posted May 27, 2021 04:05 PM            

I. i was walking around my city with a very quick white bicycle that was half technologized.

i wanted to visit my ex.

so i go around the city, and at a point, i stop to look at the sky. the moon was very close to earth. it was huge. it did not scare me at all, surprisingly (again, usually the moon scares me in my dreams, i feel pure panic when i see it).

the moon was dark grey and the sky was light grey with clouds and flashes of lightning. they did not scare me.

i finally arrive to the house of my ex, thinking that when i will enter i will see him. but... i see a girl.

she had very blue, intense... blue hair. she told me she was his daughter. so we sat down and started talking with each other..meanwhile i started receiving text messages from my angry ex asking me what i am doing, why am i talking with her, what the hell is wrong with me, why am i in his house.

it hurt me.

so i left.

posted June 13, 2021 02:34 PM            

I was talking with my manager, I was at her home in Italy. I dont remember what she was telling me but it was something helpful about life.
I go outside in the garden and I get stuck. I cant move my hands. I look down at my body : im in a beautiful dress and im tied like a witch to some wood. Flames at my legs, feeling them closer to my hands. I look around, its the capital? I see mosks all around. Im confused.

I wake up in my bed right here where I am in reality atm. But im with my boyfriend (irl he is not here now). I tell him i had such a weird bad dream and ask for his confort, to hug. He was on top of me and disturbed me and then i realized it was yet another dream so i woke up for real

6.13.2021

it was night. night time, in VD. my childhood house was burning and I was watching it burn from outside. I also looked at the sky: it was night but the sun was on the sky, red, and the moon also. both big.

it seemed like the fire of the house illuminated the sun and moon in a way and made them more visible and big in the sky.

people gathered to watch also, nobody intervened.

i approached the house to look into it, to understand how it might have happened. when i got into the kitchen, there was a blood pool smeared on the floor and many other patches of blood in the house that it made me think that something must have happened but i was not sure what.

i woke up in another dark place at night, outside. there were some very unkept, ruined and dark houses that looked like stables. all the windows had no glass and if you looked inside it was just pure black, like nothing existed. i wanted to find a place to live in since i lost my house in the fire, but i wanted a safer one. i found a little ruined house with no lights and anything but at least it had windows. but... in time the windows started to get affected, and i could not close them anymore so that I can protect myself

then, i woke up in daylight at my job. i was working and i received an email from a russian "natalya kustanyokova" it was just a small email like: "Hello Emilia, i want to announce you that I will quit this project, i plan to kill myself these next days. It is a lovely time to kill myself and i will do that soon."

I was so surprised to see that weird email. i did a screenshot of it and sent it to my best friends (work colleagues) because i was curious of their reaction. then i go back to my email and i see another email from this Natalya, saying that "I know that you sent a screenshot, i am going to sue you and your company, you are going to hell now"..

posted June 25, 2021 02:13 PM            

i was eating bread and whilst eating i saw a dead fly in my bread. i was disgusted but felt relieved that i didn't eat it.

then i was looking out of my window. i saw an acquaintance from my high school days that i saw on Instagram recently graduating. he was in a car parked right at my window and he had a knife. i saw him stabbing two people inside the car. the car moved chaotically. my mother was in the house and i was apprehensive to cal 911 for some reason. i stood in shock and watched wondering why. he then got out of the car and went to look at the window as if he knew i was there watching.

6.26.2021

Dreamt a lot but cant remember all. I was interested in two guys that actually were animals : one was a big fish and the other something else (cant remember).
I was kind of chasing them but i realized that i would better mesh with the fish. Someone helped me find where he was and I enter a room with a big bathtub and the fish was in it. I wanted to get closer to him so i got naked and jumped in the water with him. The fish went to my behind and actually impregnated me..

I was shocked and got out of the water, the helpers that led me to him were screaming that i need to get the substance out of me, because it will cause severe damage to my ovaries and i will never be able to reproduce again. I washed off and tried to get it out as much as i could, scared.

posted December 22, 2021 10:48 AM            

3.03.2018

I was in my childhood home in Vatra D but I was locked up.

I was locked up by an old man with health issues, he had motory issues. I wanted to leave but it was not possible. There was another female in the house that I thought to reach out to but I was too scared to do anything. The old man went outside in the city all day happy, but the happiest when he returned home and knew that I would always be there.

