posted January 04, 2019 11:18 AM            

What you've fought (and struggled for and considered) so much to 'feel a part of' for years, informs you that 'it' does not consider 'you' being a part of them at all.

Like, your life and likes, valuable attention and pursuits, wound up only to have been 'fake-news'?? oh sheesh...??

You had invested your muscles, your actions, your care, your valuable-self into people who actually didn't give a frig, and never considered 'you' a part of them to begin with?--!

A 'clue' of inclusion would have been that they WOULD have *communicated* with you {but you didn't have a way to speak to them}, and they KNEW you were 'there' {but they wouldn't even deign to 'look at you' --
and FURTHER,
added insult to injury by 'admitting it' to you!

Ugh!!! LoveHer…
You've been investing in the wrong crowd, the wrong people somewhere in your life.

You need a change of venue!!!
An infusion of right community and caring.

I hope that you'll get around some people who are going to actively SUPPORT you, to surround and include you, and to CARE about your life.

posted January 06, 2019 11:33 AM            

You mentioned "2 years" --
I looked at your chart.
For the past two years Pluto crossed over into your 10th House/MC -- dealing 'authority figures' and being engaged in power-plays with these.

Saturn right now is on top of your MC.
Saturn again, dealing with disciplinarians and people challenging your own authority and power.

The following are quotes from Robert Hand's, Planets in Transit.
- http://www.amazon.com/Planets-Transit-Life-Cycles-Living/dp/0924608269
Great book if you're really interested in astrology.

quotes and paraphrases..

tSaturn is conjunct your Uranus-,Neptune.
.. This might have an effect to cause self-doubts, confusion, looking at the worst-possible view... make you completely uncertain about 'what is real' in your life, resulting in fear and free-floating anxiety.

Affects 'perception' of reality.
The positive of this is you can sacrifice your material needs to spiritual needs.

Saturn conjunct Uranus..
This is an extremely powerful transit, for it represents powerful internal forces for 'change' colliding with powerful resistance from the 'external world'.
It is a time of tension and sudden release.

You may get to a point where the pressure is unbearable, and then you will make a sudden break for freedom.
You may suddenly leave a relationship, an oppressive job, or your place of residence, without warning anyone.

On the OTHER hand...
it may be possible to create a balance between 'the force of Saturn' and 'the force of Uranus.'
If so,
you will be able to sustain a great deal of tension over a long period of time, and accomplish a great many changes in a highly-structured way.
Tasks of considerable difficulty are often accomplished under this transit,
and people make Herculean efforts that would otherwise be impossible for them.
Serious study and long-range projects 'requiring great concentration and effort' can be undertaken.
{Be balanced... because} patient, hard-working manifestation of this transit's energy may create severe mental and physical tensions ..{monitor self so you don't make yourself sick}.

Pluto conjunct Neptune
This transit signifies a period of very deep inward transformation, that will be reflected in changed ideals, goals, and many other aspects of your world view.
You may also work harder than ever.. to bring about in reality an 'ideal' that you have held for years.
However, you will have to give up a great deal to accomplish this, and you will not receive much ego-reinforcement at the time, even if you are successful...

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This is, this is a generational transit. Affecting many people in your age group.. You are not alone!

All this action is occurring in your 10th House.

You also have Uranus going through your 12th house.. Dreams!

You are having your reverse nodal returns too.. which marks changes. .. Just "observe" your life. Watch it unfold..

Keep up faith in yourself.
Any sense of being less-than others, is just a misperception.

In your dream..
The dude DID recognize you...
its a lie that you are not important and not 'one of them'?
You are their EQUAL.
You have Worth.

posted January 06, 2019 04:03 PM            

Loveher's Natal Chart.
- http://www.linda-goodman.com/ubb/Forum11/HTML/025018.html

posted January 08, 2019 05:29 PM            

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Originally posted by mirage29:
{This is to acknowledge your post.
I'll be back to comment.}

Take Very Excellent Care of yourself.

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posted January 09, 2019 09:33 PM            

I know you're feeling really badly right now.
I VERY much appreciated your sharing your feelings with me, with ALL of us here who contribute to this forum. ~~ We have some great people.

Again! ~ugh. I can't quite remember what you had written. There are several people at LL who have been feeling (even)suicidal right now.

