posted January 27, 2016 01:57 PM            

I do think Altjira can help add some aloofness and indifference.Although I do think since he has connection to the dreamworld and our dreams I wonder if we can really say he has deserted or abandoned us.It would be interseting and fun to see which asteroids do seem to have connections to the autistic spectrum.I actually have asteroid Frostia conjunct my Mars as well which may or may not also explain my chilly nature.

Perhaps we could do the bear hug business as long as there long as no bears harmed for the costumes.ALthough I must admit I am laughing my ass off at the thought of it.Although a hugging service apparently isn't such a crazy idea either I am pretty sure i have heard of places that people pay money to get together and cuddle. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Ia5MzAJCaqQ

I do agree that I need a partner but also need space while also trying not to be a dictator.I imagine me and any partner of mine would definitely need a safeword so that will be in the terms of our unholy union lol.I do imagine I will end up with some just as quirky as me and who will give as good as he gets.

I could understand why Vesta could make me frosty but at the same time I associate Vesta with devotion whether it be to a job,person,ideal etc etc.I know there where Vestal virgins but I think I read somewhere that at the start they weren't always reuired to be virgins.I am sure the requirement was brought in later in their religion.I also think Taurus is a very earthy sensual sign so no matter how hard it trys it would be hard for it to be frigid.Although Taurus is stubborn so If it wanted to it could dig in it's heels and refuse to budge.Ithink my Moon,Venus and Uranus working all together are perfect culprits.

I hope you are correct about you said about Uranus,Neptune and Venus in the 9th.

I don't know a lot about Vedic astrology but would love to learn more.I think that I am a Manglik which supposedly make things interesting lucky me.Although the funny thing is in Vedic astrology I still have the same Asc,Moon,Mercury and Jupiter.

I think I Have Hestia and Sedna conjunct your Venus and Babylon.I would like to do more reesearch on asteriods.I wonder what it could mean.

How do you feel about Draconic astrology.I rembered that my Dr Mars in Cancer conjuncts my natal Rudra and Circe.My natal Mercury conjuncts Dr Rudra and Dr Circe.My Moon conjuncts asteroid Ilmatar and Itha.
I think it is certainly interesting that we did mention the storm earlier in this this thread and predictions of a storm.It seems like a strange coincidence.Rudra I think could be connected with storms,Circe was a goddess or witch,Imatar was an airy mother goddess and I think Itha was named after Saint Ita of Kileedy who supposedly had a gift of prophecy.
To add to the weirdness my asteroid Kassandra is conjunct my descendant and squares Jupiter.

@Ayelet Hekate was assoiacted with witchcraft and the crossroads and many other things. http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Hecate

I wonder if the asteroid can help guide us through the darkness and show us the answers we seek.She may be able to heal us but will also make us confront our fears,faults and the shadowside.

I know the Roman Goddess Proserpina was the wife of Pluto and daughter of Ceres.To the Greeks she was Persephone.I wonder if the atesroid has potential to help us to the otherside or perhaps or dead anscestors.
Perhaps we can achieve knowledge or wisdom by connecting to the dead.She also renews in springtime so perhaps she could help us renew ourselves and transform ourselves after death or change or endings.I have read that there are other meanings but I also wonder if these could also be relevant to the asteroid.

Ptah was an Egptian God http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Ptah

Imhotep was a priest of Ra http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Imhotep

Hatshepsut http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Hatshepsut

posted January 27, 2016 05:11 PM            

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Originally posted by Panthera Leo:
Maybe you should buy a new outfit put on some red lipstick and high heels and show the world you still have it mirage29.

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Omg, you know I want to~~ but would need some seriously-fun playful and supportive friends, and a stiff drink before that would happen again!! ~maybe? LOL

(music) Let's Dance (David Bowie) [4:28] http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OyVjdQXNs9s

Oh yeah, I had a degree of hotness at one point in my life. Now? I just have my sexy-mind to contend with!! LOL. *a legend in her own mind*

Now wait-a-minute, wait-a-minute! Actually, to be fair??, if I took off about 5+~8lbs and got a bit of physically restorative rest play and some proper exercise, along with a set of contact-lenses, (and I'm in a good mood?), I would ~slaaayyyy!! ROFLMAO

I'm not that noticeable, and then sometimes I really really am. From time to time there's a 'charisma' that comes on me (God's cosmic spotlight), then it fades until the next time. I guess I'm a kind of sensitive Cinderella the way that keeps happening, on-and-off. I saw someone on a video explain that this was a sign that I would need better consistent disciplined spiritual-practice (and I agree a lot with that-- I tend to get too distracted).

