posted November 15, 2010 06:04 PM            

The symptoms that are spoken about in this article are exactly what I had gone (and are going) through.

The weirdest thing is the food thing. I can't stomach cooked foods. So, I am eating mostly fruit and carbs (cooked) and tons of nut products and honey. I can't stand too much cooked food. And even the carbs, I can only eat them in the evening, which is not good but they become too heavy for me to eat during the day. But, at night, they are good for when I am relaxed. hmmm...

Also, the symptoms started in 2007-ish. At the beginning of this year I decided to go for medical help because these symptoms were becoming extreme and not only affecting me mentally or spiritually, but were now getting physical with weird sicknesses and stuff. The docs said it was stress, and that I am reacting like someone who is highly stressed. When I argued and told them I wasn't, they thought I was in denial. Also, I started getting panic attacks, which I still get occasionally. They decreased because I was given medication for that anxiety, i.e. antidepressants and tranquilizers, or I think that's why they decreased. Since then, I've become healthier and stronger. Maybe it is coincidental but that's how the timing went.

Anyway, now I don't feel like I am losing my mind too much, but I still feel kinda crazy. I have become more reserved but more confident. As in, I don't party as much and when I go to a social event it is only when work related. I haven't had alcohol in years and I haven't smoked in years. I just stopped wanting to, although it wasn't easy letting go of the physical dependency. But, once I wasn't addicted to things, I let go of them. I also just stopped drinking anything other than water. Anything else, be if 100% fruit juice, or black coffee or whatever, makes me feel like crap. I drink tons of water too, this comes from someone who could go for days without drinking water. So, I have changed as a person! Like completely. What I loved, did or liked years ago is no more.

I also eat so little now. I eat so little that people worry. I also worry. But I eat when I want to (need to) than when I am supposed to eat. Funnily I have gained 10kg from my previous weight before the drama began. So, yeah, I gained weight but I literally don't eat much. But, I am so much happier now. ... I could go to gym or run but I don't feel like it, so... Also, I walk a lot these days because I have to. I also have to get a certain amount of sun or else I feel ungrounded and depressed. So, I have to go out and walk during the day to feel good.

I also have to shower all the time. Water makes me feel better as if it cleanses and balances me.

I also have strange cravings which I listen to. Eg. I have been eating chocolate which I hate. Dark, fudge chocolate cake. I think it is more of carb craving and more of chocolate craving.

posted November 15, 2010 09:16 PM            

Some of the other stuff I started doing quite a few years ago.
Like cutting ties with people who had been around me for AGES.
And I'm not like that, actually I am quite sentimental and prone to keep the same friends for life.
I distanced myself from certain family quite awhile ago, and feel no guilt about it, and conversely, I find myself seeking out family from long ago that I no longer see.
I think I'm tying up loose ends.

I only drink when I want to. Because I never NEED to.

posted November 15, 2010 09:53 PM              

People are always inviting me out to socialize & I just can't do it. The thought of being around people in volume gives me chills.

posted November 16, 2010 12:04 PM            

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But I cannot eat anything unless it's the EXACT thing that I want.

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Same here, Gypsee.

posted November 16, 2010 01:30 PM            

I'll see if I can post a few pictures of what I read yesterday. At one point, she mentioned a girl whose therapist was unable to help her; working with horses, quickly brought about the desired help/changes.

Links won't work, so if you're interested in reading parts of these, go to books.google.com, and search for them.

The Tao of Equus

Riding Between the Worlds: Expanding Our Potential Through the Way of the Horse By Linda Kohanov

posted November 16, 2010 07:49 PM              

Growing up we bred horses & they were my bestest friends & a wonderful comfort. It must have been why they were drawn to me & no one else.

posted November 16, 2010 07:52 PM              

I'm the same with shopping centres. I find it hard to be there. I hear all kinds of nasty stuff that people direct toward others that they don't know.

Guys thinking the word **** or ***** at some poor girl. Then there is the women themselves & what they call themselves.

posted November 16, 2010 08:18 PM            

Welcome to the club, T.

posted November 17, 2010 03:37 PM            

I stopped going to Wal-Mart when they became the super sized. I can't stand it.
I feel trapped and zapped of all energy.

I rarely buy my own groceries. My daughter usually does it for me, but when I do go, I go to a little market. It costs more than walmart and such, but totally worth it for the peace of mind.

