posted January 12, 2005 03:16 PM         

I had such a weird dream... I was about to get married in a church, when I saw another bride passing by. Her dress was so beautiful.. I looked down and saw my own dress was too big, it was almost falling off and I had no veil. I told my sweetie I wouldn't marry him in such an ugly dress, and he got upset. I then looked at my engagement ring, and just took off running. He was running after me, and then I looked down and noticed my shoes were black...

Thanks,

posted January 12, 2005 10:35 PM         

I just turned 26 last month, and we have been engaged for 10 months. We live together, and see ourselves as spouse even if it isn't legal yet. He is a really good partner, and my best friend. You're very right about my anxiety... Although I am young, I have already been married/divorced before.... I'm terrified of things going wrong a second time.

posted January 12, 2005 10:41 PM         

Good, thank you for the background.
Now that the relevent questions have been established, the man behind the yellow curtain will emerge soon to ask more and help you.

posted January 13, 2005 02:16 AM         

I have read your posts before, and I really like your opinions. I'm sorry if I came across as defensive, I get so scared about remarrying... My first marriage was very unwise, we were both 17 at the time. As we grew up, we grew apart. I wish I had done things differently, but I did learn a lot from that time.

About my fiance, he's a Cancer and was raised on Air Force bases. He really wants to get into the Police Academy, and I am leaning towards majoring in psychology. So we are both in school, about halfway through. I love the idea of not making it legal until we are done with school, but people are always bugging us with ? as to why not just do it since we already live together. It gets me all apprehensive, and such. He says he is ok with waiting, but as a Cancer I know he gets insecure that I'm a little hesitant while he'd love to do it tomorrow.

posted January 13, 2005 04:08 AM         

You are in good hands. I think Ms. Pixie understands this one far better than I, especially on the emotional level.

Pixie, you hit the nail on the head. I would have equally considered a totally symbolic meaning ... thank you for your help. (I really mean that)

Got any ideas about 'angel of hopes' dream? Feels different to me.

posted January 14, 2005 04:36 AM         

Deira, what do you think, and feel, about that?

posted January 14, 2005 01:19 PM         

I didnt have the feeling it was my wedding. I was attending. I was sitting up in a balcony over looking the ceremony (although it had not begun yet as I dont remember anyone standing at the altar) In the dream I didnt have the feeling of wishing it was mine. However in the waking state I have been really wanting it. My man is the only thing stopping us, although Ive told myself I can wait - I secretly long for it.
The small room - I was strange. When I ran thru the church looking for my love I happende to notice a small door that was open. It seemed it was under the stairs so I slowly opened the door and it was under the stairs but extended out past the stairs with a window in there facing into the altar area. There was someone that had been in there. But wasnt when I walked in. There was a pack of cig/lighter abd fresh smell of cig smoke with little smoke coming off the ashtry - as if the cig was just put out. I remember looking right down at the ashtry and the cigs laying there. When I turned around to head out thats when I saw the window overlooking the altar. At that point I thought to my self how strange. And wondered who could of been sitting in that room and why.But walkedo ut and continued my search for him.
fighting with my man- I dont know why I was fighting with him. Or if I really was. I just assumed thats what it was cause thats the way I felt when running around searching for him. ALthough in the waking state I have been having some issues with him. And I tend to bottle things up or put on the back burner. Which I know is not healthy and I am trying to change my ways. The part of proclaiming love also gave me the feeling we were fighting (almost as if he was leaving and I didnt want that) I wanted him to know how much he truly meant to me before he walked out that door. But it was not him. he looked exactly like him from behind, exactly. But when ii turned in around - in a flash he changed to a child in my arms. And yes I did feel embarassed and isolated. No one knew what I was doing and at that point I was second guessing my own actions. Was I nuts to just pronounce my true love to a child? Was i loosing it? How could I confuse him a grown man for a child? Why did I not recognize that this was a child and not my love? <-- thats how I felt and what ran thru my head at that instant in time.
I dont know if maybe this is because of my longing to be married with him. Maybe the child represented him - a sign he was not ready and doesnt feel grown up enough to become one with me? Im not really sure. Its baffeling.
Pix- please dont feel sorry! Its how u see it. thru the eyes of another can be much more interpreting than what ones sees themselves. Its like when a friend or loved one is doing something terribly wrong but they dont see it as that. When someone else talks with them and tells them what thay are doing the light flips on (sometimes) and that person sees thru your eyes the pain they are causeing and so on. You did wonderful. Like I said I really wasnt expecting anything outta this - I just found it odd with 2 weddings one night. Thanks alot for your reply

posted January 14, 2005 01:31 PM         

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please dont feel sorry! Its how u see it. thru the eyes of another can be much more interpreting than what ones sees themselves. Its like when a friend or loved one is doing something terribly wrong but they dont see it as that. When someone else talks with them and tells them what thay are doing the light flips on (sometimes) and that person sees thru your eyes the pain they are causeing and so on.

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