I'm not a brand~pretty the way younger and middle women are... But I have my own attractiveness and beauty, which comes more from what is WITHIN me than what's on the exterior. (Would be cool if both matched.)

When I feel Love, and loved, it shows. Nothing more attractive than engaged-people, close to their wedding day? And the times when God has his radiance beam on me, I feel like a Bride, and I just see HIM, and don't care about anything else...

Really and truly, though, I am NOT one for the spotlight. I like think of myself as a STRONG supporting second, who could act in the place of a First-- but not the First.

Takes a bit of patience and long understanding from a partner in order to be with me, as things wave around, up and down like that. But once they've seen my 'play-yard', the boundaries I occupy, the round-abouts I make, I'm a whole lot more clear and predictable. Can't be pin-pointed (by most) but surely understood in a kind and more comprehensive round-about way. Any harms that happen are unintentional or easily-explainable. *sigh*

HUGGING...
Laughing here at YOU doing some laughing!!! haha

Yes, the bear-hug industry!! Of course I HAVE heard of it, thank you for pointing that out. 'No Bears Harmed!!' LOL. It was like dern, another one of my ideas ~GONE!!! LOL.

I liked your video on the BBC and hugging. (placing link here for convenience) http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Ia5MzAJCaqQ
But, wait! What?? 'no grinding allowed'?? aww shucks. omg, HUGE-ROFLMAO

Ever heard of the hugger-saint? Amaci? ... In my mind, I have aspired to that-- Wanting to Hug The World!! .... The music is gorgeous!!)

(topic) Amma Hugging The World [9:53] http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6UqoMUowj7k

She came to USA, and I knew some people who went to see her... There's an asteroid I use for her name, H3/IC. That's also the place my Mars Cancer T-squares my IC, and Moon near my MC/H9. I take in vicarious healing watching her... but I don't know if I could ever 'receive' a hug. Something inside me just feels 'too broken'.... But I'd like to GIVE that to Others. ... Just a dream.

A handful of years ago too, I heard of Karmu (aka Edgar Warner), another hugging/touching/healing and humorous saint. He worked out of his home in Massachusetts in the 1970s, ministering to many of the 'hopeless' type mentally-ill persons, people with AIDS, etc. Had miraculous documented healings occur, in SPITE of what he had to go through in order to hold his space to do that. I admire that ability, greatly.

It was said that he could see PAST the disease or issue in the person, and because he 'connected' into them in this way, then the person naturally healed-themselves (basically).

My own personal philosophy (since my 30s/40s) has developed MUCH like that. If you can connect with the REAL person underneath all the facades and doubts, fears and lies that some people have been fed (many injured by their own family, society, etc), then 'that person' has an anchor-point, or reference for what is Best in them. (Maybe that's my generational Jupiterian and Neptunian square?? Idealistic?, ... but I have strongly found in my life, that it does/can HEAL wounds in people when we see others in Best Light.)

I guess it's like the way balance is achieved in an ice-skater who goes into a spin, or the ballet-dancer as they round--- they 'spot' their environmental cue, and use that to balance wherever they are, or want to be.

That's one of the reasons why I feel that it's important to try to see the Best in another person. Their subconscious mind DOES perceive, and aligns with anything 'true' about that inside of them.

...Same thing goes for child-rearing--- you 'get' what you see and what you have 'called' them with the words from your mouth. Call them a brat? you see and get the brat to surface-- You call it into Being. Call them idiots, etc, you HARM their self-esteem, self-image, and wind up with a society of broken kids, broken adults, broken communities.

Call them a Prince, and a Blessing, and Strong, and Able, and an Overcomer?, and you'll bring those qualities Forward. (And I noticed the story about how your own Scorpio Grandmother fulfilled that for you, Panthera.... I'm SOOOOO glad!)

...And when you(someone) look(s) in a mirror, same applies. What are you seeing? What are you thinking and do you 'call-forth' about your own self?...

