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BloodRedMoon
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posted May 11, 2004 01:00 PM     Click Here to See the Profile for BloodRedMoon     Edit/Delete Message
I don't know what to make of this!!!!

Last night I dreamed I was in a bathtub just relaxing. It had really tall sides so that I couldn't even be seen if I was just sitting in there with the water up around my neck like it was. It was really peaceful. Vin came in to check on me and then went back out.

I looked down and saw I was bleeding a little more and I worried about miscarriage again. I reached down and realized that something small had come out. I picked it up and it reminded me at first of a plucked chicken because the skin was so white and dimpled. It was only about an inch and a half long. I turned it over and it had a face.

I got out of the tub and was screaming for Vincent because I had miscarried and now I was holding it and it was still ALIVE. It still had a tail like a tadpole and little tiny arms and a strange face with huge eyes and weird long mouth. It started sucking it's thumb.

I figured it would just die in my hands and I was devistated. Vin came in and was just aghast and didn't know what to do.

Instead of dying, though, it started slowly growing.

I told Vin I didn't know how this was possible and that it should only be half an inch long. But it grew right in front of us and ended up being one of those hairless Sphinx cats with BIG eyes and I was cradling it and petting it and wodnering what to feed it!

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you gave me strength, you pushed the blades away from me...oh how we dreamt to change the world... and we would never give in, no matter what they say... a really cool connection in a cruel world...

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Ra
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posted May 11, 2004 02:15 PM     Click Here to See the Profile for Ra     Edit/Delete Message

Oh, Amber ... what a dream! It sounds just awful. The dream is a reflection of your fears, at least to begin with - I doubt this is some kind of horrible premonition.

Strangely, there is an aspect to the dream that could be related to something I chose not to write before. When writing about your last dream, I received one more bit of information - or whatever you want to call it. The idea was that there may be something about the newborn which is carried over from the past life - a birthmark, "abnormality" (not necessarily a bad one), or even difficulties with the pregnancy and/or birth. It was almost as if the specifics had not yet been determined but that there would be something peculiar about the baby and/or the pregnancy/birth. But, regardless of the situation, the end is a good one. It was relayed to me in terms of karmic energies ... there was difficulty going out, so there will be difficulty coming back in ... that sort of thing, but certainly a little deeper. I am really very hesitant to tell you this stuff, but as long as the ending is a good one, perhaps it is ok? I just do not want to add to any of your concerns. How do you feel about it?

As for this dream, I'll certainly go over it tonight.

Think good thoughts Amber! As you know, thoughts make a difference. And we will be thinking about you too!

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pixelpixie
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posted May 11, 2004 03:28 PM     Click Here to See the Profile for pixelpixie     Edit/Delete Message
As will I.

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BloodRedMoon
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posted May 11, 2004 04:05 PM     Click Here to See the Profile for BloodRedMoon     Edit/Delete Message
well I guess ultimately the dream didn't END badly because it didn't die even though I freaked out and thought it would. It was a perfectly healthy cat, afterall.

Well the pregnancy is already peculiar.

My period was due on April 29th. I started spotting (bleeding a little) on April 24th and it hasn't stopped. I am STILL spotting nearly 2 1/2 weeks later. So I'm stressed over it and exhausted. I hear of this happening to some women but it didn't happen with Hunter so I'm all worried. So definately I can see why parts of the dream are my fears. I'm actually surprised it's the first one I've had in the past couple weeks.

Actually I find out TODAY if my hcg levels are rising and the pregnancy is continuing like it should. Waiting... waiting... waiting for a phone call... waiting.. argh.

I really HONESTLY appreciate anything you share with me, Ra. It gives me a lot to think about and ends up giving me more comfort than anything else -- even the really 'strange' or 'odd' aspects. I appreciate it more than you possibly know.

And I definately appreciate the two of you sending positive thoughts my way. Thank you.

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BloodRedMoon
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posted May 11, 2004 05:43 PM     Click Here to See the Profile for BloodRedMoon     Edit/Delete Message

The doctor'soffice just called and informed me my hcg level has dropped a little bit. So it looks like I AM miscarrying.

i want to crawl up in a ball and just die.

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pixelpixie
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posted May 11, 2004 06:08 PM     Click Here to See the Profile for pixelpixie     Edit/Delete Message
Sorry, honey.
It really just sucks more than I can convey.
I had a miscarriage just before I got pregnant with my daughter. (The very next month~not even a period in between)
Maybe this was to test (in some stupid cosmic way) whether you were ready to embrace this again. You are.
I would like to say do not give up yet, but if it is the case here, then very soon, again, you will be ready.
I know

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noreenz
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posted May 11, 2004 11:06 PM     Click Here to See the Profile for noreenz     Edit/Delete Message
I am sorry to hear this. My heart and thoughts go out to you. Is never easy.

much

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Ra
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posted May 12, 2004 04:54 AM     Click Here to See the Profile for Ra     Edit/Delete Message
I am very sorry to hear that Amber.

As emotionally difficult as it is, you must know that there is a reason - a good one.

I am not a woman so I cannot fully appreciate the emotion involved, but knowing that this is ultimately for the greater good goes a long way. In many situations like this I have read that there is something wrong with the physical structure of the body so the soul opts for the chance of a new one. I found that to be a comforting thought.

It seems your dream was a bit more prophetic than I gave it credit for. I didn't get a chance to really go over it yet, but it seems to speak mostly for itself ... although the ending is odd.

Would you like me to leave well enough alone? Or should I continue ... perhaps later on.

