posted May 02, 2012 10:19 AM            

Amongst so many other segments, this is what I remember most clearly.

I was in a movie I think, playing the love interest in some Ryan Gosling film (BTW, I have never seen him in any of his romantic roles except "Lars and the Real Girl" about a sex doll). He played a guy that was fine around everyone else, but when we were alone together he would have rage fits and break and smash all kinds of stuff. Then I realized that if I was going to be "with" this man, then I was going to have to start releasing some of that rage for him, so I went to his house while he wasn't there and started smashing his stuff. I was crushing things through walls, and bashing other stuff with chairs, it was madness. Then he came home and found me, and he was just so happy about it.

So this relates to my life. I have been with my boyfriend for a little over 5 yrs now, and the number one and two things that I really can't stand about our relationship are 1) Lack of reciprocity of open affection, and 2) caged rage.
I have a lot of anxiety around him often because I never know what is going to set him off. I'll say one thing and BLAM, the TV remote goes through the window -glass everywhere- chaos ensues. I've never officially broken up with anyone before, but I've told him that I don't want to be with him anymore, I told him to pack his stuff I'm done, and he just stayed anyway. I don't think this guy would take hint without the cops involved, and I'm just not ready to go to those lengths.

Anyways, I had read some stuff by Liz Green a while back, and I was really intrigued by "the other" represented by the 7th house in our natal charts. He's told me his birth time, but I haven't seen his birth certificate so I don't know for sure, but when I checked our synastry (if it's right), his Moon is smack conjunct my Gemini descendant. So, according to Carl Jung and Liz Green and such, his emotions reflect the masculine "other" in me that I am not able to express for myself.

posted May 02, 2012 02:03 PM            

Have you tried taking time out of your schedule to talk to him about how you feel? Sometimes the partner doesnt know what the spouse is lacking, and may continue such behavior. Just curious, whats his chart look like? Does he have any bad saturn/pluto/mars aspects to personal planets? What houses are they located in? Does he have any of that in the synastry/composite between you two?
(I love the title of this thread btw. Haha)
To be silly...---My moon falls in your 1st house, so for that reason alone, I think you should take action with my opinion.

posted May 02, 2012 02:11 PM            

Hello MessyLilLeo , I think your dream is trying to tell you something!
Lets look at the symbolism of it....
To see your home in your dream signifies security, basic needs, and values. You may be not subconciously feel entirely at " home" or settled at your new job or environment. Alternatively, the dream represents your basic needs and priorities.
To see a dark, eerie or confining room denotes that you feel trapped or repressed in a situation.
Alternatives could be that you simply watched a movie and your psyche felt it could relate with problems of your boyfriend. Sometimes movies influence the entire dream!
To see a wall in your dream signifies limitations. obstacles and boundaries. There is a barrier obstructing your progress. You may be too accustomed to your old habits and way of thinking.
To dream that you are being thrown or smashing through wall/s, literally means that you need to breakdown those walls that you have put up around you. You need to venture out and explore.

Hope this helped!!

posted May 06, 2012 03:29 PM            

I feel bad, because I tell other people how I feel, or I post stuff about it online, just to get it out I guess, but I've never had the balls to really let him know, and for some reason I don't feel in control of this.

And so, I'll try to post our charts, I hope it works.

And for his, I'll say again, I don't know for sure what time of day he was born, but this is what he said he thought it was when I asked.