posted December 22, 2020 06:02 AM            

i often forget to write them down since I have a very busy life until this summer + traveling atm and the fact that they are visible here motivates my leo moon lol.

12.21.2020

i was looking at the sky at the moon. Big, clear, luminous moon. for the first time I was looking at the moon and I was not afraid of it, it didn't bring me fear or the sense of doom. just neutrality. it did not grow or change its shape in any way.

(in my past dreams whenever I dreamt the moon, it would scare me to literal death - the moon would grow on the sky abruptly (like it would come crashing on Earth)- as it was the horrific ending of it all.)

12.22.2020

posted December 22, 2020 07:01 AM            

so: around either january 2017 or 2018, i do not remember.

I am walking together with my mom to visit someone that had a music contest. People could go to him with vinyls, he would collect them and afterwards pick a winner with the best vinyl.

Arriving to his home, I see its huge and rich. The man with the music contest was thin, tall, blond and had a classic austere and rich man look. My mom gave him the vinyl in a room with bookcases positioned on the entire walls, high and touching the ceiling. I could not see any walls, it was just bookcases. So all the walls of the room were just bookcases filled with milions of shiny and rich objects: small and big.

After my mom gave him the vinyl she went in another room with his wife to chat and I remained astonished at the beauty of the room and the objects from the walls/bookcases. I kept looking at a huge shelf with milions of lipsticks, he probably had every lipstick from the world, every color, shape, brand possible. The man came closer to me and started our conversation:
-Dear, you can pick any lipstick you like. I do not mind.
-Thank you so much, but I don't really wear lipstick (I really don't irl). I like my lips the way they are, I dont think that I need lipstick.

I was looking at him whilst saying this and he was slightly tilting towards me with his hands at his back. Continues:
-Yes, you do have some superb lips, you do not need lipstick...
And he tilts way more towards me to kiss me. He kisses me on the lups so abruptly that I did not really process it.

In the same time he was kissing me, my mom and his wife were on the hallway and saw us. His wife was also blond, smaller, on the chubby side. She instantly ran from the scene yelling in shock and my mother ran after her. Then the man started yelling also: "I WILL JUMP FROM THE WINDOW< I WILL KILL MYSELF, I KILL MYSELF, NO, NO (etc.)". He went to the balcony and sat on the window sill ready to jump but I quickly go to him and say "If you jump, I will throw myself first". And I also sit on the window sill ready to jump next to him. After some time he calms down and goes back into the house to search for his wife and disappears.

Meanwhile, my mom comes back. She is yelling with hate, asking me continuously "Why did you kiss him, why are you crazy, you are crazy, i ruined her life, do you know i ruined their life (...)." I kept telling her that I DID NOT KISS him, he did instead but she just didnt believe me. At that point something in me broke completely and I was in the worst pain of my life. I was thinking: She did not believe. My mom did not believe. I started sobbing and crying and yelling, closing my eyes.

I woke up on a white hallway, I was leaving the room of a psychiatrist. I knew that I was there to treat my pain because it scarred me for life. I leave the bulding and I enter a bus to go home and I felt people looking at me. They were looking at me as if they knew what I had done, that I ruined my moms life and the life of the most successfull man from earth. i look down to avoid this.

i wake up in a hotel with a brunette guy, long hair to this chin, curly. i was waiting for him in the room. he comes and jumps on me, we start kissing very passionately. when he takes off his clothes i see that he has tattoos everywhere. i do not really remember the dialogue that happened here but it was something like this:
-Would you please cut my veins? (him)
-No, i will not cut them, i will not harm you. (me)
-Then I will start with cutting YOUR veins first.
-No.
-Okay, then the alternative is to cut you in the form of a tattoo. As I did it on myself here (and he points to his foot, he had something like a Moon).
-Ok, I can accept this.

he undresses completely and looking at him taking his pants off, there was a tattoo of Satan right on top and around the genital zone. it. scared. me. to. death. i yelled closing my eyes to avoid this and i woke up in another scene.