On saturday we went to a popular pizza place for my sons birthday. It was wayyyy crowded, and I immediately broke out in a red rash on my neck and chest. Everyone was asking me what was wrong.
There was a little kid blowing a whistle and it got to the point where the whistle was the only thing I could hear, all the voices of my family were muted out.

posted November 17, 2010 06:32 PM              

Empaths can't afford to go out to such events without paying a very high price.

posted November 17, 2010 07:43 PM            

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What use is it being told you're meant for the greater good or the collective when all you want is a new pair of boots, good looks, and a fabulous romance?

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yeah... there is no use in it. It is only useful when you want to be meant for a greater good. I think if you're an empath, you already seek to be meant for the greater good. The Universe only manifests our deepest desire, so maybe you are an empath because in your deepest of hearts, despite the world materialistic demands, all you want is for the world to be at peace.

Yeah, we go through a lot of hardship wondering why, and then years later when you look in retrospect, we realize that it is exactly what we needed to get what we wanted, and therefore it was exactly what we wanted. So, yes... no one wants to be uncomfortable, but what if discomfort is the labour pains to peace?

I hope you understand what I am saying.

I went to a party today, two parties. One was an work thing for a friend, and the other was an opening of a club. I wanted so much to have fun, but all I did while I was there was build shields. I was putting all I knew to the test... and when I got home I realized that maybe the bigger picture of going to those events was to exercise my shield making and to practice strengthening my etheric body. At the time, all I wanted was to enjoy myself like the other people there. I didn't. And thinking about it now, being a strong etheric presence does more good to the world than me having a good time.

These gifts of ours (if you can call them that because all humans have them) come with responsibility.

posted November 18, 2010 01:46 PM            

Here is the thing though. I always wonder if putting a sheild up will block EVERYthing, you know?

Sometimes I can connect with a person on a very deep level with no words at all.
These are relationships that I cherish because some people are so damaged that they have no words, anymore.

If I was to sheild myself for my own comfort, then I wonder if I would lose the ability to be of comfort and service to those people? Know what I mean.?

posted November 18, 2010 03:55 PM              

Shielding works by putting a force field around you to stop you being hammered by the general chaos but my abilities to hone in on someone who's hurt or my connection to my son remains clear. It's actually easier to know who is feeling what.

I wrap myself in so much protection, I'm like the hope diamond, lol. I work on my chakras & do light meditation to cleanse the aura & then I place myself with in a spherical mirror ball. a mirror ball that is one solid piece of beauty that reflect back all negative energy from where it came & as I imagine all this I say that only love light & truth may come through.

Find what feels right for you & I promise you, you will be feeling like a normal person again. I sleep better, I handle stress better etc.

Do some googling on different techniques & you will find something that resonates.

posted November 18, 2010 06:15 PM            

I use a shield, and when it is nicely activated, I do feel but I don't get bombarded by things I choose not to have in my sphere. If I do want to allow something in, or give something out, it is as easy as just wanting it for it to happen. What I shield myself against are those things that are bad for me, things that bring my frequency down. When your frequency and chi is low, you don't empathize healthily because you literally are feeling what the other person is feeling and not able to separate it from yourself. This makes me unproductive and depressed. Whereas, if I have a shield on, I can still feel what others are feeling without being dragged down with them. And so, I can be more of help.

posted November 18, 2010 06:41 PM            

But lemme ask you this...

Do you believe as humans we are supposed to feel a potpourri of feelings? And that maybe depression is a necessary evil because it forces you to look inward and reevaluate?
Sometimes depression makes for great art.

I guess I'm afraid of losing something, if that makes sense. I want to feel everything in life.

And I'm also curious to the people who say that they are feeling others feelings? (as in a negative, draining way)..

This is interesting to me. Maybe I take this to an extreme in terms of logic, but if your feeling a feeling, isn't that YOUR feeling, simply because you feel it?

posted November 19, 2010 04:05 AM              

Do you function better with or without a head cold? or a virus?

If your immunity is up, you don't get sick or if you do then you bounce back rather quickly yeah? Yes.

My personal experience has been that I don't miss anything that matters. We are here for a purpose & we're not functioning at out best to fulfill that purpose when we're acting like a psychic lodestone.