posted December 20, 2013 04:24 PM
I have some ideas …
The perspective of watching yourself may indicate that there is an issue in your life which you do not want to fully confront, think about, see yourself in, or otherwise acknowledge. There is something bothering you more than you let on, or even realize. So this disassociated perspective is a way for your subconscious to express in a fashion that is emotionally safe.
Does this make sense?
In the dream you are "trying to get back home, in a city that I no longer live in". What do you associate with that home? Safety, security, comfort, good times or bad times? Or maybe it reflects an old pattern, or an old way of doing/handling things. Or maybe home represents self … are you trying to find yourself? Whatever the case, it is somehow related to the issue symbolized by the rest of the dream.
The underlying energies in the dream are anxiety and fear. The dream suggests that you are facing an obstacle (steep/ tall wall) or situation which you fear you may not be able to overcome (terrified of heights) or come back from (descending). You either feel exposed/insecure or ill-suited (inappropriately in bikini) in some way. Perhaps you fear that the "colorful", attractive, fanciful ideas/energies/"material" (colorful fabric) of others that you are tightly holding on to will fail or prove to be false, causing you to "fall".
Do you have any idea what this is about?
Are you concerned that the path you are on could fail, resulting in physical or psychological harm?
Your dream seems to be giving you caution signs (yellow tape/orange and white signs), asking you to become self aware (close-up of your luminous eye), and urging you to heed your intuition (your observing self realizes something is wrong with your video self).
Were you concerned about your physical health before this dream? I tend to think this is more about emotional and psychological health, but I cannot be 100% positive. Since this dream occurred during you solar return, it could have to do with aging, death/rebirth, immortality, cycles, etc.
What do you think about all of this?