i was now in a big and gray house but very empty. it was isolated from everything and everyone. probably hundreds of kilometers from any other form of life. i was married to an artist but he was keeping me closed in this house and i couldnt tolerate it anymore. i was his muse so he didnt allow me to leave in any way. i was walking around the house in a long dress thinking "if i remain here my entire life, its like a death sentence. nothing exists here, i do nothing, its like i am dead. i do not exist for anyone other than my husband, i do not have contact with anything else. i am dead".
my husband was playing some sort of instrument on the first floor of the house, i was on the second and crying because i was alive and dead in the same time. i remembered that my husband had a daily routine in which he would spray a specific dust on the field surrounding the house. the field was full of graveyards and dead and rotting people under it. i was crying, trying to contact someone from the outside but i couldnt.

i wake up in the back of a scene, i was in a wonderful gala dress with 2 other girls. i was at a award ceremony and apparently my artist husband won it. so i go on the scene together with the husband in front of the people so that he can receive the award and give a speech. i was happy, but then i realize that.... HE WON THE MUSIC CONTEST FROM THE BEGINNING OF THE DREAM WITH THE VINYLS.
so then i realize that its my only way to escape this now. i did not have any other chance in the future to get out of the house i was stuck in. i threw myself in the public, stuck myself to the ground and tried to crawl to an exit door to escape. everyone panicked, my husband was trying to come after me. i quickly ran outside and exactly in the last second i caught a bus and i was yelling to the driver to get me anywhere since i want to escape.

posted December 24, 2020 07:06 PM            

Your dreams on the moon sound peculiar. I wonder what feminine figure or motive you felt to be that threatening. Whatever it was, it seems like you regained peace and a sense of normality and naturalness about it all.

Do you remember what made you bite the girl's arm? Maybe it was some aggression taking place? Harming your own ability and capability, could that be? I think the danger of losing your teeth has to do with the threat of losing power. I've read somewhere it could relate to loss of self esteem. Does any of that resonate with your waking life? And your boyfriend plays, perhaps, the role of the keeper of your strength or self esteem? Why or how are you sabotaging yourself, and what role does your boyfriend and your intimate connection plays in this regard?

posted December 25, 2020 06:42 PM            

Ikd really about the mom/feminine idea. Regarding my mom, i am now moved far from her and she does not upset me that much (she was upsetting me when i used to dream that the growing moon would be the end of it all). Feminity, nothing really changed, im just more mature

I bit the girls arm just to 100% test my strength. It was a fun test for me that ended up with my teeth afflicted. There was no danger in me about losing teeth- i was really calm about them (weird). I lost just one whilst the rest were could fall anytime but i was really calm about it. I really dont know ehat to say about this and the boyfriend comment. Power and self esteem are at an all time high in my life right now (finishing my studies - last year, on 31st december im signing my full time job after being an intern, awesome relationship and relationships, good future prospects, i really dont know what my subconscious is trying to say) .

12.23.2020

posted December 25, 2020 07:59 PM            

I'd be happy reading about your nocturnal experiences even without suggesting interpretations.

Saying that, I do wonder what it is your dream suggests you should be careful about.

It's awesome that so much goes for you in life, and I wish you only good, happy things ahead

posted January 06, 2021 02:12 PM            

3.31.2020

I dreamed that I discovered an enormous luxury house full of beautiful skinny black models + whites that had similar physical features. Marble floor. The women are beautiful and scattered around the mansion.

They all dressed in black, they all had chokers, their hair styled somehow, they were elegant. I was warned not to enter the building because I was not part of it. One had left a tape recorder that repeated that I was not allowed to enter and that they knew of my presence. So I left and went through a lower terrace full of these women eating. I was trying to leave.

But I somehow woke up in someone's house (she wasn't luxurious but the woman was similar to the women in the beginning). I planned to steal her clothes, food, and the way she was.