As I wrote .. You have 'already' been going through a super-harsh time.

I hope you will be able to tap some of the better energies available to you too.

I have a 10th House Neptune too.. in a different sign.
That can give you a 'charisma' if you can tap into it. It will have you in the lime-lights from time to time.

Also, people might want to be putting you up on pedestals sometimes...

Sometimes you're looked up to, and other times they'll want to tear you down.
What's been going on at your job isn't fair.

You are their Leader and Spiritual Teacher 'in disguise'..
I think you said you wanted a leadership position, to be a boss of some kind?
THIS is your training ground.. *hug*
Leadership 101! *smile*

I hope you DO get into some writing?? (if you said that? .. can be cathartic, and afterwards?? heh, go publish some of your stuff-- poems, lyrics, raps, -- how about Screenplays??? Neptune 10th is about Films, Actors. Whatever! (*heart*).
Lemons .. to Lemonade.

The key is to process the pain, and stay humble inside. Humble doesn't mean putting yourself down, either. It's regaining your center. And processing.
Humble self.
Go inward.
Live from the inside, and let it radiate 'out' from there.

I solidly dated an Aries guy for 3+ years while I was in college.
When he got frustrated and upset, wow, I mean, that dude could really get low.
It would add to the feeling that the World was out against him. ~yeah. Ready to just give up sometimes...

I'm going to send you a special song today.
For your wounded Aries spirit...?

I hope you'll come 'round to feeling better.
{Sorry if I can't be always 'present' and around sometimes..}

If you believe in the Spirit world,
EACH of us are assigned a Guardian Angel, to help guard us along our journey.

Get in-touch with your Higher Self, and deep innerself.
Lean your innerself back onto Those Loving Arms when you need a Friend.
Rest a while. Gather strength.
You can do this.

posted January 16, 2019 10:27 PM            

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Originally posted by mirage29:
You deleted your post. {{ }}
Sorry. I had a terrible headache, where I couldn't read because pieces of text were disappeared from my vision.
I took a day out for selfcare.

I know you're feeling really badly right now.
I VERY much appreciated your sharing your feelings with me, with ALL of us here who contribute to this forum. ~~ We have some great people.

Again! ~ugh. I can't quite remember what you had written. There are several people at LL who have been feeling (even)suicidal right now.

As I wrote .. You have 'already' been going through a super-harsh time.

I hope you will be able to tap some of the better energies available to you too.

I have a 10th House Neptune too.. in a different sign.
That can give you a 'charisma' if you can tap into it. It will have you in the lime-lights from time to time.

Also, people might want to be putting you up on pedestals sometimes...

Sometimes you're looked up to, and other times they'll want to tear you down.
What's been going on at your job isn't fair.

You are their Leader and Spiritual Teacher 'in disguise'..
I think you said you wanted a leadership position, to be a boss of some kind?
THIS is your training ground.. *hug*
Leadership 101! *smile*

I hope you DO get into some writing?? (if you said that? .. can be cathartic, and afterwards?? heh, go publish some of your stuff-- poems, lyrics, raps, -- how about Screenplays??? Neptune 10th is about Films, Actors. Whatever! (*heart*).
Lemons .. to Lemonade.

The key is to process the pain, and stay humble inside. Humble doesn't mean putting yourself down, either. It's regaining your center. And processing.
Humble self.
Go inward.
Live from the inside, and let it radiate 'out' from there.

I solidly dated an Aries guy for 3+ years while I was in college.
When he got frustrated and upset, wow, I mean, that dude could really get low.
It would add to the feeling that the World was out against him. ~yeah. Ready to just give up sometimes...

I'm going to send you a special song today.
For your wounded Aries spirit...?

I hope you'll come 'round to feeling better.
{Sorry if I can't be always 'present' and around sometimes..}

If you believe in the Spirit world,
EACH of us are assigned a Guardian Angel, to help guard us along our journey.

Get in-touch with your Higher Self, and deep innerself.
Lean your innerself back onto Those Loving Arms when you need a Friend.
Rest a while. Gather strength.
You can do this.

(music) You And Me Against The World (Helen Reddy, with Kermit D. Frog) [2:15] http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XfMpVHXSOe4

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