You may be conforming to the criticisms and damages your image reflects. What do you see? (I say this, because I also have a Virgo moon, and can be quite self-critical.) selah (means 'think consider and ponder about it')

That's the way stereotypes work to damage and set up expectations that the other person subconsciously follows. That's what's going on a lot right now with the issues of prejudice in society. We are 'changing' the image, and we 'change' what conforms to bad-thinking, bad-behaviors, etc.

(topic) Karmu: A Place In The Sun (Giler/Gould, 2012) [5:42] http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JMyFnzjhaMA

posted January 27, 2016 06:52 PM            

You've got quite a conversation going here.

Just want to throw this out there, because I can't get the image out of my head ...

From the dream ... a head on a pole in a pot. I can think of nothing other than a "pot-head". Could this be related to anything?

posted January 27, 2016 06:55 PM            

I had never heard of Amma.

I hadn't heard of Edgar Warner either but if he truly was the way that he was described in the video then he was an amazing person.

I do agree that you can create monsters in people if you use your words as weapons to harm.

My mental energy is a little low at the moment so I am not really going to say much in this reply.As usual your post has been informative and matches your high standards.

I am sorry about what happened to your cousin.I caught a little of your post before it was edited.I was going to reply but I was thinking about what I was going to write.I do like reading your posts but it does take me a while to think of what I'm going to say in my reply.

posted January 27, 2016 07:04 PM            

I just noticed the post so before I go to bed I'll answer.
I really don't think it could be related because I don't do drugs or use cannabis.

It is an interesting take on the dream.I will try to think more about what the words pot head could mean to me and see if anything comes to mind.

posted January 28, 2016 12:07 AM            

ETA: (Sorry I truncated that earlier post. Didn't think it was up long enough that anyone read it... You're quick!
I just thought it got too-involved with too many items for discussion under one post.
... Thank you for your mention of my cousin. It was a terrible shock to me. Heard of it a few years ago now, but this happened somewhere in 2004, I think...?
Still feel a howling sorrow for him inside, and arrays of feelings---, that he would have felt and been in 'that much pain' that he would complete taking his own life... I barely have a few pictures of myself. What I salvaged long ago were a few black and white brownies that my Scorpio Grandmother took of me and Michael together, when we were only toddlers. Where WAS everyone when he needed them?)

I'm getting ready for bed here soon too. It's always okay to do shorter replies.... I just get carried away, sometimes. Thanks for saying you like to read my posts.

Good one, Ra! ~~ Your answer made me laugh! 'pot head' giggles
(I don't either, PL~~ still illegal where I am.)

Head in the pot on a pole? Reminds of term a "head-shrinker"?

In the old horror movies the cannibal heathens would place someone's head in the container to boil or process. They were "processing their head"? ...

Usually involved standing around holding long poles or spears.

posted January 28, 2016 12:01 PM            

If I think of the word pot as a plant pot I think of when I did a little bit of gardending last year.I would do small things like weeding,taking cuttings off plants,planting seeds and plants things like that.

As for cannabis my cousin did once manage to get some weed while we were on holiday.I did try a couple of puffs.That is the only time I actually tried it.I really don't like the idea of using drugs and I had no intention of making it a habbit.I didn't mention it earlier it didn't seem very relivant to the dream.

I don't know if it is relevant or not but I once came across a youtube video by guy who discussed having a familar spirit.I am sure he discussed making pacts with spirits, in exchange for Guidence,assistance,power,knowledge etc.I am sure he mentioned keeping a pot or jar in which would be for the entity.I think for example you could put offerings of food,your own blood,herbs and various other relevant things in to it.
The part of the article which is about Incorpereal familars seems to sound like what the video I saw on youtube described. http://afwcraft.blogspot.co.uk/2011/08/familiars-and-familiar-spirits.html

Oh mirage29 you have brought back wholesome memories of the good old days when I was a cannibal heathen in a previous life those were the days lol.

I am just kidding of course since I love to tease and be absolutely riddiculous.I am a very silly boy.