I saw on the window of her house women persecuting a man and hurting him. In the meantime, I was dressed in a black dress and I was careful not to get caught because I wanted to run away from the house unseen. After a the condemnation, a single woman returns to the house and enters the room where I was hiding to eat and change clothes. I hung on the windowsill of an adjoining room on the outside of the house so as not to catch me. She looks out the window while eating a yogurt. She didn't see me. She disappears from the window and I let go of the windowsill AND RUN. I had shoes with heels, black dress, styled hair, EVERYTHING BLACK. I was running so fast like a black antelope from the safari, that's how I felt. I went to a nearby store to get some food quickly because I couldn't steal food. While I'm at the cash register the same woman enters. She sees me. I take what I have to take and run again in the night quickly. I was sure she wouldn't catch me. I wasn't looking back. When I looked, she was on a motorcycle at super speed like me. Stepped on on me. I prepare for the impact but raise one leg hoping that the heel of the shoe pierces the wheel of the motorcycle. It doesn't work and it steps on me and I wake up.

6.12.2020

I dreamed that I dreamed of picking tarot cards. For me. and the first tarot card drawn was the most important, the main one. I held it in my hand and looked at it, but somehow the more I looked at it, the more I entered it.

It was a card with a red room. red walls, red chairs, red curtains. and it was a scene ... red. on stage was a creature, half green above, half black below. it had a strange shape, {{{but when I told my dream to my mother she asked me "was it capricorn? (it's half goat, half fish and it has these colors). the head, which was a mixture of satire with the devil, with the school tongue, green. i remembered that it was that.}}}.

so on the red stage in the red room was a devil, very big. then i see a lion running, he was running towards the stage, towards the devil, they would fight.

I took out a few more cards but they were all swords, they were normal tarot cards, the first one was special. I wake up from this dream (i wake up from the dream in my dream) because my mother's phone rang at 3 at night and there was a guy who kept asking "did Emilia dream? did she get the dream?"

12.30.2021

In a train during a terrorist attack. People were being randomly shot. Constant panic for 30 minutes. I do not remember any detail. But I was trying to be in between hidden and very scared (at no extreme).

Some people left the train together with me. We were walking in a straight line and we were all females, captured by some terrorist guys. They were leading us somewhere but I had no idea where. They still kept shooting randomly for fun in the people. We had differently colored vests.

I saw a small girl (like 4-5 years old) quickly roll on the ground away from the line and escape. I thought of doing that also but I am way older and big. Instead I rolled on the group a scarf that I had and thought about running in the same in the opposite direction. When I initiated the action and quickly ran to escape I woke up.

1.2.2021

My mom wanted to kill herself. I did not know if she did it or not. I was looking around the window to find her but I couldnt.

1.5.2021

The sky had a full moon.

I was carrying a baby fox in my arms, close to my chest.

My mom did not like it and kept pulling it by the tail, trying to get it away from me and to harm it. I got angry and moved away, covering the puffy baby fox with my arms.

I quickly went outside and stopped close to a forest. Snowy. Left the baby fox free. But it did not want to leave and go into the forest, it just kept on looking after me. I got sad but I did not give up and went deeper into the forest to let it go.

posted January 09, 2021 09:26 AM            

I was at a party with my dad, I was being celebrated. I was receiving gifts but dad disappeared at a moment. It was night and I went to look after him, I got out of the building and I saw him in his car. I got into the car and under the front seat there were 2-3 jewelry strings with beads. Red and green. I knew they werent his.

posted January 12, 2021 12:24 PM            

i was walking around a city, it seemed like a mix of Cluj-Bucharest. the buildings were either very tall or only had 1 floor.

on the left side of the road the buildings only had 1 floor while on the right side the buildings were tall.

because the buildings only had 1 floor, the windows were very low and close to the ground and you could easily look inside the houses.

as i was passing by, i saw my ex in one of the houses. i decided to enter his small house on the left and in the same time someone from a higher building on the right took pictures of me entering. i was being watched...