15.04.2018

i was trying to clear my throat. it was bleeding and it was hard to breathe.

i was spitting in the sink but it would not stop. after a few minutes, i spat out a piece of red meat. then some people approached me to buy my drawings. it was a man that saw my writing and he was convinced that if I would draw it would be extremely valuable, anything, even a sketch. he wanted to give me money.

21.04.2018

i was with an ex in a black big American car but we had an accident.

i lost my phone in the accident, the car was destroyed. we decided to leave it at a repair place. when my ex goes to the repair place, i escape the situation (inside i was being locked up by this ex and now i could escape). i tell him i am going to buy some juice and run for my life. i try to find my phone but i can't, and i panic realizing that the ex took it. i panic worse knowing that my only contact with my current boyfriend is lost. i scream desperate saying that i have been kidnapped and that i need to send a message to a family member. a turkish girl hands me her phone but it was set up in Turkish and i could not send the message to my current boyfriend. i was now borderline dying inside due to panic and nervousness that i smash the phone on the ground.

the scene changes and I wake up in a rocky place like the grand canyon. i was climbing in an almost impossible way rocks. under me was only the water, so the scene was me climbing on an overhanging cliff over water. but... next to me was my current boyfriend also trying to climb. close to us there was a beehive and he warned me to not approach it too much. i am careful but even if i am, a bee does not like me for some reason and bees start swallowing me. i panic and i think: ok, i am going to just let myself fall in the water, bees cant swim and they will just forget about me. i let myself fall but i hit a beehive in my fall, i get stung and also drown.

i wake up in a dark apartment in a bathroom, there were no lights. there was something colorful in the sink and i played with it. but then i see the ex that i ran away from in the bath tub looking at me and i froze. i quietly try to escape the house but he hears me and starts running after me. i manage to get out, and i try to shapeshift in a bird to fly on a building. i become a bird and fly up to a very tall building, but when i almost reached the top he shot me from below.

22.04.2018

i was in my childhood home in Vatra D carrying a basket with a snake in it.

i was scared it would escape the basket, and for some reason, i grab it from the basket and kill it in front of the house. then i bury the snake in a flower pot.

around may 2018

i was in a room. suddenly, J. Tillman enters with somebody else and we start talking.

i don't remember the topic of the conversation but i kept repeating "NO, NO, no, no THIS IS NOT WHO I AM, no." My temper angered the two guys and the friend of Tillman hits me in the face, grabs me and puts me in an intercourse position. i could not move anymore. Tillman was screaming in my face now "YES, YES, THIS IS WHAT YOU ARE, THIS IS YOU." he was unbuttoning his clothes. i had no other way to fight him physically, so i decided to fight psychically with words so i asked him "why are you still married then, if you want to ... me ? you are too retarded for your own wife and now I am the only other option with force?". He almost faints but pulls his phone out and shared pictures with his wife and conversations showing me that he is not together with her anymore. i wanted to escape then but his friend was controlling me. at the end i was watching a lionness painting on the wall moving.

30.08.2018

I was fed large pieces of food but I didn't chew them.

I was force-fed and at the same time, a guy was force-fed too. We both ****** after and stained the floor tiles because we hadn't chewed the food.
Someone was preparing me to go to TV. That's why somebody fed me by force. I had to be in the center of the city on some chairs, together with 2 other girls. There were 3 very high chairs up to the sky. The scene reminded me a little of Jesus' death. I was on the left, a girl on the right, and in the middle was another girl. The middle seat was the highest

09.11.2018

I was an old lady who had a lot of sheep in the past.

But all of them died and I only buried a head. It was a small head that I dug out, maybe of a lamb. I dug up the head and I ate the tongue and eyes - they were very clean and looked fresh, even if it was very old.

09.02.2019

I had epileptic seizures in my sleep.

My mother realized after she was with me. She told me that I don't know it but in my sleep and sometimes awake I end up doing things that I don't realize. I was moving and talking without my control.
One night she tried to kill me because my illness bothered her. I woke up with her over me trying to choke me,... I was upset, I didn't know what to do, there was no treatment for this and my mother was trying to kill me secretly. When I saw her trying to do that I realized that my ex was trying to do the same in 2019.

31.07.2019

people were walking at night with dogs without a leash.

meanwhile, i am walking a cat on a leash. she goes far away on a fence and tries to jump away, but she gets stuck in the leash+fence and ends up suffocating. i let the leash go and run to try to save her.

23.10.2019

i had two huge bruises on each side of my abdomen.