The tarot cards I use don't really have those types of Images.I use the Rider Waite Deck.I have an angel deck as well as an Egpytian Deck.I don't really use the Egpytian Deck a lot although it would good if I did use it more.It is the Brotherhood of Light Egyptian Tarot I could still use but It is a Deck with Heremetic undertones and It is slightly different from other tarots.I don't know alot about Hermeticism or Hermetic teachings.I probably could get more out of that deck if I learned more about Hermeticism although for the moment I am limited to using like I would use any other tarot.
The funny thing is my mother bought me that deck.She was visiting my aunt in Leeds and asked if there was anything she could bring me back.I thought I had heard my aunt describe a store which sounded like a metaphysical sort of place so I asked her if she could get me a deck of cards.Apparently according to her there where alot of suggestive tarot decks to choose from.She asked the she shop owner what she would recommend or thought was good.I find it slightly hilairious that my catholic mother with very little knowledge of those sort of things ventured into a shop like that hee hee.My favourite Leo aunt who can be adventurous was her with so it wasn't so bad.

posted January 28, 2016 02:22 PM            

haha, those good old cannibal heathen-days!!

(music) Yes, I Remember It Well (Petula Clark, Basil Brush, comedy) [3:25] http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Ipg_7ly8HoM

So interesting that we're talking again about our family familiars~~ because sometimes the spirits of our past-family can cling or drill into the soul/psyche of their living relative and try to influence them in selfish ways of theirs, living vicariously prolonging 'their' stay in carnality through their host (ones in a body).

Some relatives might be good spirits, but there are family who perhaps walked in spiritually-dicey even darker places who are still interested in having influence upon our lives or the earth plane.

You being in Ireland~~~ must be thick and rich with spirits who wish to influence in those ways. What's wild for me, is that I legally have a celtic name, married two different people with direct celtic roots (and ~red hair?). My rm right now had some of his mother's ashes buried in family plots in Ireland (also ties to England). When I was around 4 years old, I used to tell my mother that I was 'switched at birth' with some baby whose parents are Scottish, and I told her that so she wouldn't be 'too upset' when my "real" parents came to claim from from her. (oh no, that didn't go well for me with this abusive mom-- she forbade me to ever say that again.)

Personally my natal chart geographically 'culminates' (all lines intersecting) up there somewhere in Scotland. It's no wonder I had a fascination with Findhorn back in the 70s/80s. Even tried to get a visa to go there then. I'm 'not' the 'camping' sort of person, so maybe, I wouldn't have done well there? ... But I DO have a Green Thumb (you like to do plant cuttings), and there has been an energetic draw to things Irish/Brittish/Scottish that might have related with past-life energies.

~OR!, there have been some 'familiar-spirits' which have attached themselves to me without my consciously becoming fully aware of that.

We have to be aware of who our ancestors were too, I think. Then on the other hand, the Times we are living in now are spiritually VERY Hot, and there are souls seeking to have a part of them recognized in this Lot.... Hence, the popularity of some of the DNA and Ancestral Lines generating websites. I LOVE History-- so fascinating. AND, there are spirits who maybe DO want a cosmic influence ability THROUGH us... ~Just pondering, all the many layers of Possibility in this is mind-blowing! Who needs mind-altering drugs, when the Cosmic Reality is this Hot and that Good.. (if you're a metaphysician!!! LOL)

Panthera.... Now, you know how much Caring I do??? MAKE SURE you have that root intact that you 'know-Jesus' BEFORE you delve too thickly into the familiar-spirits realms. Make sure that Christ possesses the core-kernel seed in your soul. (It's Forever, no matter what-all-else you do with your free will life. There are soooo many curious things to be explored... Just make sure you have a mystical honing-device intact, your connecting cord, your GPS-tracker. You said you had once connected to Christ--- be sure that this was done first, then go wander and live your life to its fullest curiosities. The Angels will always have a tether line on you in case of too much lostness....)

In the early 90s, I helped write a hefty solid study-guide on Spiritual Warfare for a bible college. I had trained for the ministry back then... Was half-way through the program, when they closed the school. At least I passed and have the certificate(or diploma?) for the first part of learning (the second part would have been the practicum).

There's a Reason "why" I say to make sure your anchored 'InChrist', IN the Christ-Consciousness BEFORE being exposed to any more of the darker realms.

Now, I'm not at ALL suggesting that tarot is dark-- tarot is a 'tool', astrology is a 'tool'-- but it's powerful, and can reap real and unintended consequences. I know for a fact that many ministers will blanket-tell people NOT to use these, as they-themselves have had to 'rescue' persons whose lives turned insane because of negative-spirits who had attached WITHOUT that person knowing or being prepared to 'handle' this alone.