i see him and we act like we never broke up. i jump in his arms, he tells me to stay and i ask where his wife is. he says "Oh, she is not here, she is with a friend. But you know, she already saw you and knows about you too. No problem with that." (true irl fact)

So I jump in the bed with him and again we act like we were in a relationship. His wife comes in the house meanwhile and sees us from another room, goes to the bed and casually asks him about something from the house. Like it was sooooo normal to see her husband in a bed with his actual girlfriend naked..

posted January 16, 2021 05:45 AM            

many girls in a dream and the feeling of death coming from someone again
(the 12.30.2020 dream with many girls in a train during a terrorist attack is similar in elements).

i was in an apartment with other blonde girls, we all looked the same. for some reason they were trying to escape but i did not understand why. they were so hectic that they would hit themselves, running around the apartment trying to find a way out. there was none.

so they started to jump from the window (but the apartment was on a very high floor of the building, so they would die).

posted January 16, 2021 05:47 AM            

quote:

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Originally posted by Randall:
I wish I had such great dream memory!

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posted January 19, 2021 08:18 AM            

Many people around. It was night and I think that I was at a party.

I was flirting with the weeknd (musician)... and he also did it. He was interested and apprehensive at the same time.

For some reason, he was the only famous person there and I knew it. I was attracted to his manner and his power. I did not expect him to be interested in me. I also did not expect him to flirt with me in such an awkward, cutesy interesting way.

We were getting closer but he had to leave the party way earlier. I followed him. A big airplane landed outside and took him away.

***** I dreamt of the weeknd before, 2 years ago I think. I listen to his music a lot. I don't have a crush or anything tho. I found the dream in my database,

4.26.2018

A swan was in the sea, floating like it would be on a lake. I was swimming around the sea and I found a small egg, like a chicken's egg. It was floating on the water and it seemed broken. I thought about changing its water so that the egg could get better. I had a wine of glass with me and I put the egg in it with UNSALTED water but nothing happened. It was very fragile, it broke in my hand completely.

I got out of the sea trying to get a bus ticket outside of the town. I did not speak clearly with the person giving me the ticket and he gave me a ticket for a movie instead.

I go to the movies, it was a red room, only a line of seats and I sit down. A few minutes later I see the weeknd getting up from a seat crying because someone told him something bad.

He goes next to me and sits down close. I feel like making him feel better, like hugging him.

posted January 23, 2021 06:29 AM            

I was walking with my mom around a city and we were talking.
She told me that she wanted to move to Georgia, USA (we are in EU)...and I was very surprised and annoyed about this since I could not change her mind. I was asking her: Are you sure? Do you even know anyone there? Why? Its a small state, probably with small villages, what do you see yourself doing there if you can barely have a paying job here? etc. She did not care, she only wanted to move there. And she was also mentioning that I will come with her! What!. I was telling her NO, I am just finishing university, I have my own life, I want to deal with it on my own, I have my boyfriend, NO, I AM NOT COMING WITH YOU.

We enter a medical place because she needed to get some blood tests done or something. I was so annoyed and angry after the conversation that I left the room and entered another one. I saw in there toys from my childhood scattered all around and I was remembering my childhood. At the same time, I saw my boyfriend there and we had intercourse. I then went to the bathroom to clean myself.

posted January 24, 2021 04:37 AM            

1.23.2021

i was with my boyfriend walking around a town. somehow, we won a white car. (its weird because my bf only dreams of WHITE cars if he sees cars in his dreams)..

it was high tech, on the small side but not the smallest. we were talking about where to leave it parked in the city where I live.

however, i realized that it would be a good idea to help my father with it. i had to meet him at a lake in the forest soon and we decided to surprise him and go to him together with the white car. so, since I do not have a driving license, I just sat in the car whilst my boyfriend drove to where my dad was waiting for me.

we enter the forest and get to the lake where my dad is. he had lots of baggage for a party that he was starting in a few hours. he said that he really appreciates our help and the fact that we got there with a car, because he did not sleep well last night.

so, we start helping him prepare the party, people start coming, I see his girlfriend, friend of friends and so on ..they start sitting down next to the lake talking.

i was helping around but I...fell with my butt in the lake. and I could not get up! i asked for help and even if the people tried to get me out the lake, i wouldn't move!

