posted February 26, 2016 02:50 AM            

Dream

In the dream, we were at a restaurant. With people that knew of us both, but I don't remember them being my friends. I ended up at a table with my ex and he was with another girl. As I was eating my food, he started talking about a female that he was interested in, but in a sexual way. Once he had finished, I gave him the 'what is wrong with you look?' and I eventually went to find a toilet.

When I got into the toilet, I wanted to shut the door and go for a pee; but I found that difficult to do. Eventually, I shut the door and as I began to pee, it ended up going all over the floor as opposed to in the toilet. That led to me sliding around in it and it ended up on my jeans. Given the location, there was nothing I could do about this and I had to wear my jeans with damp patches on them.

As I headed out to the restaurant area, I noticed that everyone had vanished including my ex - it seems like I had been in there for a long time. I also felt that the atmosphere had changed between me and two girls that had waited for me (whilst everyone else left). They were saying that my ex was telling them how much I hurt him by my actions. Upon hearing this, I was devastated because it was not true; because I'm of the belief that he he hurt me. He also mentioned that fact that we had broken up within the year and that I had had someone else's child and he was annoyed by this [This is not true in real life. I don't have any children]. He said that I always promised him children etc. yet I had been so quick to go to someone else.

They could see by my face that I was devastated because in real life, this is not true. I loved him very much. However, even though I upset and wanted to cry, for some reason I couldn't AND I didn't want to communicate how upset I actually was too these people. I felt like my upset and pain went without saying. They were encouraging me to talk to him, to set the record straight... But I was reluctant to do this.

Without remembering the dream properly from here, I can't say the talk to place. I don't think it did. In fact, it ended on him going to visit 'someone' quickly, a significant other - not sure how casual. I was tempted to follow him, but I didn't.

The dream ended.

posted February 29, 2016 08:34 PM            

I don't think your dream is random at all. I generally agree with GeminiKarat, but will probably word my thoughts differently.

To be continued ...

posted March 02, 2016 04:32 AM            

The rest of the dream reflects the pain and hurt you have experienced (lies/rumors/innuendo), your inability to fully express and release it (couldn't/didn't want to talk or cry about it), and the fact that this issue remains as unfinished emotional business (reluctant to set the record straight/tempted to follow him), at least subconsciously.

posted March 31, 2016 06:08 AM            

Funnily enough, I made contact with him and I think things are "finished now"... But unsurprisingly... I had another dream last night (involving him). I can't remember all of it properly; but what I do remember is:

I ended up seeing another one of my ex boyfriends drowned by a mutual friend's mother. The location was like a coliseum. She instructed my ex boyfriend to follow her and remove his shoes. When they got nearer the water, she pushed him in and he began to sink. I saw this happening and started screaming for someone to call 911 (I live in London - odd lol). As I was doing this, the mutual friend's mother approached me and made out like she was going to drown me. I ended up being thrown in, but somehow... I was saved.

I made it out of that location and ended up calling my ex (the one who the first dream was about). He came to collect me and we ended up driving through his area. The car somehow began to spin out of control and we were quickly spotted by policemen. We regained control of the vehicle and drove in. However, the police followed us and ended up using tranquillisers and other equipment to paralyse us; but we were bound quite closely together and couldn't move.

Surprisingly though, the policemen turned out to be fake policemen - as if we had both been caught on an episode of Punk'd. They quickly let us go and were laughing at the fact that they had played the trick on us. It was very overwhelming for me; and I found myself vomitting continuously into a bin. The shock of the 'prank' was just too much for me.

posted March 31, 2016 04:17 PM            

You've got a lot of Libran issues going on.

Libra--- relationships, making decisions, sorting out back and forth in your head, fairness and balance and Right Power and Authority, restaurants, children-- and!!!, the Kidneys!(pee)

What's going on with "Libra" in your life (and natal??)?

With all that wetness, water, there are lots of emotions being cleansed in this process of making 'decisions in your Valley of Restorations'....

Water from the eyes in tears of sadness, water from pee, you're 'pissedded off' about it too? and it's tripping you up. You feel things soo deeply and care about each detail. Hard to not know... Not be able to decide WHICH is real? Is it one, the other, combinations of BOTH? Probably all-of-the-above!

Observe your life. You're okay just as you are! Lovable.

You are the author and the authority, and inwardly, that's Good. Steep in it... The water will find it's good level.

On the PHYSICAL BODY side???....
Are you drinking enough 'good quality' water? The kind without all the river-chemicals and detergents in it, like USA Flint, Michigan case?

That's hard on the kidneys. People taking dialysis -- (kidneys wash the blood, and produce hormones... cortisol glands are on top of these too) -- are not allowed to drink tap-water.