I believe astrology, tarot, is 'safe' as long as you stay within certain safe-zone parameters. I believe there are people who work for the forces of Good who utilize these for the BENEFIT of people.

There are many persons who can handle walking within a certain range of 'shadow color' nowadays. I sense and Believe The Light that approaches us purifies soooo many things that were once considered 'too dark' to go there. Thing is.... You/WE hardly REALIZE the extreme-WORK that the Angels do constantly to PROTECT and Preserve our Soul Garden Play-yard here on this earth.

If it weren't for God's Care, God's HOLY Protection, AND the Presence of God's HOLY 'Ghost'/ HOLY Spirit filling the molecule-spaces here on earth with intensifications (like the Beautiful depiction of Dicken's 'Scrooge' Jovial BENEFIC~Santab(2nd ghostly apparition)) and with a Transforming Spirit of Love, WE (this whole 'experiment') would turn or become completely BLACKened, not-alive, lead-dense, like a collapsed dead star out in space...... Grizzly.

Maybe I 'recall' this from former Times (if there are things such as past-lives---- or EVEN, if the possibility is that we access the Familiar-spirits which hold 'Memory' IN themselves, inhabiting here like impregnated spores among the molecules... (~oy, so meta today!!! haha. I hope you're following what I'm saying?)

Anyway.... I LOVE studying the Nature of Consciousness. AND, I hardly know enough, but DO recognize that it is IMPORTANT to BE in The Light 'inside' you, for your Protection.

Also, you have to know 'safe' people, if you are curious and exploring all these realms, Panthera Leo...

From myself, as I have HAD that kind of 'curiousity', I would recommend to you the Edgar Cayce community (at least, when I 'used' to be part of these, I found good people there, who Love Jesus too, and want to bring in Christ into this world.)

And also am fond of a gay-fellow who goes by the name of Scarlet Moon ("Nico"). I feel a sense of 'safe' with this person~~if you must explore. He has a LOT of Beauty in his Soul. If you feel that urge to explore and study, he gives simple (rich) internet courses. VERY grounded, Kind person. He has known and touched the darker realms in his far-past, and I believe he IS a Good person who can satisfy your curiosity while remaining in the 'safe-zone'. http://www.youtube.com/channel/UCTUsY-hf6Y9DT84kaGGMGVA
If you look to the right on his yt site, he has a linked channel for separate magic-discussions.
ETA: I really don't know many people 'into' that sort of magic? I'm not trying to say one above another--- I'm only telling you people that I "happened" upon finding. My range in that is NOT wide, okay?
Michele Knight, In UK, would be another person I would 'trust' metaphysically. She has SUCH a Beautiful Soul, and her Heart is in the right place, imho. http://www.youtube.com/user/micheleknightpsychic
I deeply apologize for missing anyone else who deserves a mention.... But these are the ones I've watched for a handful of years now.

Please,,,,, be cautious. Guard your Mind and your Heart. Make sure you keep coming from a place of Love in your life. Do No Harm. Stay very very 'very' safe.

When I was child, I had a maternal granduncle who would come on visits to the area I lived in. Found out later in life that he was a Shaman for an Indian Tribe in northeast Canadian territories. He was also a '7th Son, of a 7th Son'... He had made a medicine for me, what I remember most is the pinenuts in it! And he had made a throat spray for my mom that tasted soooooooo good!! LOL

I have a VERY rich spiritual heritage, incorporating all my extendeds. Not only musical giftings, but maybe for me Consciousness and God-Connections? I MIGHT have been 'the last one' of the Family to have inherited it? ... Neither of my kids have this? I've been estranged from them for almost 20 years now. No recourse. ...It's like I personally 'carry' the last piece for the generations prior. ...... Feel like such an older-soul today. Feeling strange weights under mystical clouds-- yet still, FIRMLY on TerraFirma.

I laugh, because religiously-mystically metaphysically, I've WALKED the liminals in my life. I 'know' what I'm talking about...

Stay Loved, Stay Safe, Panthera. You have a Great Future ahead of you. Greatness comes with a cost. Set your Values. Take it one step at a time. God is Good---- ALL the time. Rely on that.