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posted May 12, 2004 05:03 AM     Click Here to See the Profile for Ra     Edit/Delete Message
... and I hate to sound ignorant and I hope this is not inappropriate to ask, but is this diagnosis a certain indication of miscarriage?

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posted May 12, 2004 12:37 PM     Click Here to See the Profile for Aphrodite     Edit/Delete Message

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BloodRedMoon
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posted May 12, 2004 12:39 PM     Click Here to See the Profile for BloodRedMoon     Edit/Delete Message
Thank you pixelpixie, noreenz and Ra

pixelpixie ~ congrats on conceiving so soon after your miscarriage!! I'm hoping for the same sort of thing. I don't think it'll only be a month but I'll settle for two Then I'll have two Pisces kids.

I *am* feeling better than I did yesterday. Yesterday hit me pretty hard but it's better SOONER in the pregnancy than later, definately. And yes it's all for a rreason and maybe I'll just have a March baby instead of a January baby. **hopeful!!** I don't want to go into a long diatribe of my thought processes yesterday because they were up and down and all over the scale! It is difficult, though, because I still have all the pregnancy symptoms and my spotting has stopped yesterday and today. If it's going to leave me... I wish it would do it quickly!! I need to move on if that's the intention. I hope I don't sound cold because I'm not. I cried for hours yesterday. I think I'm in Operation Preserve Sanity Mode now.

Ra ~ well both times I called the office the nurse would only say 'most likely' and 'probably' going to miscarry. I went online and I really haven't seen anything that says if the hcg levels drop that it's possible for the pregnancy to continue. I just don't know. I don't think so but I'm not really hoping anymore. I'm just going to go with the flow... that would have been hard last week but the past week has been a roller coaster!! The doctor's supposed to call me today to decide what to do next and how many more times they want to poke and prod me to see what's happening.

I am interested in what you think about the Sphinx cat in the dream. The rest seems to speak for itself totally but that part just doesn't seem to fit.

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posted May 12, 2004 01:51 PM     Click Here to See the Profile for LibraSparkle     Edit/Delete Message
Think positive happy thoughts. I will be thinking them for you as well

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JustAmanda
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posted May 13, 2004 12:50 AM     Click Here to See the Profile for JustAmanda     Edit/Delete Message
au contrair! I think that part is the rope that ties it all together...when we talked the other day I said that I felt strongly it is a girl...and then I posted on GJ that I am just not sure that I believe this is going to end...I could be wrong, and forgive me if I am...but I do feel that things could work out...and if so, then this is what I mean by tying it together...lookit what I found by doing a search on sphynx cats...

The first feline Egyptian goddess might be Mafdet, depicted in the Pyramid texts as killing a snake with her claws. Mafdet might be translated as "runner" in Egyptian. While there are many other cat goddesses, Bast is the only one represented as a domestic cat (Welcome, 1997). Cats were regarded as manifestations of the goddess Bast. This Egyptian goddess had many roles, including the goddess of fertility, the moon, and also as the protector of all cats. She was referred to as Bastet when in full cat form, as opposed to the representation of Bast as a beautiful girl with the body of a human and the head of a cat. In Egyptian mythology, she had many conflicting relationships with fellow gods and goddesses. She was said to be the daughter of Mwt and Amun, the daughter of Ra, sister of Djehuti, Seshat, Het Heret, Ma'at, and twin sister of Sekhmet. She was also the sexual partner of all gods and goddesses, and the wife of Ra (Milo, 1997). Most feline gods and goddesses, however, were big cats, mainly lions and lionesses.


Like Hunter, if this pregnancy continues, which I am praying that it does, then you have got a very special child in your womb and this dream was the universe's way of saying so...

I'm praying for you Amber...*hugs*

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BloodRedMoon
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posted May 13, 2004 03:19 AM     Click Here to See the Profile for BloodRedMoon     Edit/Delete Message
nothing to forgive, Bernsie. I'm ready for anything tomorrow - really.

Wow that's interesting about the cat and Mafdet. I actually have a Bast figurine that is one of my favorite things ever. Actually, I have two! One isa human body with a cat head and one is a golden cat. Love them.

I think I'll look up more about that online too.

I lurvs you, hon!

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posted May 13, 2004 01:53 PM     Click Here to See the Profile for Ra     Edit/Delete Message
Well done Amanda

Amanda hit on some of the things I would mention about the cat. A feminine symbol, instinctual energy close to consciousness, and of course the Egyptian symbology. The interesting thing about the Egyptian is that the cat represents both pain and pleasure, or destruction and creation, or illness and healing. There are many similarities to the Hindu goddess Kali.

Furthermore, pregnancy dreams often include small animals, especially cats, so the kitty is an appropriate symbol.

Amanda touched on some other things I have thought as well, but I think it best to reserve comment until some more time has passed.

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BloodRedMoon
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posted May 13, 2004 02:56 PM     Click Here to See the Profile for BloodRedMoon     Edit/Delete Message
Well I just got back from the doctor. He did an ultrasound and all and it looks like everything is cleared out. He didn't see a durned thing. Although he did say that I've already started another cycle and that I'll be ovulating in about 6 days so we can try to conceive then if we'd like.

We are going to try. I'm feeling much better and I KNOW that when we conceive again it will be the same soul that intended to come this time.

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JustAmanda
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posted May 13, 2004 09:18 PM     Click Here to See the Profile for JustAmanda     Edit/Delete Message
Thanks Ra! I've found that I'm getting a bit more intune with interpretations...and I like it!!

Amber...keep on going baby!! Something awesome is on it's way!!!

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