posted September 30, 2010 09:28 AM
Last night I had 3 small sequential dreams, in which deal with some sort of transformation, i think:
First, I am in a vast, vacant warehouse with 5 other people (who I do not recognize, but know they are my friends). We are hiding, because somehow we know that others are in the warehouse, searching for us. My comrades are below me, and I am on a high-rise scaffold up against the wall. Suddenly, 3 shirtless demon-like people come raging into our area, and attack my friends. I watch as they fight, and see that my friends are losing and will surely die. So i go to jump down from the scaffold, but when I do, two great black wings pierce from my back, and fly me to the ground. I am now a shirtless man, with a jesus-lean muscular body, silver blue hair and pointed nails. I fight these demons and kill them with my bare hands. I look up and see bats hanging upside-down from the ceiling. I fly up and murder them.
Then I am on my grade-school playground (back to being my girl-self) with 20-30 classmates. We are playing basketball. Me against all of them. I know that I am better than all of them, and they know it to. I charge down the long playground, to the basket, which they all defend. Yet every time I am soaring through the air to make a shot, the ball misses. Finally, without ever having made a basket, the bell rings, and they line-up to go inside.
The ball, however, rolls into a small patch of bush-covered, vine-invested trees at the other end of the playground. I go to retrieve it, and a little boy follows me. I climb up to the branches, and grab the ball. A bundle of vines fall on me, and I am afraid they are snakes. I toss the boy the ball, and tell him I am going to transform. I then begin to crawl up the viney branches, and my body turns into a black snake.
NOW, let me just tell you, that in my waking life, I kill NOTHING. No meat, no bugs, I even rescue snakes that try to cross the road. AND I am a very good basketball player- shooting is what I'm best at. AND, I am TRULY snake-phobic!! They terrify me, and I often have nightmares of them.
So the only thing I can think of, is that in my waking life I'm becoming something I'm afraid of? I don't like who I am turning out to be? Others fear me? I fear myself???