing there as a distinct person!
.. My thoughts were engaged with waiting for the taxi, and what I was going to make for dinner.
{I had once been a smoker and I know how hard it is; I live with someone that smokes, and those kinds of thoughts never occur to me.}
That woman was "projecting" on ME--
She thought *I* was having negative thoughts and opinions about her "smoking habit."
She was thinking I was having "bad thoughts" about her smoking habit, and went as far as to attack me for it! ----- Truth was that I hadn't even noticed her presence!
I hope you'll be able to 'own back your own thoughts' about what people 'might' be thinking about you.
Hope you can become more and more comfortable in your own thoughts, about your self. {{ }}
Know for yourself, that you are Beautiful
Think about 'other' people in the same way.
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ADD ... You're having a transit of Saturn over your Neptune. That can have a lowering effect on your self-esteem, and trigger self-doubts.
This too shall pass!!
(music) "I Am Light"
(India Arie, 2016, SuperSoul Sessions, Oprah Winfrey Network)
[3:38] http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OL-gxfx2QtY