The connections between our charts, and the ~strange energies today??? My god, it's like finding a Tuning Fork here!!! I HOPE you haven't minded my being too mystical. THANK YOU, for being a Dear Heart, and a Listening Ear(or Eye, if you prefer?!! ROFLMAO!!)

posted January 28, 2016 04:40 PM            

Cool you have Celtic connections.My mother is a red head.Go GINGER POWER!.She had two red haired siblings,a red headed nephew and a red head aunt who also had some red headed children.My favourite Leo aunt used to tease my mother and when her son was born she said he was strawberry blonde until a nurse corrected and informed her the he had red hair lol

You may end up getting lucky and end up being able to visit Scotland or the rest of the Uk for a holiday.

I do agree that some family spirits are good and some are bad.I feel it is the same with spirits that were never human in the first place.I do agree that the darker ones are best avoided but at the same I do feel sometimes we do need to be able to go those places in order to learn.I feel that sometimes even the darkness has it's lessons and even truths in which doesn't humanity would rather not think about.I do agree regardless of the fact I'm not a Christian there some places I would rather not go to.Perhaps in some ways I have been fortunate that circumstances haven't allowed me to dabble in the occult as much I would like to.

I can't really prove that I have invited bad energies but It is possible that I did.There were times I felt so bad that I would have called out loud to even the darkest forces or entities in the universe.

Although there were times were I got so mad I blasphmed,raged and provoked them to do their worst.I aimed my rage at the the Christian God,the angels even the older gods and goddesess even demonic entities.I did believe those forces could exist but I couldn't deal with the way I felt.I even them told them "If you are angry then deal with it don't guilt trip me or punish me for being insolent".I told them don't blame my free will when you gave the option your the ones who made the universe you made it this way".I said "you have all the power in the universe knowone can deny that,don't try to make it seem like I tried deliberately to discredit you"."I said "Don't rage at me for not being frightened of you destroying me you have all the power,don't blame me for being so tired that I don't care what happens if you are going to lay me to waste then just do it".

I do consider my myself a pagan even though I don't really havhe a specific path.
Christianity never really worked for me.It had never reached me or moved me.There were precious little gems in the bible but no matter what way it was served up to me it just didn't touch my soul.There were times were maybe I did attempt to connect with but I just couldn't no matter how hard I tried.

I really would love to be able to connect with my anscestors it really is a shame that suck at meditation and visualisation.

I may not necessarily have a great connection to Christ but I do understand what you mean.I do believe that you should protect yourself and take precautions and make sure your energy is pure.I think it is also a good idea to purify your energy from to to time.I think it helps to ask for assistance and protection from benevolent entities if you are going to dive into the metaphysical ocean.

Thank you for the youtube links I will check them out.

I am trying to gaurd my mind and heart and I am trying to make sure my actions are coming from a loving place.I am trying to make sure I don't cause harm.I may have caused some harm in the past but I am really trying to walk away from that.I may get very despondent but I do try to tell myself that isn't me anymore and I am not going there again.

Your granduncle sounded absolutely magical.

I hope you will be safe,healthy and happy mirage
I didn't mind you getting all mystical I love when you get all mystical.

Lisa Thiel Gaelic Prayer http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cGqVZRc26oI

The Irish Tenors When Irish Eyes Are Smiling http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KHSV8igDiEo

The Bonnie Banks O'Loch Lomond http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=feLT7Btuqpc

Doleres Keane Storm in my Heart http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yXAYQ1AVNKw

RiverDance http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dWJloLzPij4

Enya On Your Shore http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dWJloLzPij4

How can I keep from Singing http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MM8mOKfxmWw

Enya Echeos in the Rain http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OWFc5mkABNo

posted January 28, 2016 07:52 PM            

I am sooo cool about what you said in above post. If feel 'satisfied' inside with the effort you said you had made. That's all I wanted or needed to know. The rest is up to God, and THAT is an Excellent place to Be in. When a soul begins to sense that there is something Greater than themselves, and a Beneficial Force beyond its simple existence, then it has begun its Journey. Lower forces may want to distract, but actually make you Strong and Stronger.

Heh heh... I like the way you stood up to those forces. They NEED for us to stand up, and to feel our own strength and power. Sometimes defying them can have an interesting beneficial effect that you're not aware of.

No worries about harms in your past, Panthera? You do your best, then you keep walking forward. Some day, way way down the line, people are naturally (cosmically) given life-review times.