posted May 12, 2005 03:49 AM         

I've not meant to ignore this string, it's just that my thoughts/feelings are a bit different, and I don't really want to rain on the parade. Besides, I could be way off. If what is being said by Philbird feels right, then go with that.

posted May 12, 2005 02:02 PM         

Okay, I'm not really sure I can interpret this dream in the normal sense. There's certainly no lack of symbols, but they just seem too many and too obvious. I keep feeling like there is something peculiar about it, something just doesn't feel right.

On the surface, it seems to be a rather enlightening, powerful dream, but something just won't let me go there. Instead, I feel pain, confusion, and desperation. There is something almost schitzophrenic about the changing animals, culminating in the "hysterical and crazed" symbol of the hyena, and the "strange caravan ... and mythical creatures" scene feels almost illusory or delusional. Now, I'm not saying that you, Fayte, are delusional or schitzophrenic, it just feels like the nature of the symbology, a description of the symbols and how they are presented.

The softest way for me to view this dream is as compensatory. To me, it feels like perhaps the light and over-confidence symbolized in the dream is compensation for a lack of these in waking life. Perhaps there is a part of you that is in need of validation, for attention, a need to be needed. Perhaps, behind the delightful appearance of who we know as Fayte, there lies a soul who is having difficulty accepting some aspect of reality, a soul in deep conflict.

I don't know you, Fayte, so it is difficult for me to say with any certainty from where my perspective truly originates ... it is entirely possible that all of what I said is some sort of twisted reflection of my own projections, I just can't quite put a finger on it.

So, there is that. Any thoughts?

posted May 12, 2005 03:13 PM         

Yes, from a point of view of not knowing what I do psychically, that is a valid observation. It does coroborate what I thought, but it is right, it is just not usual for most people who are not involved in the things I am. It should feel Exactly that way to you. Thank You!!!
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"On the surface, it seems to be a rather enlightening, powerful dream, but something just won't let me go there."

Again, thank you! I am on the right track!!!
And yes...I know what that something is..and you are not supposed to go there! That is exactly the response I was hoping to get on that! Again you do confirm that I am doing things as I am meant to. Thank You!

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"Instead, I feel pain, confusion, and desperation."

This is NOT, only, my pain! But yes it is very accurate! I shall elaborate as I continue this reply. Thank YOU!

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"The softest way for me to view this dream is as compensatory. To me, it feels like perhaps the light and over-confidence symbolized in the dream is compensation for a lack of these in waking life."

That part I have to say no to. In fact it is Exactly the opposite! No trouble in that arena!

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"Perhaps there is a part of you that is in need of validation"

In some ways yes..validation I get in droves..or verification, confirmation etc....The trouble comes into play, only because of what other people think and say, about what I believe in and do. I often scare people because I see things about them, I predict things that come true...etc., and for those who do not believe in communication with anything other than human incarnates, and scoff at communication with discarnates or non human entities....or belief in reincarnation... Well from these naysayers and or terrified ones, I get ridiculed and called crazy.

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"...for attention, a need to be needed."

Those are aspects that are being well fulfilled...no problem there.
It is only the ridicule from naysayers....and terrified ones that cause/have caused problems. I have in the past been attacked, assaulted and my life threatened by what I call rabid Christians. These people have physically hurt me, and even their children have severely beaten my son when he was little, because of what they know I do. In my younger days I would trance out in public, I often without even realizing it, would give spontaneous readings, warnings to people, even perfect strangers. Until I met my husband I could usually not stop myself, it was something that simply just happened when I was "triggered" by coming into physical contact or making unexpected but prolonged eye to eye contact with people. I have since learned to sheild, thanks to the help of my husband. Have you ever seen the movie, "Minority Report" and also "The Gift", and "The Sixth Sense"....That is what I am like...I dont have a movie analogy off the top of my head to give as an example of other things relevant to me...but I'll think of some and get back to you. Its too much to explain.

Ok..Next..Quote:

"Perhaps, behind the delightful appearance of who we know as Fayte, there lies a soul who is having difficulty accepting some aspect of reality"

Yes, the intolerance and hatred that people display, especially when it involves religion, race, etc.etc., and I mean that on a planet wide scale...not just my own encounters with such intolerance, fear and hate!
I would give myself freely, if it would erase such vileness from the human condition...because despite that, I feel intense compassion, yes even for those so full of fear and hate! I feel such love and compassion for the human race, but it brings me much pain to see them suffering as they move through their lives. I do what I can, and much of it in the psychic etc. arena, or connected to it.

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"a soul in deep conflict"

Yes...because I am not allowed to warn or interfere in many cases, and I often have to keep my mouth shut and not give someone a warning, unless they ask for one....and that sometimes drives me crazy. Do you have any idea what is is like when you look at someone and you can "see" what is going to happen, but you don't dare say it? And then it does, and it was terrible, and you were right? Things like that do conflict within me. But I usually do not give warnings, at least not unless asked, because in the past I was accused of being a witch and causing the event to happen! If I could cause such things, I would not have been assaulted many times, my son not beaten, more than once... and I would have figured out how to win the lottery or something cool like that.

posted May 12, 2005 03:36 PM         

"That helps me to understand more, but there is still something."

Yes..... do not worry...

posted May 13, 2005 04:00 AM         

Fayte, you have said a great deal to fortify your position, and much of it makes sense, but that 'something' which keeps itching me has not been scratched. I don't know what that means, but another 'something' tells me that maybe well enough should be left alone, for now. Maybe someday I will be able to understand. Peace to you.