...

i started swimming and i became a mermaid. lol.

posted February 01, 2021 12:44 AM            

my mom had a new cat, it was a mix of the older cat that passed away and a new one. it was very caring and loving, truly was interested about my mom.

thanks to her we found rats under moms bed. they were of all kinds of sizes and were roaming around that place.

1.31.2021

my ex was visiting me. he was trying to explain things, reconcile, try to get me back with him. (mercury retrograde vibes I suppose, lol).
we really talked a lot then went on a field to have intercourse. we were kind of testing things to see how they feel now, after separating a long time ago. also we did not want anyone to see us so that is why we went into a secluded field.

then, i was in a train. i do not know where i went, but it suddenly stopped. the train track was broke at that point and i could see it. i got out of the train and fixed it myself slowly, and the train would slowly follow the tracks that i would put in place.

however, at a point i could only make the track better if i would hold in my hand a very small, apparently harmless snake. it scared me and i refused to hold it, even if a friend told me that it will not do anything. (it was a very small baby snake).

posted February 14, 2021 08:33 AM            

you felt something right. ive had bruxism since I was a teenager but I didn't have dreams related to teeth until now.

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I am going to therapy atm. Last night I was reading this:

Let’s say someone is grieving, there is healthy grieving and then there are those who get stuck in the grieving. In both Chinese medicine and yoga chikitsā, you don’t have to speak about your grief to release it. In yoga there are postures that release it, or breathing techniques or rituals that help clear the stuck affect. In Chinese medicine, there are acupuncture meridians where grief can be cleared or conscious movement (chi gong) where stuck energy can be moved. Prāṇa can change, it doesn’t have to come out of us cognitively or rationally. Expressive arts, or movement is another way to move prāṇa-affect-emotion. As long as we can get the prāṇa moving, then the blockage can be cleared and health restored. In Chinese medicine and Āyurvedic yoga chikitsā, the physiology is supported in this process with herbs, massage, postures, acupuncture or other such treatments that help remove the physical structures that have developed to hold the prāṇic blockages.

Then I dreamt this:

2.13.2021

I was with my boyfriend's music band.

the bassist, the oldest of the group (and i don't like him irl) had an incredible idea for me. he pulled me in a separate room were it was just the two of us and started blabbering vehemently:

"You will be the muse for our next album, you, the blue lady, the sad lady! You will tell us your life story and we will be the ones to translate it into music. Your boyfriend will take care of the final mixing and production together with you. And you will tell us everything that happened with you and everyone wins! And the album will not just be a normal album, it will be a music album mixed with a little book and you can write in it whatever you want from your life! (and so on and so on, that's what I remember)"

I did not move a bit. It shocked me and I wasn't processing it. I was thinking: my life experience is intimate, personal, why would I share it with you guys and why make such a big thing out of it?

the bassist saw me not reacting and decided to kiss my cheek repeateadly. it felt like a worm got stuck on my face and I was even more shocked. i moved away and looked at him just saying: WHY are you doing this?

he responded, again in a very quick and excited manner: "well so that you can wake up from this frozen state in which you are in! look at you, you are so stuck, like a statue, you barely move or react. react to this, wake up!"

again, I was just shocked.

posted February 18, 2021 04:25 AM            

I visited my mom for some reason. I forgot an object at her but I had to leave on a trip and just left.

I had a female friend with an old red car, the engine was very loud but she drove me to the place I wanted to visit. It was a small village on the top of a hill, everything was green around. When I got on top of the hill I could see medieval cities around with stone walls. The sky started to turn dark and a storm was coming, I could see bolts of lightnings flashing in the clouds so I ran back to my friend. I got into the car and drove back to my mom.

