posted October 27, 2004 11:38 PM         

ME and mum where on our way to Sydney. We were driving to a train station. We were conversing about Martial arts and how well we were doign (while driving together that is our main topic always, and i ussually get rather annoyed at her entusiasm) We turn down into the train station. We are going to fast, and realise to late that the rail to go down is really steep. The car goes a little to much over the side, and we end up slipping off, the whole car falling. Mum doesnt seem scared, but I am terrified, and I launch out of the window, grabbing onto the train station wall, which is all glass execpt for a blue seperator which i am currently holding. I slip my foot out and catch the car on my toes.... The car is hanging sideways off my foot, and it falls upside down. I drop, and realise if i hadn't tried to stop it falling it would have landed on the wheels, because of me it landed roof down, and mum was squashed in it. I run up and yank the car off her. The car seems to have srunk to a play car, and so is she. Her throat is cut and she is dieing. I start crying as she wakes.

"Mum, I love you heaps, I want you to know you are my inspiration for karate, you made me want to do it."

She smiles then dies. I turn to yell for help, and when i turn back she is gone.

I run to the telephone, my brother is walking past. I yell at him.

"We had an accident, mum is dead."

He isnt listening, and is perving on a female. I yell it a few times before he comprehends. He doesn't seem to care.

"Whats that noise?" He asks, and I hear it. I was like a dying bird, a dog flew down to the ground, and i called to it, wanting to make it my pet, it runs away, and i turn back to our car which is now a normal size. A little brown pig runs out of it and up to me. I pick it up and hug it. My sister walks past and Mat (My brother) Taskes her into a room beside the phone.

I think that now mum is dead I have to look after the family. I wonder how I could get a liscence to learn how to drive, and no that i cant use our car because it is squished. ( I am very upset about mum dieing but I want to take control.)

I decide to ring dad. He picks up when I call. I scream at Cody to go away cause she wants to hear, but I dont want her to know. She leaves. Dad laughs because I screamed at Cody.

"Dad we had an accident."

He starts to cry. So do I.

"Mum's dead."

posted October 28, 2004 02:48 PM         

I'll get to this as soon as I can.

posted November 09, 2004 02:18 PM         

Your dream from 10/22 again reflects the confusion you are experiencing about your sexuality as well as the way in which you feel misunderstood.

10/24 ~~ This dream is about hidden (night/dark clothes) conflict (male and female friends/you being attacked) within yourself ... sound familiar? You are searching for ways to defend/protect yourself from those things that threaten you, probably both internal and external. It is suggested that you are angry or upset about the choices you have been given (thinking of stealing from store), and your natural reaction is to fight it, or to fight authority.

Does that make sense?

posted November 09, 2004 02:27 PM         

This dream reflects the position (train station) or point at which the relationship with your mum is currently at. You are often annoyed with her, frustrated, angry, confused, and you feel guilty about it because you love her. The two of you have great difficulty communicating, understanding, relating to one another (throat cut). Is this coming to an end? (she dies) Could it be that something new is beginning to manifest in your relationship? Or perhaps you have changed somehow, and have a new understanding?

The death of your mother could also be associated with being a lesbian, the ending of it ... this could be literal or it culd be that your subconscious is simply feeling out the idea and the impact it could have upon you ... just a possibility .

The scene with the dog and the pig, very generally, has something to do with unconscious material/issues becoming conscious, something about the need for unconditional love, but beyond that I haven't a clue.

Thoughts?

posted November 10, 2004 05:10 AM         

The first accident a man overturned into a lake and drowned. Followed straight up by a train crash, the man they interviewed was either hanging out a window or was pulled out of it? I cant remember.

In my dream mum over turned and crashed into a train station...

posted December 18, 2004 03:21 AM         

I started back down the street, and was stopped by a security gaurd, wanting to check my clothes cause he was looking for the blood of the murderer. He grabbed my poanst and pointed out blood stains on it. I explained I had had my period, and he looked a little uneased, and walked off.

I was in a white room. The walls had HUGE fishtaks all across them. one after the other. I was in the white uniform, and walking down one of the halls with fishtanks. I didn't notice any fisk in them, but felt like they where tropical red fish???I had a towel, and whipped the red blood stains off my pants, and accidently dropped the towel into one of the tanks. I pulled it out, and disposed of it, then had a memory,of being in a forest and running from someone who was after me and my friends. I had slipped down a bank and into the muddy water, and saw a crocidile. I looked up and a man with a torch spotted me. the memory was over, and i was in the room, being confronted by my boss.

It was to do with someone putting period blood into the tanks, and i looked over to one which had turned a reddy colour. ZHe said it had ruined the project and asked me when i had had my period. I said I wasn't on it, and hadnet had it for a few weeks. I get the feeling through the whole dream that I really didn't have my period. He left me alone and a man who was with him said, dont resist them. I knew then that the person in my memory was after me. I had another memory, of being in a house and some of my work mates had said they wouldn't let me be taken. They sat in the house with guns and fought the people who were after me, a few dieing. I was taken prisoner, but I knew I musn't resist being taken this time and then man who had told me not to, had a plan of getting me out or something, so I walked around telling all my friend who worked with me, to stay out of it this time. They agreed very happily, remembering what happened last time,

and I left the building to walk down the street, where I knew they would be.

posted December 18, 2004 04:12 AM         

I'm SOOOO glad to hear that you are doing so well. Good for you, and congratulations on all you are accomplishing.

It may take me a while to get to your dreams - lots of holiday stuff going on.

Merry Christmas!

posted January 02, 2005 10:26 PM         

I had stolen mums car and was driving around town, i parked the car cause mum was in the supermarket next to me and I didn't want her to see me driving her car. (I cant drive yet.) I started driving again and wanted to turn down a street but it was fuzzy and I couldn't see where to turn, i drove past the turn and cursed but shrugged it off coz I knew where I was going and could get there alot of different ways.

I parked and went up a grassy hill to a treehouse. I enetered, and saw a female and male friend of mine doing drugs. I'm not into them so I went outside to see mum and dad standing on the hill. Heart attack. Mum demands to see whats inside and I try to stop her by grabbing her hair but she see's anyway. I look inside and no one is in there and the drugs are all cleaned up. Ok i can breathe again. She leaves and I get back into the car and drive to a sort of amusment park.

I get out and grab a pushbike, i ride it across a rickety old bridge and start riding it up a rocky mountain but strings get in my way, and I have to drop the bike to weave in and out. I get the feeling mum is watching me and i am in a race, but i am winning.

posted January 18, 2005 01:29 PM         

I'm finally getting to your dreams.

But first, you asked if I believe in UFOs/aliens ... unequivocally, yes. Why do you ask? And what can I tell you about it?