2.20.2021

(weird dream.)

i woke up in the house of a guy with the same zodiac sign as mine.

he had a girlfriend but she was away and i had to play her role. so i acted as his girlfriend for that day. we kissed, we tried to have intercourse but it was weird and there were things from me that he did not really enjoy.

he told me that i should take a shower because he didn't like my smell and i went in the bathroom to wash myself. the water tap was far away from the sink and i had to make some effort to splash the running water on myself. whilst i did that his girlfriend came but she was angry about me being here. she yelled at me and sent me outside the door.

posted February 27, 2021 06:15 AM            

it was a very dark winter night. i was holding the hand of a little boy and we were trying to catch a bus.

i managed to get in the bus..., the light inside of it was very strong. the windows of the bus had walls similar to a home - inside it was a mix of a home and bus.

i don't know where i was going exactly, but i was enjoying the atmosphere a lot, with a lot of snow and darkness outside whilst inside it was warm, beautiful and open.

after a while, some more people got into the bus. a couple stood very close to me in the bus but i didn't think anything of it.

however,...

posted March 06, 2021 03:52 PM            

3.5.2021

I was with my friends around a city and in the same time, i was playing something on my phone. i saw an old man in my phone trying to contact me, saying things like "where are you, why are you so far away, why don't you pay attention to me?". he had a long white beard and seemed like a wizard full of wisdom. i did not know how to respond.

posted March 22, 2021 03:52 AM            

i thought about your message but i had nothing popping up in my mind when i actively asked myself about this.

then when i did not think about this, i remembered another dream from this october-nov. it had the same old man with a beard! i don't really remember it sadly but he was trying to guide me in a direction after coming across a very white puppy and forgetting a key.

3.21.2021

i was with my boyfriend in bed (i just arrived in his city and slept with him the first night when i had this dream).

we were talking in a very relaxed way, it was dark. we paused for a moment and in that moment i heard my voice saying what i said a few minutes ago with my boyfriend. i was being recorded then put to listen to my own words. i got scared and said: "do you hear it?" and he did . i also heard "do you hear it" repeated back to me.

i was so scared and furious. i didn't understand how i was being recorded: i looked for a microphone in my hair, i got my clothes off me, i changed rooms. then when i talked i was still being recorded.

i woke up in another dark room with two men. one of them looked like Armin Meiwes (the polite cannibal) but had the Pisces eyes of my mother's ex boyfriend. its weird because they were friendly with me and openly told me that they are the ones recording me with black magic. i did not understand why , they did not tell me why. i was scared but just didn't understand.

i went outside and it was very dark and wolves were following me. they were howling at the moon.

posted April 01, 2021 02:49 PM            

4.1.2021

i woke up at 4am after i dreamt:

a phone calling me. unknown number. a voice was saying that no matter what i do, i am recorded. every more, everything i say, its recorded. period.

it terrified me and i woke up.

posted April 05, 2021 05:06 AM            

4.5.2021 (what i remember)

i was in my childhood home in Vatra D and I sent a dragon to my aunt to kill her. (i don't know how)

It was not that big but I remember its tail was sooo long and it curled around himself. The tail was so long that it was like a huge snake.

i knew i told him to sit and wait for my aunt on her bookshelf. being very high and filled with stuff, she wouldn't realize the dragon was there.

my aunt came and i was looking outside the house, i could see flames and chaos inside. i was sure that my aunt died and i was happy about it, how could she survive a dragon?. but an ambulance came and i realized that she was still alive.

the dragon came to me and i asked him: why, how. he did not speak, just looked at me in an expressionless way.

notes

- this is a very clear and easy-to-understand dream for me. i had dream prophecies since 2016-2017 of my childhood house burning at night all the time and me unable to do anything (i was always calling for help but it did not work).
guess what: now in 2020 my mom argued with my aunt and attacked each other with rage and i was enraged too and we left. my childhood house is no longer my house now.